Srs question

I've been in love one time. I thought I was in love with one girl years back but later realized it's only because she was my first gf. Also I might be in love with a girl I met a few months ago but that's not for certain, though it sure feels like it.



The first girl I saw when I was in my 2nd year in highschool. She was a cheerleader for a rival school(same team as my gf at the time). As I sat in the bleachers I saw her cheering and I swear my pupils dilated ten fold. She was beautiful. Dark olive skin, round face, raven black hair, small fit body but her hips and butt were Kardashian esque. I asked my friend who attended the school who she was and the first thing he told me was "hah you're gonna need all the luck in the world dude". Never saw her except for a quick minute the next year at a baseball game. Then my senior year I was surprised to see her at our pre school meeting where we get our schedules and stuff. One of the girls I knew was friends with her friend so I finally got to introduce myself. While they were discussing schedules I heard her classes and we had none together. I was pretty bummed out.

Well on the first day of school I got called into the office and my schedule was switched because of too many people or some other weird thing. I get into class and a minute later she comes in and sits right in front of me! I was so nervous it was insane and not like me at all. I remember feeling my face get hot when she turned around lol. She ended up good friends with a group of girls I was close with. We would hang out all the time, swimming at houses, going to the lake, school events, amusement parks. Her and I became particularly close, we were very similar personality wise. Once we even took a personality test and we scored the exact same thing on everything lol it was crazy.

Everything about her was great. She was so beautiful, I loved the smell of her hair, her laugh, her voice, the feel of her skin against mine. Even after all this I always knew that she didn't see me the way I saw her, or at least not as intensely as I did. I was like the extra close best friend guy hahaha. For some strange reason I didn't mind as much as I normally would have. I just liked being with her(what a fukin beta smh). It was such a rollercoaster of emotions that I'd never felt with any other girl.

inb4 jive is a beta disgrace to all males on earth. Completely srs, being in love is probably the best feeling that I've ever had

So yeah talk about your loves

(Naturally of course)

For the last few months I've been eating a high protein high carb low fat diet. Well some of you may know that fat is the main macro involved in hormone production. Low fat=low test. I had been dropping my test terribly low, to the point where I wouldn't even get aroused much at all. so over the last 2 weeks I bumped fats up very very high and noticed a few things:

-I am very horny
-I keep eye contact with everyone. Not that I wasn't before but now it's very noticeable
-I stare at girls more without caring. Even if they're with boyfriends, that actually makes me more excited(strange) like competition
-I give less of a fuck. I don't over think everything I say or do, I just do it, in controlled manner
-little things irritate me more

Btw I was already like this before but it feels more enhanced on high fats. this is nothing compared to what a cycle could do but it's very interesting to see the role testosterone plays in confidence.

BRB where the bitches at

pm me if you want the my barbers number

I barely even smoke but some friends asked me to go so I thought I might as well for life experience or some poop like that.

We have an entire ounce half of Sour Diesel and the other half is mixed with Girl Scout Cookie and something else, fuuuark

What should I wear? I was thinking of a tie dye shirt with the sleeves cut off(cause i'm buff duuh) but it will be chilly so I dunno. Also I'm not a fan of hippies they smell like chit.

Sometimes I go through phases where I play tons of pokemon for a few months. I'm getting that itch again so I was wondering if you guys think Omega Ruby/Alpha Sapphire and X & Y were worth it? Thanks 

Srs question please respect the srs

I've been on a reading binge lately after finally finishing all the Eragon books I've had since like 4th grade. Read Think and grow Rich and some books on Aristotle, today I just checked out Benjamin Franklin: An American life. What a real nigga this man was

I feel like a muthafuckin scholar. Do you like to read? Any recommendations?

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About to drink my preworkout. Hitting chest and triceps today. Cut is coming along good, down to 189.5 right now at about 1lb a week. Started riding a bike for 10 minutes before my workout, also lowered calories to 2100. FUUUUUUUUUARRK time to get shredded boyz

Might be today for some you not on best coast. I'm gonna do a little peek into what's been going on in my head. Birthdays don't mean much if anything to me but I see this as a good opportunity to express frustrations I have

I am becoming very impatient with the progress I am making. Sure my fatloss and muscle gains are coming along pretty good, but I don't want pretty good, I want amazing. I hate how i have a better diet and better training methods with more intensity than 90% of my gym, but many of them can half ass everything and look better than me because they take steroids. Frustrating as phuck 

I don't want to look just fit, I want to look like a greek god




(strong body dismorphia lol) I know I can get there with the proper "supplementation", I will be the most aesthetic guy at my gym and then the surrounding gyms in just a few years time. I want to smash beautiful fitness models like Katya Henry



and have an aura and turn heads wherever i go. all of this would be possible if i just started to juice, fuuuuuuuuck i'm getting closer and closer to the dark side brahs

pic was taken last year around early May, weighed around 171lbs @ 6'2". Gained about 25 lbs in a years time, so I will be 10-15 lbs heavier just as lean around the same time frame this year. Added a lot of mass to my shoulders, chest, and traps during my bulk 

For reasons unknown at night while I'm chilling in my room before bed I start to think of everything in my life on a deeper level. I realize how lucky am I to be alive and that I should live everyday to the fullest. I think of how my parents are so loving and that I don't appreciate them as much as I should. I want to tell people how much I love them and I tend to watch powerful emotional videos on r/frisson.

But then I wake up and throughout the day I look back at the night before and think "Why the fuk was i being such a pussy wtf". and the cycle repeats. Not really much to converse here just thinking outloud

Just spent some time talking to this girl I'm in love with. Class finished so I walked with her to her car(same way as library) she's so adorable and slightly awkward, she even felt my body saying how fit I look

How am I spose to study when I'm in love?

Here is your chance to take a peek into the mind of the legendary Jive Turkey


can also help with anything on getting girls, working out, meditation/spiritualness, self improvement, cooking, ect


Ask away brahs 

Time to act like a Jews foreskin and get cut

We outchea my stats right now are

18 years old
6'2"
195-197lbs A.M after piss
13-14% bodyfat

Goals: Get around 7-9% bodyfat and get diced

My diet consist of
1c Greek yogurt
Scoop protein
Tbsp honey

5 egg omelet
Slice cheese
1/2 cup oatmeal
Scoop pb
Almond milk or water

300 calories of chicken breasts
Half cup almonds
400 calories of pasta

Will add some veggies/fruit every meal. Plus a little extra with the 250 calories I have left over. I'll be losing a pound or two a week, so by May I will be around 180lbs DICED. Cardio will be swimming, walking, biking, playing soccer and other sports. I will eventually post cheeky sexy pics of myself when I get lean enough

Gonna fukin make it brahs

Hello. So recently I decided to practice sexual abstinence. No stimulation of any kind, I do this sublimation to have more energy and stuff(it's kind of an experiment with myself). I am on day 12 and feel pretty good. However, last night I had a dream that got kind of sexual, but had no nocturnal emissions.

Here comes the problem

Tomorrow I'm going with a group of friends and some girls to a nearby university to a big frat party. We're all going to stay the night at one of the houses of my friend's friend. Abstaining won't be too hard, but I'm worried I'm gonna have a fuking wet dream in a room with a ton of people. Is there any way I can avoid it? I was thinking of wearing spandex to hold my dick down but the stimulation/force might make me cum lmao, so my best idea right now is to stay up the entire night

Ideas?