Heyoo. Somewhat serious post here. Not really an attention grab but more asking of how people deal with living/being alive. I've been having thoughts for a long time now and the more I have to go out and do things with my life the more I feel like I should end it all. To those who know me this isn't something new but something I have been dealing with for as long as I can remember. When I was a child I wanted to run away and die in the wilderness and in middle school I began my journey on finding ways of killing myself. As I became an adult I can only think of the logistics of suicide and how it would effect those around me and how much it would cost and how to lower that cost to nothing or as close to nothing as possible.


Edit: Thanks for cheering me up everyone. I try to do my best to ignore the thoughts/fears and move on but I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it.