I think something you do that brings you down is that you compare yourself to other people too much. You say you couldn't draw or paint, couldn't draw or paint compared to what or who?

I just feel that I have let all my friends down and my parents down. All of my friends are better than me at everything that I enjoy, including playing games/sports, and I makes me sad. I use to be good at Basket Ball and Frisbee but as people found out I got embarrassed and immediately dropped them and lost the skills. I hate people knowing that I'm good or bad at something and as soon as anyone finds out I feel inadequate and just end all ties to said activity.

I compare myself to others as a benchmark and if I don't meet that benchmark or get close to it I drop whatever I am trying to do and try something new. The problem is every time I try something new the more I feel that I will never find anything that I truly enjoy doing.

Quote from: Not A Loser on March 11, 2015, 01:20:24 AM

Quote from: Jive Turkey on March 11, 2015, 01:18:23 AM

What are your hobbies?

I have 0 at the moment. Whenever I get into something I realize how inept and inadequate I am at about everything..

You probably are, but so is everyone when they get into something lol. What's an example of something you liked?

I tried my hand at Art and was horrible in every genre. I couldn't paint, draw or anything of the sort. I tried for months but never got anywhere.

I then moved on to Programming and I started to get the hang of it but shortly realized everything I thought I knew was pretty much wrong and I was doing everything wrong the whole time.

I tried my hand and film editing and cinematography in my off time and just found myself to be overwhelmed and not picking up on anything.

The two things that gave my joy as a child before most of this set in was Video Games and Lego. Video games are pretty much a worthless passtime and Lego is just a toy.

What are your hobbies?

I have 0 at the moment. Whenever I get into something I realize how inept and inadequate I am at about everything..

Heyoo. Somewhat serious post here. Not really an attention grab but more asking of how people deal with living/being alive. I've been having thoughts for a long time now and the more I have to go out and do things with my life the more I feel like I should end it all. To those who know me this isn't something new but something I have been dealing with for as long as I can remember. When I was a child I wanted to run away and die in the wilderness and in middle school I began my journey on finding ways of killing myself. As I became an adult I can only think of the logistics of suicide and how it would effect those around me and how much it would cost and how to lower that cost to nothing or as close to nothing as possible.


Edit: Thanks for cheering me up everyone. I try to do my best to ignore the thoughts/fears and move on but I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it.

TFW no job... TFW no New 3DS for me...

I'm tempted to pick up the Humble Book Bundle for my own christmas. It's a great deal.

Wat

I'm just joking around...you know that, right?

I only know tolerance so even if you weren't joking I'd still love you.

I do not tolerate, you live merely because I allow you to.

'Sup

Jokes on you.

Spoiler

It turn me on.

I knew it....

Who on this forum isn't a loser?

Obviously me.