Honestly, up until this passed week I have really understood why having friends is that important. Not to say I have no friends, but the ones I do have, lack the desire to involve themselves in the more personal or important aspects of my life. As well as avoid delving into theirs. Until recently I hadn't truly recognized what I was missing out on by having nobody I could confide it, and it caused me to realize just how many things happen in my life that I just have nobody to share with. Having a single incident where I was able to speak openly without following the societal script of correctness, and speak honestly with a  classmate allowed me to realize the changes I need to make in my life to allow for more meaningful friendships. Now I really do appreciate the companionship and camaraderie shared among my circle of friends, but without anyone to share the intimate details of my life with in that group i'm constantly left feeling empty and alone.

 

>Am complete betafag
>New girl joins class senior year 8/10
>Damn it now's my chance
>Have enough courage to go introduce myself
>I walk over to her and forget how to human
>Say the most autistic thing i can think of
>"Nice looks you got there"
>After a strange look from her and realizing what I just said full blow autism kicks in
>Make a stupid face to pretend it was a joke and lean on nearby desk
>Every face turns to me as desk tips and i crash into femanons lap
>I realize my life is now over, i look up at her blushed and teary
>Smiling at me she says, "Hi im femanon"
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>Oh im so sorry, I just wanted to welcome you, Im MerciBuckets, I say back like a fucking alpha
>Have intelligent conversation with her all period
>Cant believe it when she offers me her number, take it and shake
>Eventually we part ways to go home and I decide to text her "Hey did you figure out the math homework?"
>Nearly an hour later she responds to me with this...
>"All you have to do is read the first letter of every line silly "

>Alright heres a shitty ass day for me last week
>Not enough sleep the night before my big calc test
>Didnt study nearly enough know ill regret this as soon as I cant understand the first question
>Halfway to school realize I forgot my lunch and my phone in my haste to leave. Run home to grab them both making me 15 minutes late for class
>Immediately upon arrival at school I see the principal and secretary.
>Slut principal thinks I was smoking weed before class cuz im out of breath
>Not high just fat. But get detention with her to talk
>Accept punishment like betafag
>Make my way towards math class, now 30 minutes late, test started without me
>Everyone staring at me giving me dirty looks, sub teacher today too
>I walk to my desk and sit down to start my test
>Stare at the first question, and realize I fucked up by not studying
>Just about to give up when I remember the formula
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>Have 30 minutes left to finish the entire test.
>Now that I remember the formulas its not too bad
>Coming up to the last question Ive answer almost every other question with 4 minutes to spare
>Expecting some kind of trick question but surprisingly it was some easy shit.
>Notice I forgot to write my name submitting the test to the teacher
>After signing off on my test with a nice ole "MerciBuckets" I finished the most excruciating test of my life

How was the test my teacher asked me
I responded, "Not so bad when I remembered the formula: read the first letter of every line"