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4831
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:07:14 PM »
What is your phone?
Galaxy S6 hbu?
Ah a meme phone, which I technically have too. I have a Oneplus Two. I had a Galaxy S4 Active. Those things are good phones by today's standards. How do you like it?
Meh I honestly miss my iphone... they are just neater.
Eh
Do you play on Steam?
STATUS: ATTEMPTING TO SET UP A LAY
I just want people to play Rocket League with. 
Add me on Steam if you wanna play Rocket League.
4832
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:05:46 PM »
How many slices did to eat? Most I was able to eat was 5 back in the day and each time my stomach felt like it was gonna explode.
4833
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:04:24 PM »
This thread gave me diabeetus.
4834
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:01:49 PM »
So, what's up with magnets? How do they work?
Postive and negative forces attract bringing them together whole a 2 negative forces and 2 positive forces against each other causes them to repel one another. Thing is its just really hard to keep contentment. In one way or another, I just feel like I keep failing someway somehow.
Failing in what? Do you feel like you have to garner accomplishments to be content?
No. I just feel like I'm failing overall as a person. Like no matter whatever decide to do, may it be have a new job, go to school, its never enough and it will never be enough. I could be just thinking too hard on all this but everyday its rather the same deal, I don't have anything exciting going on.
Sounds like an internal thing, which is lucky for you. Obviously it's still a big deal, but something that can be changed with perspective. I said it earlier ITT and I'll say it again: most of your problems seem to come down to self-esteem. You lack confidence and love for yourself, which is why you feel like you're failing no matter what you do. It's a vicious cycle in a way - self-esteem is largely tied to personal success, which is hard to recognize if you have low self-esteem.
You really just need to work on yourself, and forget the external shit. Once you are content with yourself as a person, you can be content with the world. And for you specifically, I think you just need to lower your expectations. You're not perfect, and people will always disappoint you. Learning to expect the very least from people and to accept your own limitations is going to bring you closer to reality, and the reality is that you're not a failure or bad at being a person. You just have autism, low self-esteem, and bad experiences with people, which naturally manifests into a desire to escape. But even if you took the longest vacation in the world, it wouldn't help a thing.
I see. Well, I can try that, see if it works out or not. Just not expect anything from anybody anymore and whatnot. I mean I used to have a pretty high self esteem in high school. I don't know what went wrong.
4835
« on: April 26, 2016, 12:56:27 PM »
Bitch took my spot.
Hey if I could give it to you I would. Blame Cheat and his Jewish programming.
4836
« on: April 26, 2016, 02:42:56 AM »
Thing is its just really hard to keep contentment. In one way or another, I just feel like I keep failing someway somehow.
Failing in what? Do you feel like you have to garner accomplishments to be content?
No. I just feel like I'm failing overall as a person. Like no matter whatever decide to do, may it be have a new job, go to school, its never enough and it will never be enough. I could be just thinking too hard on all this but everyday its rather the same deal, I don't have anything exciting going on. For once I'd love to take a vacation and just leave the city and go up to Northern California, but lack of time and money prevents that. I don't know if that will clear my head though. I have never traveled anywhere really and I've been in this city my entire life. I don't know what to feel and what I should do about it. I think it has more to do with that craving of escape again, which websites like these give us that illusion imho.
4837
« on: April 26, 2016, 02:28:29 AM »
Thing is its just really hard to keep contentment. In one way or another, I just feel like I keep failing someway somehow.
4838
« on: April 26, 2016, 02:27:14 AM »
Why? You might not have the best self esteem, but you still have a good life. You have people who care about you.
There are a number of factors as to why. First things first my perception of reality feels completely off. Each day I wake up I'm like "oh great, life again." because I don't really have anything good going for me, knowing that I'm pretty much waiting for the inevitable. If anything its a struggle, sometimes I wish I was somebody else, I'm not content with the person I am, the condition I have, and the fact that I can't joke around and grasp sarcasm with others. People who watch The Big Bang Theory always compare me to Sheldon and that gets really annoying.
On top of that I'm growing tired of being an introvert and being in front of my computer nearly all day, but I have no where to go, I don't have club meetings until Friday and I only go to school once a week now since my financial aid has been cut and I can't handle more than 12 units unless I'm ready to torture myself each semester. I'm living in limbo basically and the toughest challenge right now is how to get out of limbo. I've also been losing interest in video games overall including game development itself. I'm having a shift between playing music and wanting to make video games, music coming back to my life with the guitar is like visiting an old friend in a sense, with that said I still want to finish what I started at the club, I just don't know what to do with my life anymore.
Granted, I have people that care about me, believe me I am grateful for that. But I feel like saying it and actually caring are two different things. Maybe I think too deep but I always feel like people secretly have to hide something about me that they rather not admit to me at face value. I mean my ex said she cared and I'll never truly know if she really did or not, I know I cared about her. I've just been really jaded and find it really hard to enjoy anything anymore.
Oh and therapy isn't really working. I feel like the therapist wants me to be someone that I'm not to a degree.
I know everyone here has problems of there own, but sometimes I feel like people here in some way, have things going much better than I ever will.
Sounds like you're just in a rut, why should that make you hate your whole life?
Honestly, people in general are less underhanded than commonly believed. They're blunt and rude for the most part. If someone didn't like you, they'd probably just say it. And if someone says they care about you and yet there's nothing they can gain from you, they're probably being sincere.
The only question you have to ask yourself is whether you're being sincere. Are you acting as yourself, presenting to others who you really are? If so, any care or positive comments anyone gives you are legitimate. If not, they're only caring about who you're pretending to be. And yet sometimes you have to pretend. That's the big paradox.
I guess you can say I've been in a rut my entire life really. I've had irl "friends" pretty much stab me in the back or use me for something, I didn't get on forums and basically live on the net until I was 16 when I joined Bungie. It was a nice escape. I'm pretty blunt myself, I mean unless I'm in a professional environment like in class or work, I tell it like it is. I am always myself. I can't pretend to be this. Its really hard for me to lie, I'm a really horrible liar and it shows when I lie.
4839
« on: April 26, 2016, 02:18:16 AM »
The Happening.
4840
« on: April 26, 2016, 02:11:55 AM »
HAHA SIKE ππππππΌππΌ
whatever.
look dude I'm sure whatever problem you have isn't as bad as you're making it out to be. The thing is you have a tendency to act like you're so above any suggestion to fix it, it's pointless to even recommend anything to u cause you won't take the advice anyways
That's where your wrong. I take suggestions, I just don't like the suggestions you provide tbh.
4841
« on: April 26, 2016, 02:11:14 AM »
Why? You might not have the best self esteem, but you still have a good life. You have people who care about you.
There are a number of factors as to why. First things first my perception of reality feels completely off. Each day I wake up I'm like "oh great, life again." because I don't really have anything good going for me, knowing that I'm pretty much waiting for the inevitable. If anything its a struggle, sometimes I wish I was somebody else, I'm not content with the person I am, the condition I have, and the fact that I can't joke around and grasp sarcasm with others. People who watch The Big Bang Theory always compare me to Sheldon and that gets really annoying. On top of that I'm growing tired of being an introvert and being in front of my computer nearly all day, but I have no where to go, I don't have club meetings until Friday and I only go to school once a week now since my financial aid has been cut and I can't handle more than 12 units unless I'm ready to torture myself each semester. I'm living in limbo basically and the toughest challenge right now is how to get out of limbo. I've also been losing interest in video games overall including game development itself. I'm having a shift between playing music and wanting to make video games, music coming back to my life with the guitar is like visiting an old friend in a sense, with that said I still want to finish what I started at the club, I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. Granted, I have people that care about me, believe me I am grateful for that. But I feel like saying it and actually caring are two different things. Maybe I think too deep but I always feel like people secretly have to hide something about me that they rather not admit to me at face value. I mean my ex said she cared and I'll never truly know if she really did or not, I know I cared about her. I've just been really jaded and find it really hard to enjoy anything anymore. Oh and therapy isn't really working. I feel like the therapist wants me to be someone that I'm not to a degree. I know everyone here has problems of there own, but sometimes I feel like people here in some way, have things going much better than I ever will.
4842
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:57:46 AM »
HAHA SIKE ππππππΌππΌ
whatever.
4843
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:57:28 AM »
Me too
Not really a question but whatever
4844
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:55:11 AM »
4845
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:47:19 AM »
Just Ama. whatever.
4846
« on: April 26, 2016, 01:33:48 AM »
it's truly the list of shame
I never asked to be on that list. It just happened. When was the last time you were going to permanently leave?
Chances are it will only be a true permanent leave if I'm dead or the site shuts down forever. Or if I'm permabanned for some random ass reason. oh, wow
i've seen you rise up to #11, only to fall down again after one of your sperg-outs, three separate times
i wondered if you'd ever actually reach top 10
I don't really sperg out anymore I think. I may bitch every now and then but that's really it. I'm in a weird state in my life right now. 
Fucking what?
44 days of my online time. I need at least 100 to unlock Marty I think.
4847
« on: April 26, 2016, 12:28:53 AM »
Okay.
Lawful Neutral
How do you know though?
RNG
Oh.
4848
« on: April 26, 2016, 12:26:08 AM »
Okay.
Lawful Neutral
How do you know though?
4850
« on: April 26, 2016, 12:11:36 AM »
Okay.
4851
« on: April 25, 2016, 09:44:17 PM »
<_<
4852
« on: April 25, 2016, 08:48:39 PM »
Meh. If it were you or someone here that's one thing but meh.
Did you happen to ignore the multiple notifications in my post on how this may or may not be totally substantial?
I don't really watch the show tbh.
4853
« on: April 25, 2016, 07:57:29 PM »
Meh. If it were you or someone here that's one thing but meh.
4854
« on: April 25, 2016, 07:20:52 PM »
damn daniel
The kid that made that meme is gonna get it one day.
4855
« on: April 25, 2016, 07:16:01 PM »
Huh?
4856
« on: April 25, 2016, 06:40:54 PM »
What do you want?
4857
« on: April 25, 2016, 05:42:22 PM »
This homeless guy Danny has potential, and that's a beat up Squire that's been through a lot of shit. Not to mention the way this guy has his amp powered up. Hope he can at least make something of his life, people being homeless in general is a big problem in this country, all I know is that if it wasn't for my family, I'd be homeless right now.
4858
« on: April 25, 2016, 05:36:35 PM »
Cheaters never win. Unless you're Cheat Lancer, then you always win.
4859
« on: April 25, 2016, 04:53:04 PM »
Also, 3.14 goes on forever, it doesn't stop there.
Just like your loneliness
oh
More like  If you ask me.
4860
« on: April 25, 2016, 04:51:14 PM »
in my opinion it's more important to acquire personal happiness and acceptance with one's self, rather than hoping for that special someone to finally come along and fix all of your problems. that special someone will not exist because the only person who can truly make you happy is yourself.
Its not so much that special someone comes along and fixes my problems, that's not it at all. Just wish I had someone to share my life with you know? Even be apart of their life.
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