Starch getting BTFO

I'm gonna rip the buttons off your blouse one by one, then run my tongue down your neck to your bare, gleaming breasts. And then slowly... slowly pull your jeans off inch by inch. And lick your belly in circles further and further down, and then pull your panties off with my teeth.

They're salted and hashed, so relatively secure.

so like, were they bad anyways?

Right in the oh.

oh?

Quote from: Naru on July 30, 2015, 12:24:58 AM

Quote from: True Turquoise on July 30, 2015, 12:24:08 AM

im hungry, what should i eat, naru?

Are you serious? Cause i can help

of course

Panini
Eggs
Nectarines
Iced Coffee
Sausage

Or... McDonald's Egg McMuffin

ohhhhh who lives in a pineapple under the sea

deez nuts

yes

help me

Ask Exodus to feed you. A man feeding himself, what kind of world do we live in?

Story

I was hospitalized three months ago because I thought killing myself was imminent (which was true, but I also did it to get extensions on school projects). Right before I was hospitalized I didn't think of killing myself when I was depressed and angry, but even from neutral states because I thought it was imminent and sensible. I don't even consider killing myself to be sad, it's an alternative to an imposed existence I have little agency to change.

When I was hospitalized I was diagnosed with a few mental disorders and transferred to a psych ward. The nature of confinement and routine was maddening, the patients ranged from lizard-people conspiracy theorists who believed they were doing business research to medicated zombies.
I didn't like the doctors there. Time was short with all patients and communication suffered. I made contrary cases for the diagnoses they posited without substantial testing, and was largely ignored. I was recommended medications I could refuse with the risk of being detained longer, so I took them and lost my mind for parts of the day. There are few things I'm afraid of losing. Mental clarity is certainly one of them.
 
I felt curiously capable and motivated, despite medications and treatment by staff. There was nowhere for me to run to, no distractions to sidetrack me.
I thought about why I was the way I was, what I wanted to do, and how I could do it. I mainly did this because I understood then that if I didn't do something people would retain influence over me and my interests and I'd never freely pursue what I truly desire. So I fought.
I fought in the meetings to earn the respect of every staff member and the other patients.
I fought with my failing brain to focus on my personal work.
I fought with the doctor (though he was never the wiser) and earned his praise so I could be released earlier.
And I was. This could have been the worst point of my life, yet it has so far been a beneficial shift overall.

Practical Piece

I realized every pathological thought functioning against my goals were a conditioned behavior dependent on developed associations and stimulant-induced basis, and that I could identify stimulants and their reactions to figure out what affects me specifically and how to interrupt/reverse the process. So I went back through my life and identified every effective period where pathological psycho-physiological processes became entangled with my ideals and goals. I'm still working on both the approach I use for reconditioning and what neurological networks I should develop (and how) to progress with what I desire, how I desire to.
This is how I'm starting to develop characteristics that make me functional for my desires.
If anyone's interested, I'll share whatever I have with them. It's really good to have another viewpoint for proper evaluation too, so I'd be pretty thankful for it.

I'm not bothered by PMs either, so if you want (or need to), message me.

Jesu Christ, man

It basically refers to a degoatory term used for living people being inferior to 2D people.

Quote from: oss on July 28, 2015, 10:50:12 PM

Quote from: Pip on July 28, 2015, 10:25:11 PM

are you suuuuuuuuuure?

Spoiler

We now have to kill Oss.

no

we dont

Quote from: Tyger on July 28, 2015, 11:17:00 PM

Quote from: Snake on July 28, 2015, 10:03:09 PM

Enjoy Ground Zeroes, guys. Get ready for The Phantom Pain.

All 15 minutes of it

Quote from: Naru on July 29, 2015, 01:54:14 AM

Isn't GZ the one where it's like 3 hours long or something?

lol fuck that

Depends what's on the rotation when i comment

I got Jinx, that's good i guess

Don't you get paid for that?