Want some variety dialogue.

May, June, July, August, September, October, November, December, January.

Been stuck to a hospital bed for 8 months. 9 if I can beat January. More I think about it the more it gets to me. I've been here for 8 months. I've done nothing. I wake up when the staff show up. I wake up when I'm in discomfort. I sleep. That's about it. I've grown fed up of watching TV. Whatever I could do previously is tough now because I'm doing it with only one arm.

I know the reality of this. It'll take years to get out of here. I'm not even through treatment yet. This is just a pause to let me recover before things go again. The amount of physical therapy it's going to take to get me back to what I was before coming in here is anybody's guess.

I appreciate everything that the staff have done here for me. Believe me I appreciate what's been given by other people to keep me alive. Literal blood and bone. But I would be lying if I said there wasn't a part of me that wants to just close my eyes and hope that I don't wake up to one more day of this.

I don't even know how I'm suppossed to deal with months to years of this. And I know that none of you here have anything to offer for help let alone anything you can likely even say. But, being here like this is getting to me.

Stray thought here. Suppose in 10 years or so when Bungie starts a new series do you figure the Destiny folks will have their turn at getting swept under the rug?

Even more of a truly nightmarish thought, what if in the span of 10 years, we're all still mostly here?

I'll just wing it.

I've seen some things in the past couple months.

Been in a care center for the majority of the time that I've been awol from here. I got to make some friends here when I was able to. People from all walks of life, and people of all ages. And I've had to watch some of them die.

Over the past three weeks I've lost two longtime friends. The latest happened this week. I was informed of it three days ago. I knew him for 10 years.

I'm not awake very often, or for very long. But when I am awake, it bothers me. I just keep replaying it all around in my head. I'm not very mobile right now. There's not much I can do to take my mind off things.

The support base of people I had have all died.

Haven't had much of a chance to talk much to any of you for a long while. Anything interesting going on?