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« on: February 12, 2022, 11:37:03 PM »
Doesn't it count as a vegetable if it has no brain activity though? Could eat my weight in dead chickens and get all the vegetables I need.
By that logic Joe Rogan would be a 5-a-day super food.
Sick burn man. Joe's gonna be in the ER after that one.
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« on: February 10, 2022, 10:39:42 PM »
Hey buddy. Got a surprise for you. I had the idea forming for a few months, maybe three ago or so. Hearing the six month sober mark prompted me to finish it. This is for you just in case I happen to pop my clogs before I get around to my business.
I share my work freely, so I hope you don't mind if I drop it here. But for you, later in the year I'll get this printed out onto canvas and you'll have the only physical copy of it. You've earned it buddy. That's the least I can do methinks, but it's something.
Yo, sorry for the late response. Gotta say that this is pretty wicked, man. Gonna go check out your other Art stuff in a little bit, but again, it's pretty rad and I really appreciate it.
All good. Don't gotta go hunting through my stuff if ya don't want to.
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« on: February 09, 2022, 03:13:47 AM »
 A personal challenge to see if I could switch from heavy art to humor since I want to make a gift for a co-worker who's retiring this year. She ain't a dark art kinda person.
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« on: February 08, 2022, 12:53:21 PM »
 Re-worked this present using tricks I learned making Busta's painting/thing. Guess I'm not a painter but whatevs.
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« on: February 06, 2022, 12:48:20 AM »
Hey buddy. Got a surprise for you. I had the idea forming for a few months, maybe three ago or so. Hearing the six month sober mark prompted me to finish it. This is for you just in case I happen to pop my clogs before I get around to my business. I share my work freely, so I hope you don't mind if I drop it here. But for you, later in the year I'll get this printed out onto canvas and you'll have the only physical copy of it. You've earned it buddy. That's the least I can do methinks, but it's something.
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« on: February 05, 2022, 05:50:18 AM »
 Finished birthday present for another friendo.
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« on: February 03, 2022, 09:54:45 PM »
Doesn't it count as a vegetable if it has no brain activity though? Could eat my weight in dead chickens and get all the vegetables I need.
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« on: February 02, 2022, 06:30:05 PM »
I'm shit at processing time. Seems like fucking forever ago that you started the road to stopping. That is something to be proud about. Never really is easy to kick an addiction. Seems like you're doing great.
Glad you decided to push through it. Ya get a part of your life back and there's probably a lot you can do with that. Keep chuggin' buddy. (not the booze though)
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« on: February 02, 2022, 01:27:52 AM »
Posted in here before but may as well drop something since it's been a ride of a year or two. Personality fragmented again, just about offed myself in November, found some docs that are helpful for once, and am slowly having my organs liquified by being a depressed bag of potatoes for over twenty years. So here goes I guess.
Been a depressed bag of potatoes for twenty years or more so I was a depressed sack when I showed up here. My distrust of people meant I generally didn't talk about it or my life unless it bled out of me. I think I'm largely the same as I was then, and that's because the only emotions I can process are still here. Humor, empathy and sympathy, and being sad.
Over the last year I've done some work with docs. While not a comfort, three of them said the same shit to me. I've been through stuff that most don't ever even get in one lifetime, and that changes people emotionally. They all confirmed my suspicions. Had first suicide attempt when I was twelve. The will and want to die has never left me, but I managed to shove most of it into my sub-conscious and combat what's left by making promises to people I gave a fuck about that I wouldn't let it beat me.
How that's come back to bite me is through psychosomatic symptoms. My mini-heart attack in 2020 and what appears to be slowly failing organs and crippling fatigue is all the result of the background of my brain wanting to die being strong enough that it's winning slowly by shutting everything down. I've done cognitive behavioral changes on my own over the years, but the docs figured its time for drugs since my serrotonine and dopamine reserves are fried(mainly because my coping methods in the past were excessive gaming and internet usage)
I visited a grave marker for my SO in october, consciously changed some things in my head, and then fell apart in November. I've bouts of I guess what could be described as psychosis or something else, and whatever's left of me shifts around. I leave behind something of my personality while somebody else steps away, and that takes time to adjust to, as for a while I don't know who I am.
I used that to make improvements, at least. Mental changes to fight better. Meds are iffy. I adapt to them quickly, but they're giving me a leg up at least.
The sole main upside to this year is that I said fuck it and decided to turn one of my stories into a comic or graphic novel of some kind. Test of everything I've learned. I've learned more in the last month than I have in two years, which is great. I learn as I work, and I love the work. I think if all I had was projects like what I'm undertaking now to do for the rest of my life, I could manage with being an emotionally destroyed sad bag of potatoes, even if I don't manage to fix these things entirely.
I don't want to say that things are better. I'm still an emotionally crippled pile that's usually sad, tired, and terribly alone and unable to connect to people without immense difficulty. I feel like a sixty year old trapped in a fourty year old's body who happens to be twenty nine. A flesh carcass, if my humor speaks for me.
But for some reason I'm still trying to fight it. And that's okay. I die one day anyway. Whatever I do while I'm alive is enough because I won't have the opportunity for any of it one day.
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« on: January 29, 2022, 01:15:20 AM »
Something regarding the Harry Potter universe has been on my mind but I hesitated to post it incase you gentlemen find it too lame of a topic to discuss?...
Dude Harry Potter was the shit when I was a kid. Fuck whatever anybody else thinks is lame. They can go eat a bag of cocks.
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« on: January 24, 2022, 07:02:50 PM »
 I'm stupid happy with how this turned out. Took me days to think of how to portray it and days to put together because of it's complexity and it turned out absolutely bitchin.
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« on: January 23, 2022, 01:25:57 AM »
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« on: January 20, 2022, 10:21:58 PM »
new year new start
That's like me saying new year I'll have a year that isn't shit. Not to dip my feet into forum politics I don't know shit about, but you're kinda you Class. My memory's poor but you're largely the same person you were before I dipped my sorry ass off all records for a few years.
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« on: January 19, 2022, 10:03:09 PM »
I ran into a few locked chests early on and came back later after finding the quest that got you the key. I haven't actually come across any of those though, guessing it's because I didn't spend much or any time looting houses. There's a lot of items in the world that say locked if you can't do anything with them, like alphy said.
Interestingly, I've got a huge collection of ported witcher 3 models. Never saw that chest in those files either. Not that it means anything, just weird that I sunk a solid month into that game and never bumped into those.
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« on: January 16, 2022, 04:31:09 PM »
I'm fuckin' mad nobody here wanted to post an unironic cringe joke about Dan's 69.
Let's go Dan, I'm up for some 69 action.
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« on: January 16, 2022, 04:24:58 PM »
 Lol the fuck am I. This makes you Undifferentiated-Androgynous. 
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« on: January 10, 2022, 07:07:40 PM »
The new weapons aren't fun. In particular the Bulldog is an actual Nerf gun and the Ravager may as well be the Cursed Halo Reverse Throwing Pistol.
Bulldog is great bro. Easy two tap at the right range.
It's no CE shotgun bit it's leagues above h3 or reach's.
Ravenger is hot fucking garbage tho yeah
To this day I don't even know how the CE shotgun functions in multiplayer. Explain it to me das. Is there like a magic range and headshot damage to get the perfect two tap or oneshot? Best I can ever manage is leading four shots at point blank for a takedown and by then some sweatlord's already kenshiro'd me so I just bust a nut imagining I was skilled enough to get a quad shot.
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« on: January 10, 2022, 06:59:12 PM »
wow!
Fuck me. Saving the economy one boomer at a time. I may live in a shithole of a province but I guess I should be thankful that being an isolated degenerate has its perks. Haven't caught any kind of the variations yet, not vaxxed since my heart's a piece of shit. Bromicron climbing out here though, so who knows, maybe I'll catch it and finally get knocked dead.
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« on: January 05, 2022, 10:50:23 PM »
Would ya believe me if I told you it's been at least a couple years since I read any books? Sucks in earnest, I just pick something up and then drop it. Don't seem to have the enthusiasm I used to.
gonna be brutally honest
i'm surprised any of you read at all
Didn't get my long winded writing from nowhere. I was the fag at the back of the bus for reading asimov and heinlein, tolkein and such when I was a fat little bastard of a kid. I'm surprised you put reading past some of the folk here, barring the possibility that you were being half sarcastic.
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« on: January 05, 2022, 09:51:05 PM »
Would ya believe me if I told you it's been at least a couple years since I read any books? Sucks in earnest, I just pick something up and then drop it. Don't seem to have the enthusiasm I used to.
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« on: January 05, 2022, 09:44:32 PM »
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« on: January 01, 2022, 11:08:22 PM »
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« on: December 31, 2021, 09:11:36 PM »
 Figure it's time to kick the training wheels off and start trying to make my stories. I've got enough tricks and know how, I think. Won't learn if I don't try it out.
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« on: December 31, 2021, 03:19:59 AM »
Yo I just realized some of the skirmishers are female.
Rule 34's gonna have a field day.
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« on: December 24, 2021, 04:29:21 AM »
gf with pp pls
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« on: December 13, 2021, 10:40:06 PM »
If it wasn't for the open world Halo Infinite might be in my top 3 Halo campaigns, but the Ubisoft-esque elements and lack of biomes/environments knock it down.
Otherwise, story is decent if a little messy from having to address Halo 5 in some way but they handled it about as well as they could. Also suffers from Marvel-itis where a lot of the game is more concerned with setting up the next one than just telling a self-contained story.
That was something I was thinking of while playing it. I don't think the open world is a bad thing, it'd be fuckin' stellar if it was nailed properly, which they came close I think. (Think of how ODST would've felt if it had the scale and openness of Infinite's engine). I actually quite like how they addressed the clusterfuck of what five did. Like they did a real good job of making five's plot elements have weight and meaning in terms of repurcussions, but they skipped the likely impossible part of trying to make a game revolving around AI's highjacking forerunner tech and telling everybody to be homies or die. Spoiler Fuckin seriously, half the game I was asking why the fuck the brutes were calling a skirmish on the ring a war and then the game fucking drops that Cortana obliterated their homeworld in the last segments. Like yeah, I guess I'd declare war too on the species that made the thing responsible for making my species suddenly endangered. I think that's the off feeling I got from the game though. Marvel-itis sums it up. It seems like we hit a peak in the story, and then it just gets shut off for next time. (Unless they go take an interesting approach and add more story segments as DLC later on, dunno if I'd be game for that or not though) It's a real shame there weren't more for biomes or environments though. Every section involving underground forerunner stuff felt like a total fever dream though, where almost every structure is familiar in a deja vu kind of way, but all of it was gorgeously captivating without being an eyesore like 4's and 5's. They did a ton of stuff really well in a lot of other areas too. I think they really need to be dropped some praise on their new engine in terms of technical feats they pulled off.
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« on: November 28, 2021, 10:58:28 PM »
No offshoot forum lasts forever. No forum lasts forever. Age probably doesn't help. Like, three quarters of the people here have lives and those ties are more important than the occassional heartbeat over here.
Once you know everybody, there's nothing new coming in either. In a physical sense, if we all sat down at a restaurant together, we'd be the crowd of people you see that don't say much but just hang out like regulars(assuming that certain members didn't burst into flames in the same room with each other)
Cynical outlook. Honestly the personalities on Bnet and elsewhere were really important to me. And I don't think I'd be where I am today without this site
It's just a question of math and time, considering I've been through the disintigration of many smaller forums. It's an inevitability for smaller forums, unless a very rare event happens and the members end up meeting IRL. You consider it a cycnical outlook only because it's not a nice thought to ponder that faces and people you knew in some sense are gone, and are going to be at some point. Neither would I be in the same position I am now if not for the time spent here, and I think there's a few round here who could say that, better off or worse. But that doesn't negate that the heyday's probably over.
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« on: November 25, 2021, 09:54:49 PM »
Met some random in multiplayer last night who was in the process of getting wasted with his buddy. Plugged my mic in after sticking around and talked to em. Ended up staying awake until five am talking to the dude.
That's earnestly the best I've felt in about half a year, I think.
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« on: November 24, 2021, 10:46:11 PM »
Some peeps poked me to download the beta so I did.
All in all it seems really solid with a couple exceptions. I'm still unfamiliar with things, but most weapons seem to be balanced really well with the exception of the hydra.
The bots are actually pretty fucking neat too when you crank the difficulty up to max. I like how they juke and strafe like an actual experienced player would. What I find neat about them is that I don't particularily feel cheated by them if I get gibbed by them, more like I just got juked and missed my aim.
That's a huge step up from how awful the AI was in Halo 5. It makes me wonder, if they can make AI that decent, could they introduce them into firefight or even custom games involving forge mode?
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« on: November 23, 2021, 09:47:15 PM »
No offshoot forum lasts forever. No forum lasts forever. Age probably doesn't help. Like, three quarters of the people here have lives and those ties are more important than the occassional heartbeat over here.
Once you know everybody, there's nothing new coming in either. In a physical sense, if we all sat down at a restaurant together, we'd be the crowd of people you see that don't say much but just hang out like regulars(assuming that certain members didn't burst into flames in the same room with each other)
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