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The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?
« on: December 03, 2014, 07:57:28 PM »I completely forgot you were a mod on there.
Yeah. We didn't quite get off to the best start.
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The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:57:28 PM »I completely forgot you were a mod on there. Yeah. We didn't quite get off to the best start. 9512
The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:56:54 PM »was it just some Floodian trying to get it shut down? i was never really clear on that whole thing loli can't imagine the first offsite having too many people either, that must've made it tougheri remember being a shit mod on WHU years back Apparently it was Comms actually trying to get it shut down for lulz. He was the one stirring a lot of the arguments, to then report us to the team that ran the servers. 9513
The Flood / Re: Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:55:06 PM »Mechanical Engineering.I'm in a similar situation where basically all I do is play video games, read and youtube. I finsihed school, finished extra studies now trying to get a job which is taking a while since I have no prior work experience. So I just sort of sit here and play video games hah. But if I had a job and money then I know what I'd want to do, so maybe having some sort of long term goal would help you too.I'm the same, except I'm in College studying something I don't even want to do anymore, and I don't even know what I want to do. I can see why. What do you want to do now? 9514
The Flood / Re: Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:54:37 PM »It means I'm not an expert and you should take what I say with little value and heavy prejudice.tl;dr: OP is facing depression including severe apathy, sociopathic tendencies, social anxiety, fear of his future plans (in the academic/work world), and uses videogame lore as a coping method and he wants advice. Aah. Spoiler I never really understood why people really hate you. You seem cool to me :3 9515
The Flood / Re: Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:53:26 PM »Yeah I had brief period where I was interested in working in the games industry, but then I remembered I live in Australia and getting a job to do with here that would be nigh impossible haha.I'm in a similar situation where basically all I do is play video games, read and youtube. I finsihed school, finished extra studies now trying to get a job which is taking a while since I have no prior work experience. So I just sort of sit here and play video games hah. But if I had a job and money then I know what I'd want to do, so maybe having some sort of long term goal would help you too. I heard the team that did the new Borderlands game (Not TellTale) are Australian. 9516
The Flood / Re: Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:52:29 PM »I'm in a similar situation where basically all I do is play video games, read and youtube. I finsihed school, finished extra studies now trying to get a job which is taking a while since I have no prior work experience. So I just sort of sit here and play video games hah. But if I had a job and money then I know what I'd want to do, so maybe having some sort of long term goal would help you too.I'm the same, except I'm in College studying something I don't even want to do anymore, and I don't even know what I want to do. What are you studying? 9517
The Flood / Re: Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:51:41 PM »This is just going to be a rant thing, but it something in doing more for myself than anyone else. If you're not going to actually contribute anything then please don't bother, because in seriously not in the mood. I don't expect anyone to read this, but I'll probably be deleting this by tomorrow regardless.You need purpose for life? Get a dog. I got a Shar Pei 6 years ago, my life would mean nothing if I didn't have to take care of him. Have one, she would probably the only thing that would genuinely upset me is when she goes and she's 11 now. I've had her for 9 years now :3 9518
The Flood / Re: Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:49:58 PM »tl;dr: OP is facing depression including severe apathy, sociopathic tendencies, social anxiety, fear of his future plans (in the academic/work world), and uses videogame lore as a coping method and he wants advice. That's more or less summing it up. What do you mean by armchair psychologist? 9519
The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:48:46 PM »mfw I was one of the first on the offsite I still remember saying we should make one as a joke on Bungie. Look where we are now. 9520
The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:48:05 PM »i can't imagine the first offsite having too many people either, that must've made it tougheri remember being a shit mod on WHU years back It rounded up between 2 and 300 from what I remember. Though as it turned out someone was actively trying to get it shut down, not a lot we could do against that. 9521
The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:46:00 PM »i remember being a shit mod on WHU years back Yeah. I don't like banning people which was ultinately the cause of the first nuking. 9522
The Flood / Re: Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:44:51 PM »I'm in a similar situation where basically all I do is play video games, read and youtube. I finsihed school, finished extra studies now trying to get a job which is taking a while since I have no prior work experience. So I just sort of sit here and play video games hah. But if I had a job and money then I know what I'd want to do, so maybe having some sort of long term goal would help you too. Yeah. I want to go into computer games as I have clear ideas for a game set in my universe. It's just that the indie market is becoming over saturated and you basically can't set up a AAA studio anymore unless you have a few million from the start. 9523
The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:42:31 PM »Haha yeah, after like, three more tries.I dunno I'm not sure the second one counts. It was up for like 6 hours before nuking. 9524
The Flood / Re: Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:40:33 PM »Wow...thats a lot how i think like. Yeah. I was trying to sleep but couldn't, so I decided that typing something would help and it did surprisingly. 9525
The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:39:29 PM »I dunno I think it was the fact that it was the buzz of making a successful site and thinking we could end up having our own after bnet went to shit. Then shit happened and we came here :3 9526
The Flood / Re: Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:38:17 PM »I completely forgot you were mod A bad one. 9527
The Flood / Remember the first offsite?« on: December 03, 2014, 07:36:02 PM »
For those who were there on the offsite I was a mod, I made a thread saying I would step down if people wanted me to. However, I never saw what happened because it got nuked.
Anyone remember what the votes were leaning towards? I was wondering. 9528
The Flood / Just some stuff I've need to get off my chest« on: December 03, 2014, 07:32:59 PM »
This is just going to be a rant thing, but it something in doing more for myself than anyone else. If you're not going to actually contribute anything then please don't bother, because in seriously not in the mood. I don't expect anyone to read this, but I'll probably be deleting this by tomorrow regardless.
Alright, well I gues one thing people should know about me is that I don't like putting my problems on other people. I don't tell people anything about me because I don't want them worrying for something that doesn't involve them and I get annoyed when people request information on how my day was and etc. I'm that person who doesn't want anything for Christmas or any birthday celebrations because I don't want people wasting their money on me. So the fact I'm doing this is sort of a sign of weakness for me but its something I feel I need to do. But another thing I sometimes get is these spurts where I just suddenly get all depressive and sad for a while. It tends to happen when I'm in deep thought as I just believe that life in general is shit. Spoiler Read BC's there'd for that. But essentially I just don't see what is worth living for right now. Nothing major is happening in terms of space exploration and my view is that I'm unlikely to be alive when we start making useable fusion reactors and spacecraft and shit, which heavily depresses me. As far as I'm concerne the world is just getting shittier every day The other thing that constantly occupies my mind more permanently is my resentment of other people, being around other people and the fact that I do not trust anyone. I can name five people I trust outright- two of them friends since as long as I can remember, one because he doesn't really care but he listens to what I say and the other two are people I know from the Internet. And only one of them I have ever trusted with this kind of thing- I was very tempted to make an alt for this but decided not to bother. But I basically have an inherent distrust. I can't accept good things happening, or people wanting to be a friend because I imagine people like I am- and I become friends with most people because it will benefit me later on. Because I can gain an advantage from them, so I view people as doing the same to me, hence why I cannot trust many people. I should also note at this point that I do not trust any of my family with details regarding my personal life. I have little respect for my father, I like my mother but she massively overreacts and I don't know anyone else well enough to trust with stuff, which I believe is why I need to make this thread on the Internet, where I am ultinately just some dude on a keyboard. The anonymity of the Internet means I find it easier to trust with my own stuff than other IRL people. When forced to be in large groups, I become anxious and disoriented as there is too much going on and too many sounds and it ends up overwhelming, and I need to sit down in a quiet empty place to recuperate. I guess that leads on to writing. Although I enjoy world building, I know that I'll likely never make it as a writer because I'm shit. But for me, it was never about a job or anything. It was simply about creating something to actually work for. Because I am just bored. Of everything. If life in general. To me, it's just a routine. School, eat. Sleep repeat. Nothing interesting is happening. So I make things up. I create this fantasy world where I can tie in my knowledge of real science (This was the only reason I picked A Level physics btw) to something I create. I can-for four or five hours between school and sleep- just immerse myself in this works and forget how shit and boring the real world is. It's the same reason why I poured over 1,000 hours into Skyrim in a few weeks, or why I have 100% completion of both 'new' Fallout games, read every codex entry in Mass Effect and read the books on Halo and joined a website just for talking about the story. It's why I play video games, read books, watch films and TV. Because my world view is that everything you do is just procrastinating until your body gives up and dies. Only thing is that a couple hundred years ago, you could find a side quest fairly easily by wandering out into the wilderness, putting up a fence and building your own house and growing crops. Now it's just spending hours on a job so you can buy basic food and a house so you can do your job and everything you care about eventually is kicked out of the back door and forgotten. It's the reason I don't do any schoolwork at home; I need something to do like writing or I lose motivation for everything. I lose motivation and I just stop and life just becomes a pointless maze that you can't actually escape, and that's when I begin wondering what the point of bothering is anyway, when you can't trust the government or banks to actually make sure what little you have is worth something. I'm just stuck in this endless train of thought as I go from one thought to another. Especially when I constantly add that I likely cannot get into anything I want to do; physics? I'm bad at maths (Teachers keep me on the course because I'm interested. That's it) and writing/ indie games are a slim chance at best, with landing a job at the likes of 343i even lower. I just.. Don't know what to do and I feel that I genuinely need some advice. 9529
The Flood / Re: Humor me« on: December 03, 2014, 06:24:33 PM »
I'm sorry people for making this thing super depressing :c
I'm going off now to sleep anyway. 9530
The Flood / Re: Humor me« on: December 03, 2014, 06:22:56 PM »I'm a glass half full kind of person, but I can see the dangers that humanity can do to itself. But as the Cold War proved, humanity...no matter how dumb it can get sometimes, will never kill itself off. Even if all the bombs in the world were to be set off into all corners of the globe humanity would survive.We are in that moment in history that bridges in-between science fiction and science reality. It make take us a half a century or a bit more but these times will pass and we will hopefully make our way out of the cradle world and into the stars.It's too boring. The Cold War proved we were 20 seconds away from total annihilation were it not for a single ship. If one ship had continued its course, we wouldn't be here right now. And that was when resources were relatively abundant. If that situation happens again, it won't end well. In a twisted way, I hope it happens so that I can have purpose, because I honestly feel like I don't really have a direction right now. 9531
The Flood / Re: What is the difference between the army and marines? [writing related]« on: December 03, 2014, 06:17:15 PM »One thing I pride myself on is that in making everything fit with real physics as best I can, the other being that I'm not blatantly copying other works. I try writing characters and get bored. I read what I write and everything a character does is lifeless and doesn't feel like its real. I have an entire actual novel planned out, every chapter and subplot but I try type and it just ends up terrible. So I mainly stick to world building so that I can make a game set in this someday. 9532
The Flood / Re: Humor me« on: December 03, 2014, 06:13:58 PM »There are terrorists, but there is also SAS and Delta Force slaughtering terrorists.It's too boring. We can do nuclear fusion now. It's just that it's pointless as the amount of energy we put into it is the same as we get out. The fusion we need would be more energy out than in. Also, I doubt about the Mars thing. The only reason NASA got so much funding is because America wanted to beat Russia to the moon. But with an underfunded space program I don't see it happening. I also understand that there are groundbreaking science discoveries all the time. But the nature of science is that we don't make use of such discoveries for many decades afterwords. Even over a century after the lightbulb was invented and most of the planet is dark. It's cool saying we have these discoveries but when you likely won't be around to see them in use its heartbreaking, at least for someone like me who views science as the single most important thing we should be working towards. 9533
The Flood / Re: What is the difference between the army and marines? [writing related]« on: December 03, 2014, 06:07:49 PM »Speaking of it, what kind of military is your story trying to resemble? The US Military is pretty easy to copy because how organized it is. If you want to stand out you might want to do something different though.Happens. Marines have longer bootcamp training than average soldiers, meaning that they are mostly better trained.Armies fight on land and are brought in as a first attack force...Marines are transported via ships and are generally better trained than your regular Army grunt. The way that Halo did it was most correct since Marines can be found within Navy vessels while Army Troopers are more of a defensive military branch. I'm sort of mixing the US with what I've learned through playing Battlefield (It's not much, but has also been surprisingly a lot) and Halo (Based off the US) crossed with more influence from the Royal Army, Navy, Air Force and Marines. Same for the rank system. The Naval/ Air Force are based on the US as opposed to the Army/Marines British basing. 9534
The Flood / Re: Humor me« on: December 03, 2014, 06:05:00 PM »We are in that moment in history that bridges in-between science fiction and science reality. It make take us a half a century or a bit more but these times will pass and we will hopefully make our way out of the cradle world and into the stars.It's too boring. That's it. The thing that ultinately kills me is knowing that if/when we eventually begin building an interplanetary empire, I will not be around to see it. Or I will be too old to enjoy it. And as a pessimist at heart, that's a big if in itself. My belief is that idiots holding civilisation back will be the ones that eventually mean overpopulation and the lack of renewable energy mean we eventually go to war and kill each other. That's my view on the world and why I always sound depressed all the time. Have you ever read a series called Timeriders by Alex Scarrow? Probably not, but I believe they have a realistic vision of the world. Flooding gets rid of a lot of landmass, the survivors are crammed in cities so polluted that you need a gas mask to breathe and the few remaining governments are fitting each other for the last oil drops. In the series, NK ends up releasing a bioweapon virus that wipes out the entire planet. 9535
The Flood / Re: What is the difference between the army and marines? [writing related]« on: December 03, 2014, 05:57:32 PM »Happens. Marines have longer bootcamp training than average soldiers, meaning that they are mostly better trained.Armies fight on land and are brought in as a first attack force...Marines are transported via ships and are generally better trained than your regular Army grunt. The way that Halo did it was most correct since Marines can be found within Navy vessels while Army Troopers are more of a defensive military branch. It was interesting, but not really relevant to what I'm looking for. I'm horrible at research. 9536
The Flood / Re: Humor me« on: December 03, 2014, 05:55:50 PM »It's too boring. The only stuff that happens is fucking depressing. Terrorists, an incredibly small science breakthrough that likely wont be utilised for decades, shit economy, shitty everything. Idiots sat in positions of power hampering real progress because 'wind farms don't look pretty' and stupid shit like that and just generally a world that isn't interesting. The things I find interesting I don't want to do because I'm forced to do it at school and the only way to get a job or university placement seems to be by doing things that are irrelevant to it. Call me up when we land a human on Mars or we develop Nuclear Fusion as a reliable power source. Fuck, even a nuclear war or zombie virus would be interesting as your concerns aren't menial shit like if your CV looks good, just food and water, just simple. There's a reason I like writing science fiction. The world I'm creating is a world I want to experience. Because this one isn't. /rant 9537
The Flood / Re: What is the difference between the army and marines? [writing related]« on: December 03, 2014, 05:49:51 PM »Armies fight on land and are brought in as a first attack force...Marines are transported via ships and are generally better trained than your regular Army grunt. The way that Halo did it was most correct since Marines can be found within Navy vessels while Army Troopers are more of a defensive military branch. Google wasn't my friend. All I found was arguments about which was better trained. 9538
The Flood / Re: What is the difference between the army and marines? [writing related]« on: December 03, 2014, 05:49:05 PM »One thing I pride myself on is that in making everything fit with real physics as best I can, the other being that I'm not blatantly copying other works.Oh, I had to do a lot of research on this for my own novel. To me, robotic drones called sentinels that go round and shoot stuff is past the copying boundary for me. Hell, I woul t have called my main faction the Imperium if I knew about WH40K at the time, but now it's too much work to change. You're right that I can't be 100% original, but I can damn well try. I hope to at least get a universe that surpasses Destiny's lore which I believe I'm close to/ have done (The Grimoire stuff which is genuinely interesting) with just the human lore and a bit of the alien culture. I haven't done their detailed timelines weapons and colonies yet. I have over 150 stars named and every single one will have a detailed solar system including sequence and type and atmosphere and history for planets. I love reading the codex in Mass Effect and the detail it goes into, and hope to get that level of complexity at a minimum. I even detail each weapon manufacturer and all their shit. 9539
The Flood / Re: Humor me« on: December 03, 2014, 05:43:25 PM »It's too boring. The world. 9540
The Flood / Re: Humor me« on: December 03, 2014, 05:41:36 PM »
It's too boring.
Spoiler You're okay. Trying to be really happy and joyful about everything annoys me though, so eh. That is no matter who it is though. |