Quote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.
Quote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.
Quote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.
I think about it a lot.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.
Quote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/
Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.
Quote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:39:01 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.Come on dude. Look back to the good old days on here. Remember the videos you made? Remember the one where you made Kyio a soda can and shot her up and told Cheat to demote her? I know that was in character but that shit made me laugh so hard.Don't lose yourself man.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:41:13 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:39:01 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.Come on dude. Look back to the good old days on here. Remember the videos you made? Remember the one where you made Kyio a soda can and shot her up and told Cheat to demote her? I know that was in character but that shit made me laugh so hard.Don't lose yourself man.The thing is I felt the same way then as I do now. I made a lot of my old videos just as a way to escape from my problems. Somewhere along the way I stopped trying to escape and I've just sort of accepted it.It's not like a lot has changed.
Quote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:43:49 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:41:13 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:39:01 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.Come on dude. Look back to the good old days on here. Remember the videos you made? Remember the one where you made Kyio a soda can and shot her up and told Cheat to demote her? I know that was in character but that shit made me laugh so hard.Don't lose yourself man.The thing is I felt the same way then as I do now. I made a lot of my old videos just as a way to escape from my problems. Somewhere along the way I stopped trying to escape and I've just sort of accepted it.It's not like a lot has changed.:/We all are trying to escape. I don't think you should kill yourself at all. Its a waste of potentialYouTubeThis is still the best video you have ever made in my opinion. Properly executed and everything.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:46:33 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:43:49 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:41:13 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:39:01 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.Come on dude. Look back to the good old days on here. Remember the videos you made? Remember the one where you made Kyio a soda can and shot her up and told Cheat to demote her? I know that was in character but that shit made me laugh so hard.Don't lose yourself man.The thing is I felt the same way then as I do now. I made a lot of my old videos just as a way to escape from my problems. Somewhere along the way I stopped trying to escape and I've just sort of accepted it.It's not like a lot has changed.:/We all are trying to escape. I don't think you should kill yourself at all. Its a waste of potentialYouTubeThis is still the best video you have ever made in my opinion. Properly executed and everything.I appreciate it. I'm just tired is all.I wanna take a nice long nap.
Quote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:48:44 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:46:33 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:43:49 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:41:13 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:39:01 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.Come on dude. Look back to the good old days on here. Remember the videos you made? Remember the one where you made Kyio a soda can and shot her up and told Cheat to demote her? I know that was in character but that shit made me laugh so hard.Don't lose yourself man.The thing is I felt the same way then as I do now. I made a lot of my old videos just as a way to escape from my problems. Somewhere along the way I stopped trying to escape and I've just sort of accepted it.It's not like a lot has changed.:/We all are trying to escape. I don't think you should kill yourself at all. Its a waste of potentialYouTubeThis is still the best video you have ever made in my opinion. Properly executed and everything.I appreciate it. I'm just tired is all.I wanna take a nice long nap.Maybe that's what you need. Take a nap and just think things over with a fresh mind man.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:52:33 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:48:44 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:46:33 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:43:49 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:41:13 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:39:01 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.Come on dude. Look back to the good old days on here. Remember the videos you made? Remember the one where you made Kyio a soda can and shot her up and told Cheat to demote her? I know that was in character but that shit made me laugh so hard.Don't lose yourself man.The thing is I felt the same way then as I do now. I made a lot of my old videos just as a way to escape from my problems. Somewhere along the way I stopped trying to escape and I've just sort of accepted it.It's not like a lot has changed.:/We all are trying to escape. I don't think you should kill yourself at all. Its a waste of potentialYouTubeThis is still the best video you have ever made in my opinion. Properly executed and everything.I appreciate it. I'm just tired is all.I wanna take a nice long nap.Maybe that's what you need. Take a nap and just think things over with a fresh mind man.I do this often. I spend a lot of time sleeping and when I wake up I wish I hadn't. I'd like to sleep a little longer to be honest.
Quote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:55:15 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:52:33 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:48:44 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:46:33 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:43:49 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:41:13 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:39:01 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.Come on dude. Look back to the good old days on here. Remember the videos you made? Remember the one where you made Kyio a soda can and shot her up and told Cheat to demote her? I know that was in character but that shit made me laugh so hard.Don't lose yourself man.The thing is I felt the same way then as I do now. I made a lot of my old videos just as a way to escape from my problems. Somewhere along the way I stopped trying to escape and I've just sort of accepted it.It's not like a lot has changed.:/We all are trying to escape. I don't think you should kill yourself at all. Its a waste of potentialYouTubeThis is still the best video you have ever made in my opinion. Properly executed and everything.I appreciate it. I'm just tired is all.I wanna take a nice long nap.Maybe that's what you need. Take a nap and just think things over with a fresh mind man.I do this often. I spend a lot of time sleeping and when I wake up I wish I hadn't. I'd like to sleep a little longer to be honest.Again, I think that's what you really need. Just sleep.
Quote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:56:00 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:55:15 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:52:33 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:48:44 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:46:33 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:43:49 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:41:13 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:39:01 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:36:09 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:35:28 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 10:23:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 10:04:10 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:59:17 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:58:19 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on February 10, 2016, 09:56:28 PMQuote from: TheOneTrueDesticle on February 10, 2016, 09:51:27 PMQuote from: Decimator Omega on December 13, 2015, 02:03:52 AMI think about it a lot.Same. I'll probably end up doing it before the year is out. I don't realistically see another outcome.It's frustrating not being able to get help with it though. I'm pretty much on my own and if I mention it to anyone their first response is "zomg you can't an hero think of the people in your life" etc.Nobody cares about what I want.If this is a joke its not funny.I'm posting in Serious and posting seriously. Reconsider this and read my reply again.No shit it's not funny.Then like me you need to get help.It's not like I haven't tried before. I've been actively looking for help and switching medications and all manner of other shit for over two years now. There's a certain point where I'd much rather give up because it's easier to do so.If things don't change after this medication or the next one or the next one after that...I just don't like sitting here holding on to some hope that things might get better. It's pointless.You shouldn't give up. You only live once. There is going to be nothing after death. Once you make that decision and you kick the bucket, its over. You can't undo it later.The nice thing is when I decide to make the decision, at least I won't need to worry about it. No regrets, no nothing.What is it that has you in this state of mind? :/I'm not sure. I've thought about it for a long time and I've tried to think about how things used to be. It's hard to remember a time when this wasn't how things were. It just sort of is.Come on dude. Look back to the good old days on here. Remember the videos you made? Remember the one where you made Kyio a soda can and shot her up and told Cheat to demote her? I know that was in character but that shit made me laugh so hard.Don't lose yourself man.The thing is I felt the same way then as I do now. I made a lot of my old videos just as a way to escape from my problems. Somewhere along the way I stopped trying to escape and I've just sort of accepted it.It's not like a lot has changed.:/We all are trying to escape. I don't think you should kill yourself at all. Its a waste of potentialYouTubeThis is still the best video you have ever made in my opinion. Properly executed and everything.I appreciate it. I'm just tired is all.I wanna take a nice long nap.Maybe that's what you need. Take a nap and just think things over with a fresh mind man.I do this often. I spend a lot of time sleeping and when I wake up I wish I hadn't. I'd like to sleep a little longer to be honest.Again, I think that's what you really need. Just sleep.I'm sick of spending hours trying to get to sleep and then being too tired to do anything I want to do. It's getting to me.I don't want to sit here and shoot the shit about my dumb problems, I'm just frustrated.
I attempted suicide today. Almost worked, but the rope I tied to the tree trunk was loose enough to where I fell to the ground. I don't know what to do anymore, really.
It's better, now. I've been talking to people about it. It's strange, though, thinking about it. Just then I was willing to end it all, now I feel...fine, kinda.
Just then I was willing to end it all, now I feel...fine, kinda.
Quote from: Mega Sceptile on March 23, 2016, 11:57:36 PMwell, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.Wait, that's actually something you can legally do?
well, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.
Quote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:14:55 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:09:01 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 23, 2016, 11:57:36 PMwell, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.Wait, that's actually something you can legally do? they can legally in the way of a restraining order, and they're friends with the judge, so now both me, my sister, and our families can no longer be within 200 ft of my parents. they also removed all visitation rights, and both of us from their willsDamn...I'm sorry to hear that.
Quote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:09:01 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 23, 2016, 11:57:36 PMwell, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.Wait, that's actually something you can legally do? they can legally in the way of a restraining order, and they're friends with the judge, so now both me, my sister, and our families can no longer be within 200 ft of my parents. they also removed all visitation rights, and both of us from their wills
Quote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:19:05 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:14:55 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:09:01 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 23, 2016, 11:57:36 PMwell, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.Wait, that's actually something you can legally do? they can legally in the way of a restraining order, and they're friends with the judge, so now both me, my sister, and our families can no longer be within 200 ft of my parents. they also removed all visitation rights, and both of us from their willsDamn...I'm sorry to hear that. honestly the hardest thing was that we can't be at family gatherings, or even meet up with anyone in the family anymore, my mom and dad have an iron grip and will on the family, and how they percieve us now. my parents can go fuck themselves for all I care, but my uncles, my aunts, my cousins, Im gonna miss em.
Quote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:27:45 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:19:05 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:14:55 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:09:01 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 23, 2016, 11:57:36 PMwell, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.Wait, that's actually something you can legally do? they can legally in the way of a restraining order, and they're friends with the judge, so now both me, my sister, and our families can no longer be within 200 ft of my parents. they also removed all visitation rights, and both of us from their willsDamn...I'm sorry to hear that. honestly the hardest thing was that we can't be at family gatherings, or even meet up with anyone in the family anymore, my mom and dad have an iron grip and will on the family, and how they percieve us now. my parents can go fuck themselves for all I care, but my uncles, my aunts, my cousins, Im gonna miss em.Can I ask why they disowned you?
Quote from: Sandtrap on March 24, 2016, 12:35:28 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:27:45 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:19:05 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:14:55 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:09:01 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 23, 2016, 11:57:36 PMwell, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.Wait, that's actually something you can legally do? they can legally in the way of a restraining order, and they're friends with the judge, so now both me, my sister, and our families can no longer be within 200 ft of my parents. they also removed all visitation rights, and both of us from their willsDamn...I'm sorry to hear that. honestly the hardest thing was that we can't be at family gatherings, or even meet up with anyone in the family anymore, my mom and dad have an iron grip and will on the family, and how they percieve us now. my parents can go fuck themselves for all I care, but my uncles, my aunts, my cousins, Im gonna miss em.Can I ask why they disowned you?My sister is a massive faggot, and my parents are hardcore family oriented, bible thumping christians, and when they found out, they cut her off while she was and still is in college, leaving her and her soon to be wife 10k in debt and homeless. Being that she's my fucking sister; I helped her out, by giving her a place ro stay and some money so she can pay her bills till they get back on heir feet. That apparently is a big no no in their eyes, and they decided that I am also no longer a part of the family.
Quote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:41:42 AMQuote from: Sandtrap on March 24, 2016, 12:35:28 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:27:45 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:19:05 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:14:55 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:09:01 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 23, 2016, 11:57:36 PMwell, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.Wait, that's actually something you can legally do? they can legally in the way of a restraining order, and they're friends with the judge, so now both me, my sister, and our families can no longer be within 200 ft of my parents. they also removed all visitation rights, and both of us from their willsDamn...I'm sorry to hear that. honestly the hardest thing was that we can't be at family gatherings, or even meet up with anyone in the family anymore, my mom and dad have an iron grip and will on the family, and how they percieve us now. my parents can go fuck themselves for all I care, but my uncles, my aunts, my cousins, Im gonna miss em.Can I ask why they disowned you?My sister is a massive faggot, and my parents are hardcore family oriented, bible thumping christians, and when they found out, they cut her off while she was and still is in college, leaving her and her soon to be wife 10k in debt and homeless. Being that she's my fucking sister; I helped her out, by giving her a place ro stay and some money so she can pay her bills till they get back on heir feet. That apparently is a big no no in their eyes, and they decided that I am also no longer a part of the family.That rings a bell now. Stuff earlier in the year.I'm not one for family feuds. I'm used to just cutting off whatever metaphorical limb bad folks belonged on and going my own way. But I might make a reccommendation. Keep in touch with the relatives who do still get along with you. It's the age of interent after all. Discreet communication is possible. I've changed a tad over the years though. If I were you, I would make a fuss over things. Bring the issue to light with communities friendly around your sister. Don't let em get away with their bullshit and walk over you, even if they are family. Turn the tables on them.You're doing the right move though.
Quote from: Sandtrap on March 24, 2016, 12:51:36 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:41:42 AMQuote from: Sandtrap on March 24, 2016, 12:35:28 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:27:45 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:19:05 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 24, 2016, 12:14:55 AMQuote from: Varg on March 24, 2016, 12:09:01 AMQuote from: Mega Sceptile on March 23, 2016, 11:57:36 PMwell, my parents have officially disowned me and my sister, we are now legally no longer a part of the family, on top of my parents fucking hating us, all the people I have known for almost 30 years just cut out, never seeing them again. drive home was fucking hard, 7 or 8 times I just wanted to slam the fucking gas and turn left just to see what would happen.Wait, that's actually something you can legally do? they can legally in the way of a restraining order, and they're friends with the judge, so now both me, my sister, and our families can no longer be within 200 ft of my parents. they also removed all visitation rights, and both of us from their willsDamn...I'm sorry to hear that. honestly the hardest thing was that we can't be at family gatherings, or even meet up with anyone in the family anymore, my mom and dad have an iron grip and will on the family, and how they percieve us now. my parents can go fuck themselves for all I care, but my uncles, my aunts, my cousins, Im gonna miss em.Can I ask why they disowned you?My sister is a massive faggot, and my parents are hardcore family oriented, bible thumping christians, and when they found out, they cut her off while she was and still is in college, leaving her and her soon to be wife 10k in debt and homeless. Being that she's my fucking sister; I helped her out, by giving her a place ro stay and some money so she can pay her bills till they get back on heir feet. That apparently is a big no no in their eyes, and they decided that I am also no longer a part of the family.That rings a bell now. Stuff earlier in the year.I'm not one for family feuds. I'm used to just cutting off whatever metaphorical limb bad folks belonged on and going my own way. But I might make a reccommendation. Keep in touch with the relatives who do still get along with you. It's the age of interent after all. Discreet communication is possible. I've changed a tad over the years though. If I were you, I would make a fuss over things. Bring the issue to light with communities friendly around your sister. Don't let em get away with their bullshit and walk over you, even if they are family. Turn the tables on them.You're doing the right move though. alright, Ill take a whack at it, thanks for the advice dude.