killing myself rids humanity of my presence so i guess that counts as a victory haha

heh, yeah... 

It's a quote.

I think people that are going to achieve things would do them regardless without the quotes.

Hard to say on what I'd consider a victory. So many of our works, even good ones, seem to be a double edged sword. They may not intentionally have that double edge by default, but leave it to somebody to find a way to abuse it.

Closest I can think of as a full victory for all of humankind would be evolutionary progress as a whole. Leaving behind all of our old evolutionary baggage that results in so much of our creations having a double edged sword in the first place. Greed, anger, hate, jealousy, that sort of stuff.

As humanitarian and great "a victory for humanity" would be, a victory for myself is far easier to attain and does the same job.

Not like I'm actively avoiding being a decent human bean, but if I ultimately I decide if, when and how I go out, why alternatively would doing something that benefits me make my life worthless? I'm the one living it.

There's the paradox of feeling ashamed after death, but I'm being pedantic at this point. This stuff is really why I don't like "inspirational" quotes.

I'll have another go since I've got time to kill.

Funny how people overlook the small things. For some reason the achievement has to be big, grand, and world changing almost immidiately to be considered an achievment. Probably because most people only see the short term and not the long one.

Couple days ago my family sent me a video. My little niece has been taking skating for a couple years now. She's moved up so quickly. When I was healthy, and even now, I help fund the expenses needed for her to keep going. It got me thinking at least.

She was the reason I pulled myself out of the dark place I was in years back. She was the reason I did a lot of things in my life. I saw an opportunity to help give somebody all the things I never had.

I can't say it for certain but I can hope. She's going to grow up sensible, smart, and caring. As stubborn as the rest of my family members. She's going to make somebody's life special and maybe one day she's going to have kids of her own that she's going to take care of and raise with the same values we gave her.

I probably won't ever see those kids. But down the line, long after I'm gone, my actions will still be there. I helped make one less dysfunctional family. One less person in the world who wasn't fucked up. And hopefully, through generations of people, my actions will carry on and be echoed by family. You don't have to be big or grand to achieve something worthwhile.

"Inspirational" quotes like that always seem to downplay or even shun something important yet small while raising the large up on a pedestal and saying "You're a failure if you don't reach this height." The world will never be full of heavy hitters and big achievers. If it was, they wouldn't be heavy hitters and big achievers anymore.

Some people out there just aren't going to end up on the high road. Silently implying that they aren't worth a damn if they're not on it is just another form of ego boosting and pointless flattery outside of reality.