Not sure if it means anything, but I think you're a funny and curious kid and that the world is better for your existence. I like you.
I remember having depression and coming home from college. I'd just lie in my bed for several hours and stare at the ceiling. My record was around eight hours straight staring at the ceiling. I could no longer tell the time, for some reason, and my internal clock was broken. I wondered about killing myself. Then I tried. Twice. Obviously, I failed. I'm glad I failed.
LOL You people
Quote from: NiggerBot 9000 on December 13, 2015, 01:09:49 PMQuote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:06:19 PMLOL You peopleSeems like half of Sep7agon is currently depressed while the other half was depressed at some point already in their livesI understand some of you guys had fucked up parents and some stuff but... man the fuck up.
Quote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:06:19 PMLOL You peopleSeems like half of Sep7agon is currently depressed while the other half was depressed at some point already in their lives
Quote from: Snowtrap on December 13, 2015, 01:15:34 PMQuote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:10:58 PMQuote from: NiggerBot 9000 on December 13, 2015, 01:09:49 PMQuote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:06:19 PMLOL You peopleSeems like half of Sep7agon is currently depressed while the other half was depressed at some point already in their livesI understand some of you guys had fucked up parents and some stuff but... man the fuck up.Terrible advice if taken at blunt value as is.I'm just saying from what some of you have said you don't really need to be putting the gun up at your head. I don't know maybe I just don't understand.
Quote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:10:58 PMQuote from: NiggerBot 9000 on December 13, 2015, 01:09:49 PMQuote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:06:19 PMLOL You peopleSeems like half of Sep7agon is currently depressed while the other half was depressed at some point already in their livesI understand some of you guys had fucked up parents and some stuff but... man the fuck up.Terrible advice if taken at blunt value as is.
Quote from: Snowtrap on December 13, 2015, 01:41:04 PMSave your condescension and sob story. I don't care. I've suffered a lot and I'm not here crying or trying to kill myself.If you're mentally fucked up, whatever. But don't tell me I don't know what it's like. I'm not here saying "lol it's easy just man up lmao". I'm saying man up, because giving into it doesn't make anything better.
Quote from: Snowtrap on December 13, 2015, 02:05:45 PMQuote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:47:57 PMQuote from: Snowtrap on December 13, 2015, 01:41:04 PMSave your condescension and sob story. I don't care. I've suffered a lot and I'm not here crying or trying to kill myself.If you're mentally fucked up, whatever. But don't tell me I don't know what it's like. I'm not here saying "lol it's easy just man up lmao". I'm saying man up, because giving into it doesn't make anything better.Oh really? Tell me. What do you get for pushing it out and living your life? Pushing through all the hassle and garbage that will inevitably come your way. You might get lucky. You might be happy. But then, oops, bad roll, happiness taken away, like some toy from a child.And at the end of it all, no matter what you did, no matter who you are, how good or bad, you die. You'll either die alone, or leave somebody behind. And if you choose to just take the shortcut and skip the bullshit? You leave behind hurting upset people.But get this, if you committed suicide tomorrow, your family would have to deal with it. It might destroy them. It might not. Or you might go out to work tomorrow with a smile on your face and get hit by a drunk driver. In which case your family would have to deal with the same fucking thing. The only difference being whether or not you chose to die, or were hit with a bad roll.So you say giving in doesn't make it any better.Well guess what. You don't have a choice. Being the big man on the block and "manning up" doesn't reward you with anything except delaying what's inevitable. Even if you get a lucky roll and manage to avoid lots of bullshit in your life, you're going to have to face up to the inevitability that one day, whatever makes you happy is going to be forcefully taken from you when you die.So at that point, really, why bother with it all, if it's so keen to just laugh and spit in your face no matter how hard you try?Because I'm a real nigga
Quote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:47:57 PMQuote from: Snowtrap on December 13, 2015, 01:41:04 PMSave your condescension and sob story. I don't care. I've suffered a lot and I'm not here crying or trying to kill myself.If you're mentally fucked up, whatever. But don't tell me I don't know what it's like. I'm not here saying "lol it's easy just man up lmao". I'm saying man up, because giving into it doesn't make anything better.Oh really? Tell me. What do you get for pushing it out and living your life? Pushing through all the hassle and garbage that will inevitably come your way. You might get lucky. You might be happy. But then, oops, bad roll, happiness taken away, like some toy from a child.And at the end of it all, no matter what you did, no matter who you are, how good or bad, you die. You'll either die alone, or leave somebody behind. And if you choose to just take the shortcut and skip the bullshit? You leave behind hurting upset people.But get this, if you committed suicide tomorrow, your family would have to deal with it. It might destroy them. It might not. Or you might go out to work tomorrow with a smile on your face and get hit by a drunk driver. In which case your family would have to deal with the same fucking thing. The only difference being whether or not you chose to die, or were hit with a bad roll.So you say giving in doesn't make it any better.Well guess what. You don't have a choice. Being the big man on the block and "manning up" doesn't reward you with anything except delaying what's inevitable. Even if you get a lucky roll and manage to avoid lots of bullshit in your life, you're going to have to face up to the inevitability that one day, whatever makes you happy is going to be forcefully taken from you when you die.So at that point, really, why bother with it all, if it's so keen to just laugh and spit in your face no matter how hard you try?
Quote from: Snowtrap on December 13, 2015, 02:05:45 PMQuote from: challengerX on December 13, 2015, 01:47:57 PMQuote from: Snowtrap on December 13, 2015, 01:41:04 PMSave your condescension and sob story. I don't care. I've suffered a lot and I'm not here crying or trying to kill myself.If you're mentally fucked up, whatever. But don't tell me I don't know what it's like. I'm not here saying "lol it's easy just man up lmao". I'm saying man up, because giving into it doesn't make anything better.Oh really? Tell me. What do you get for pushing it out and living your life? Pushing through all the hassle and garbage that will inevitably come your way. You might get lucky. You might be happy. But then, oops, bad roll, happiness taken away, like some toy from a child.And at the end of it all, no matter what you did, no matter who you are, how good or bad, you die. You'll either die alone, or leave somebody behind. And if you choose to just take the shortcut and skip the bullshit? You leave behind hurting upset people.But get this, if you committed suicide tomorrow, your family would have to deal with it. It might destroy them. It might not. Or you might go out to work tomorrow with a smile on your face and get hit by a drunk driver. In which case your family would have to deal with the same fucking thing. The only difference being whether or not you chose to die, or were hit with a bad roll.So you say giving in doesn't make it any better.Well guess what. You don't have a choice. Being the big man on the block and "manning up" doesn't reward you with anything except delaying what's inevitable. Even if you get a lucky roll and manage to avoid lots of bullshit in your life, you're going to have to face up to the inevitability that one day, whatever makes you happy is going to be forcefully taken from you when you die.So at that point, really, why bother with it all, if it's so keen to just laugh and spit in your face no matter how hard you try?Exactly what a depressed person would say
I've delt with depression since Elementary School, and was a habitutal self harmer from about seventh garde to senior year of High School. It's hard to get through on your own, and it was even harder since my parents refused to get me profesaional help because they thought I was just doing it for attention. They didn't want to believe that the very thing that plauged their lives would also show up in their only daughter's life. In my case it is genetic, and luckily I had my aunt who understood me, and believed that I was being serious when I told her I had suicidial thoughts and tendencies. She would constantly push my parents trying to get me help, but they wouldn't listen and threatened to not let me see her anymore, so she had to stop pushing. It took my friend telling the social worker at my school to get my parents to get me some help. My mother screamed at me for getting a social worker involved asking if I wanted to be taken away from them, but that was not the case. They got me a psychologist and I went and it helped, but they didn't want me to be on medicine despite being diagnosed Manic Depressive Bipolar. I had to wait until I was 18, and I finally got to a safer place where the thoughts of hurting myself subsided, and I was able to function. Deci you seriously need to go to a Psychologist at least, and the most important thing is you need to find one that you like and that you can be open and honest to. If you can't be open and honest then they won't be able to help you. You're my friend Deci, and I care a lot about you, and I hate that you are suffering like this. Just know you are not alone and I am here for you.