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« on: December 08, 2014, 09:53:58 AM »
Daddy wants an early christmas present!
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« on: December 05, 2014, 02:57:00 PM »
I'd just like to say something here, before I go. Because I don't think you people really know Sandtrap as well as I do. I have no doubts that you appreciate whatever he's done, or said for you people. But I think you should realize how much this means to him. How much you people mean.
Trappy has probably said it before. He's emotionally fragile. Not just to his emotions, but to other's. But also, emotionally receptive. I've seen him do it before. He reads body language well, and can walk into a room full of people, and point them out. Who's stressed. Who's aggressive. Who's looking for a fight. Who you might be able to trust.
I think he gets that because he's seen a lot of fights in his life. He's been around, hundreds of arguments and fights. And most of his life, for the younger years, he was not only alone, but all he ever received from people outside his family was hate, disliking, put downs, and resentment. As a result, he's anxious.
He shuts down around people. In fact, not only is he anxious, he frightens easily. He is extremely timid. Despite his size, and his strength, he's scared half to death of people. I'm going to tell you a story. About me. As was discussed earlier, I'm gay. And I'm open about it. And up here, in these small farming communities, some people are less open minded.
One day, one of those people were making their opinion known. They had me cornered, and they were beating the shit out of me.Trappy found me. And he jumped in. At this point in time, he was already my friend. And I knew how terrified he was. He doesn't even know how to fight. He jumped in, directed attention away from me, and got the shit kicked out of him.
And he got up. He got back up every single time. And he goaded the guy on. Laughed at him. Pissed him off. And the guy stabbed him. Not fatally obviously. But right in the leg. And trappy got back up for me. By the time the police showed up, in response to the calls about a disturbance, the guy who was attacking me had multiple charges placed on him, and he got tossed far away into prison.
The point to all this is, despite how afraid he is of people, how mistrusting he is, he fights that. He fights fear when he needs to the most. And he will never, ever let any of you down. He will try everything in his ability to help. And if he knew any of you personally, he'd be right there at your side, whenever you called.
I ask that you don't let him down. Be here, when he shows up. Be there to say hello. Be there to just talk to him. Because I know that as afraid as he is, the worst thing about all this is that Sandtrap, just doesn't like himself very much. I don't know why. If I had to guess, it's because of all those years alone and all the crap he went through.
He gives love, and care, without question. And yet he never wants anything back. And he's stubborn. He's so stubborn. I think the only way you could get to him would be to take an object, make it out of love, and bash it into his head.
Thank you for reading this. I'll update you people when I can, I promise. But for now, I've got to head out.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 02:30:55 PM »
Trappy doesn't like the word broken. And looking at it, I guess I don't either. Broken implies that something is wrong with the source material. That it was wrong from the start. I like work in progress. It's like buying a new car. As a whole, the car is fine. But there's little problems here and there. And they need to be fine tuned. They need some care, steady hands, and good work put into them to fix those little problems. The people here aren't broken. They're works in progress. And if you know anything about a work in progress, it takes time until the real, spectacular finished product shows itself.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 02:04:41 PM »
No wonder he's going to die.
This is why I didn't want this in the the Flood.
Fuck off, asshole.
Deal with it, dumbass.
I'm not one to call people out, but shit Elegiac, Mad Max was looking for support, not mindless insult.
This is a person you're dealing with, and if you're incapable of holding back your inappropriate comments for one thread because a computer screen is between you and Mad Max, then I am deeply, deeply concerned for your ability to have a complex empathetic relationship with anyone.
Shut up Newfish. I've watched people talk so much shit here.
I've got good karma to burn.
Doesn't matter about your karma dude. You need to sit the fuck down, and look at the small picture. You're looking at americans as one big entity. They're not. And neither is their military. And neither are their religious people. You're looking at all the bad apples out there who give people a bad name, and insulting the good, quiet people instead.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 01:53:31 PM »
I can relate. At this point, I don't bother asking why anymore. And I know, that this won't help you feel any better. Because I don't feel good myself. Anybody could walk up to me and tell me they're sorry about Trappy, and it wouldn't help.
I don't understand it. There are assholes out there, that never seem to get what's coming to them. And yet it's always the ones who don't want trouble, don't want to hurt, who get stepped on. It's not fair. But you know what is fair? Dying. The circumstances may not be fair. But everybody has to do it. So, you know what? Maybe those assholes do get what's coming to them.
The kind hearted accept what's coming. And they go with open arms. Maybe, on their deathbed, all the assholes have flashbacks of their life and realize how fucked they were. Maybe they realize that they wasted their lives. Maybe they realize that for all their power and cruelty, they're just the same like all the rest. And maybe, maybe life gives them the biggest middle finger of all at the very end of things.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 01:40:58 PM »
Would...I and a few others be able to talk to you to stay up to date on whatever's going on? Do you have Skype or anything?
I am extremely busy. And the thing is, trappy is going to block even me out. I can stop by here, or Bungie.Net, but that's about it. I will try to get updates from him. But, I don't think he'll want to talk about what's happening on his end.
Second, I've been meaning to talk to you. Leave it to trappy to cover his tracks. He said you were having trouble with the fundraiser right? You're the fellow he got all uppity about right?
Oh, yeah...I should probably PM you about that.
Knock yourself out. I've got access to his stuff if you need it.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 01:38:27 PM »
What about making an xmas card thread for him?
Maybe. I don't know though. Like I said, waterworks in his direction or even best wishes seem to just bounce off of him. But, it's worth a try.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 01:36:35 PM »
Would...I and a few others be able to talk to you to stay up to date on whatever's going on? Do you have Skype or anything?
I am extremely busy. And the thing is, trappy is going to block even me out. I can stop by here, or Bungie.Net, but that's about it. I will try to get updates from him. But, I don't think he'll want to talk about what's happening on his end. Second, I've been meaning to talk to you. Leave it to trappy to cover his tracks. He said you were having trouble with the fundraiser right? You're the fellow he got all uppity about right?
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« on: December 05, 2014, 01:32:49 PM »
You don't even need to ask that. Most people here have been and will be nothing but supportive.
I know. But trappy is strange. I probably don't have to tell any of you that. The thing with trappy, is that if you tell him you care, it bounces off of him. "Oh how are you doing Sandy I was so worried" yada yada, won't even affect him. To him, simple actions speak volumes more to him than words. And I know that's a little hard to ask since this is the internet and all. I mean what else could you do other than words? The simple thing you can do, is show up. Have a presence.
Do you mean IRL? Like, across the water?
No. Just show up here. Say hello. Just, talk with him. Don't cry in his direction. Talk with him like you normally would. Trappy hates being under the spotlight, and really, really seems to close up if you throw love his way for some reason. But if you just talk, he'll feel better.
And you might ask about the thread he made. That put him under the spotlight. And he talked to me personally. He wanted to dissappear off the radar and let that six month thing go into effect if he didn't make it. But he listens to his heart. He cares more about people than himself. And those messages of his, were more about saying goodbye to friends and people here.
Never once have I ever known him not to say goodbye to me. Always says hello, always says goodbye in case something happens. So the fact that he didn't just leave without a word, shows how much he cares about people here. He fought his own depression and anxiety about having attention on himself and made it known what was happening.
So just on the forum? Shit, I can do that. We have a regular PM for talking about writing, I'm sure having something to take his mind off things would be good.
Here's the thing. I might not even be able to get him to talk. But what I might be able to do, is use his care against him. I know that he'll want to check on friends. That's probably the best thing I'll be able to use on him to show up here. If you see him on, swarm him.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 01:27:45 PM »
You don't even need to ask that. Most people here have been and will be nothing but supportive.
I know. But trappy is strange. I probably don't have to tell any of you that. The thing with trappy, is that if you tell him you care, it bounces off of him. "Oh how are you doing Sandy I was so worried" yada yada, won't even affect him. To him, simple actions speak volumes more to him than words. And I know that's a little hard to ask since this is the internet and all. I mean what else could you do other than words? The simple thing you can do, is show up. Have a presence.
Do you mean IRL? Like, across the water?
No. Just show up here. Say hello. Just, talk with him. Don't cry in his direction. Talk with him like you normally would. Trappy hates being under the spotlight, and really, really seems to close up if you throw love his way for some reason. But if you just talk, he'll feel better. And you might ask about the thread he made. That put him under the spotlight. And he talked to me personally. He wanted to dissappear off the radar and let that six month thing go into effect if he didn't make it. But he listens to his heart. He cares more about people than himself. And those messages of his, were more about saying goodbye to friends and people here. Never once have I ever known him not to say goodbye to me. Always says hello, always says goodbye in case something happens. So the fact that he didn't just leave without a word, shows how much he cares about people here. He fought his own depression and anxiety about having attention on himself and made it known what was happening.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 01:20:15 PM »
You don't even need to ask that. Most people here have been and will be nothing but supportive.
I know. But trappy is strange. I probably don't have to tell any of you that. The thing with trappy, is that if you tell him you care, it bounces off of him. "Oh how are you doing Sandy I was so worried" yada yada, won't even affect him. To him, simple actions speak volumes more to him than words. And I know that's a little hard to ask since this is the internet and all. I mean what else could you do other than words? The simple thing you can do, is show up. Have a presence.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 01:12:55 PM »
Me again. Hello funny people. I'm showing up here because I want to talk about trappy with you. He's a longtime friend. And I know him better than most could probably say here. And here's the issue. Trappy is a walking sherlock holmes novel. Everything he says, everything he does, has something else behind it.
Trappy's going to the city. He won't have a lot of access to the internet unless he mooches off someone or goes to a place where he can sit down and open up his computer. And I know he's depressed right now. Because he told me what was happening, and never asked anything from me.
When he does that, that means something bad. He's closing up. And I know, that going through what he's about to, out there, alone, will hurt him in more ways than one. He won't want to talk to you people. So here's the plan.
I'm going to visit him for christmas. And I'm going to poke him in the ribs. Because he needs somebody. When, and if I get him to show up here, all I ask is that you give him support. Just say hello. Something simple. Because he's not going to want to talk. And trappy is way smarter than me, and a lot more stubborn. But I can drag his ass out of the mud for a bit, sit him down, and get him to talk.
All I ask of you people, friends or otherwise, is that you be there when I give him the boot.
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« on: December 05, 2014, 09:13:17 AM »
So it's like GTA races where everybody picks the same supercar and they all crash and end up doing the same thing while one guy gets ahead and the race is already won?
Cool!
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« on: October 13, 2014, 04:24:39 PM »
God you're so bad at pictures. You need to smile some more!
You look fabulous. And I'm not much for smiles at the moment anyway. Too tired.
Guess I slapped the smile off your face then. Sorry, my bad. We'll just make a new one right?
You know it!
Right, I'm gonna scram now! Bye sep7agon people! And you. Don't be a stranger. Just because you don't have a lot of faith in yourself doesn't mean I don't, or your friends do. Come by and visit sometime. I make better food than the hospital does, at the very least.
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« on: October 13, 2014, 04:15:14 PM »
God you're so bad at pictures. You need to smile some more!
You look fabulous. And I'm not much for smiles at the moment anyway. Too tired.
Guess I slapped the smile off your face then. Sorry, my bad. We'll just make a new one right?
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« on: October 13, 2014, 04:05:36 PM »
God you're so bad at pictures. You need to smile some more!
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« on: October 10, 2014, 08:25:36 PM »
Meta, would it make you happy if I signed into his account right now? He gave me his computer you know. To update everybody in case he died. I have every single password and website he calls home. If I were a bad person, I could mess his profile up something bad. But, lucky I'm not that kind of person 
I'm not sure that actually proves anything.
So what should he do? Take a selfie next to Sandtrap's comatose body and post it on here?
Definitely not saying that, just saying it doesn't necessarily prove anything.
Tell you what cowboy, how about this? When he comes over to my place to pick his computer up, we could take a picture. Me or my boyfriend. I can't get a picture of his sick little sad self because he's a four hour drive away.
Everyone here would probably appreciate that, actually.
It's a done deal then. He probably won't want me in the picture since he's a big silly overprotective friend, and plus, I don't go tossing pictures of myself around like some of those other cheap whores. So I'll offer my bf to be sacrificed to you demented people instead.
Why not? You and 'ol Sandtrap can give us a big goofy smile for the camera.
Because over half of the people here are creeps. Maybe I'm old fashioned, but I don't let anybody here know anything about myself. And there's a good reason Sandy never told any of you about me. You aren't going to see much of me after he gets back because my job will be done, and honestly, the majority of you people here creep me out. So I'll leave and never have to set foot here again. But first, I'm going to slap him.
...seems legit
I've seen how tolerant you people are of those that are different. I put up with enough crap living in a hick province as it is. The last thing I'd need is more of you ridiculous people flinging shit at me online. But, I suppose I could get a picture of me and him. Because then I could leave before all of you got out your pitchforks. And Sandy's got thick skin, so he could take all the trouble a simple little picture would cause.
I'm well aware of how crappy some people are here, but for the most part we aren't that bad. I don't know, just the way you're saying things makes it sound a little fishy. Don't get me wrong though, I'm worried about Sandtrap as much as the next guy and I really hope he makes it out alright.
Call me paranoid then. But don't worry about him. I talked to him yesterday. He can actually speak now, and now that he's awake and his body is fighting things on its own, he'll be back soon enough. They took him off a bunch of drugs, and now all he needs is rest and a little bit of meds to help him along. But I know him. He's stubborn to no end. You could even call him stupid for how stubborn he can be. Some bad luck and a cold won't keep him down. In fact, he'll probably leave the hospital before he's ready and fully recovered because he's silly like that.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 08:15:37 PM »
Meta, would it make you happy if I signed into his account right now? He gave me his computer you know. To update everybody in case he died. I have every single password and website he calls home. If I were a bad person, I could mess his profile up something bad. But, lucky I'm not that kind of person
I'm not sure that actually proves anything.
So what should he do? Take a selfie next to Sandtrap's comatose body and post it on here?
Definitely not saying that, just saying it doesn't necessarily prove anything.
Tell you what cowboy, how about this? When he comes over to my place to pick his computer up, we could take a picture. Me or my boyfriend. I can't get a picture of his sick little sad self because he's a four hour drive away.
Everyone here would probably appreciate that, actually.
It's a done deal then. He probably won't want me in the picture since he's a big silly overprotective friend, and plus, I don't go tossing pictures of myself around like some of those other cheap whores. So I'll offer my bf to be sacrificed to you demented people instead.
Why not? You and 'ol Sandtrap can give us a big goofy smile for the camera.
Because over half of the people here are creeps. Maybe I'm old fashioned, but I don't let anybody here know anything about myself. And there's a good reason Sandy never told any of you about me. You aren't going to see much of me after he gets back because my job will be done, and honestly, the majority of you people here creep me out. So I'll leave and never have to set foot here again. But first, I'm going to slap him.
...seems legit
I've seen how tolerant you people are of those that are different. I put up with enough crap living in a hick province as it is. The last thing I'd need is more of you ridiculous people flinging shit at me online. But, I suppose I could get a picture of me and him. Because then I could leave before all of you got out your pitchforks. And Sandy's got thick skin, so he could take all the trouble a simple little picture would cause.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 08:04:09 PM »
Meta, would it make you happy if I signed into his account right now? He gave me his computer you know. To update everybody in case he died. I have every single password and website he calls home. If I were a bad person, I could mess his profile up something bad. But, lucky I'm not that kind of person
I'm not sure that actually proves anything.
So what should he do? Take a selfie next to Sandtrap's comatose body and post it on here?
Definitely not saying that, just saying it doesn't necessarily prove anything.
Tell you what cowboy, how about this? When he comes over to my place to pick his computer up, we could take a picture. Me or my boyfriend. I can't get a picture of his sick little sad self because he's a four hour drive away.
Everyone here would probably appreciate that, actually.
It's a done deal then. He probably won't want me in the picture since he's a big silly overprotective friend, and plus, I don't go tossing pictures of myself around like some of those other cheap whores. So I'll offer my bf to be sacrificed to you demented people instead.
Why not? You and 'ol Sandtrap can give us a big goofy smile for the camera.
Because over half of the people here are creeps. Maybe I'm old fashioned, but I don't let anybody here know anything about myself. And there's a good reason Sandy never told any of you about me. You aren't going to see much of me after he gets back because my job will be done, and honestly, the majority of you people here creep me out. So I'll leave and never have to set foot here again. But first, I'm going to slap him.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 07:53:01 PM »
Meta, would it make you happy if I signed into his account right now? He gave me his computer you know. To update everybody in case he died. I have every single password and website he calls home. If I were a bad person, I could mess his profile up something bad. But, lucky I'm not that kind of person
I'm not sure that actually proves anything.
So what should he do? Take a selfie next to Sandtrap's comatose body and post it on here?
Definitely not saying that, just saying it doesn't necessarily prove anything.
Tell you what cowboy, how about this? When he comes over to my place to pick his computer up, we could take a picture. Me or my boyfriend. I can't get a picture of his sick little sad self because he's a four hour drive away.
Everyone here would probably appreciate that, actually.
It's a done deal then. He probably won't want me in the picture since he's a big silly overprotective friend, and plus, I don't go tossing pictures of myself around like some of those other cheap whores. So I'll offer my bf to be sacrificed to you demented people instead.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 07:46:39 PM »
Meta, would it make you happy if I signed into his account right now? He gave me his computer you know. To update everybody in case he died. I have every single password and website he calls home. If I were a bad person, I could mess his profile up something bad. But, lucky I'm not that kind of person
I'm not sure that actually proves anything.
Maybe not. But the thought is entertaining at least. The stubborn idiot almost gave me a heart attack with all this. The least I can do for him dumping deathwatch duty on me is slap him silly for being so stupid and stubborn. And I might just do that when he shows up here. I bet he'll want to say hello to everybody. And I'll be waiting.
When he shows up here? Aren't you the one with his computer?
The first thing he's going to do is come visit me. I live about an hour away from his town. He'll say hello, pick up his loot, and we'll see what happens from there.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 07:45:24 PM »
Meta, would it make you happy if I signed into his account right now? He gave me his computer you know. To update everybody in case he died. I have every single password and website he calls home. If I were a bad person, I could mess his profile up something bad. But, lucky I'm not that kind of person
I'm not sure that actually proves anything.
So what should he do? Take a selfie next to Sandtrap's comatose body and post it on here?
Definitely not saying that, just saying it doesn't necessarily prove anything.
Tell you what cowboy, how about this? When he comes over to my place to pick his computer up, we could take a picture. Me or my boyfriend. I can't get a picture of his sick little sad self because he's a four hour drive away.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 07:42:33 PM »
Meta, would it make you happy if I signed into his account right now? He gave me his computer you know. To update everybody in case he died. I have every single password and website he calls home. If I were a bad person, I could mess his profile up something bad. But, lucky I'm not that kind of person
I'm not sure that actually proves anything.
Maybe not. But the thought is entertaining at least. The stubborn idiot almost gave me a heart attack with all this. The least I can do for him dumping deathwatch duty on me is slap him silly for being so stupid and stubborn. And I might just do that when he shows up here. I bet he'll want to say hello to everybody. And I'll be waiting.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 07:29:48 PM »
A friend gave it to me way back when I decided to sign up on Bungie.net. Turned out to be very relevant over the years.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 07:19:56 PM »
Meta, would it make you happy if I signed into his account right now? He gave me his computer you know. To update everybody in case he died. I have every single password and website he calls home. If I were a bad person, I could mess his profile up something bad. But, lucky I'm not that kind of person
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« on: October 10, 2014, 07:17:30 PM »
Hopefully the coma didn't frack up his motor functions. How long was he in it?
He called me on October 3rd. That night he went unresponsive. It was at least yesterday or the day before that I called the hospital up and got the good news that he was up and about. So roughly 6 or 7 days.
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« on: October 10, 2014, 07:15:53 PM »
Source?
Me. He gave me his computer to take care of the day he left for the hospital. I've been keeping his friends updated via his email list.
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« on: October 07, 2014, 10:53:19 AM »
Paper money has as much value as you give it.
Gold has as much value as you give it.
I'd rather carry around a few paper bills and a credit card than four bars of gold bullion.
The why can't I write a million dollars on a piece of paper and say it's a million dollars? Who has the right, or should I say, why do certain people have the right to name and insist on a set value on money? Why is their paper, which isn't even paper anymore by the way, more legitimate than me finely writing out a million dollars on a piece of paper?
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« on: October 06, 2014, 08:44:59 PM »
most loveable canadian in existance.
*hugs*
i hear canadians convert everything they touch to communism
No no, you've got it all wrong. We convert everything we touch into free healthcare.
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« on: October 06, 2014, 08:33:21 PM »
Oh my god no. Eeeeeww.
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