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Messages - Busta Nut
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« on: February 27, 2022, 11:16:13 PM »
Im going to laugh my ass off if you end up getting a warning for this
I have called the cops on this asshole three separate times. The day I get a warning, I'll laugh along side you.
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« on: February 27, 2022, 01:15:58 PM »
salsa on my balls boys
Salsa would be too easy. I want a habanero garnish.
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« on: February 27, 2022, 01:03:46 PM »
100 decibels through my floor, everyday, for the past five months. I have a baby, so whenever he's not home you're fucked.
Dickhead is a wife-beater too, so no remorse. Enjoy 160-200 intermediately, during your late nights, dude.
I have to cover with earplugs, and it still hurts afterwards.
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« on: February 10, 2022, 09:02:11 AM »
Hey buddy. Got a surprise for you. I had the idea forming for a few months, maybe three ago or so. Hearing the six month sober mark prompted me to finish it. This is for you just in case I happen to pop my clogs before I get around to my business.
I share my work freely, so I hope you don't mind if I drop it here. But for you, later in the year I'll get this printed out onto canvas and you'll have the only physical copy of it. You've earned it buddy. That's the least I can do methinks, but it's something.
Yo, sorry for the late response. Gotta say that this is pretty wicked, man. Gonna go check out your other Art stuff in a little bit, but again, it's pretty rad and I really appreciate it.
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« on: February 03, 2022, 11:15:22 AM »
Brother I'm glad for you. I've felt that physical withdraw two separate times in my life for a couple days each and I could not imagine living with it long term. You're a strong motherfucker, man. Best of luck forward.
I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Night-terrors, hallucinations, and seizures were consistent for the longest time. The difficulty of knowing what was real or not fucked me up for a long time, but I made it. Glad you did too. Fuck booze.
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« on: February 03, 2022, 11:03:18 AM »
good for you brother, fuck alcohol
Amen to that. Nearing five thousand years of civilization and yet prohibition failed lol.
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« on: February 02, 2022, 05:38:38 PM »
Really proud of this one, boys.
Alcohol has been the most destructive force in my life, and while I'm still paying for it, I can at least say it's finally under my own control.
I'm one of the few who experiences DT's long term, and knowing how far I've gotten since that last drink... I don't know how to describe it. I feel almost giddy writing this. I feel in control, conscious, and I'm loving every second of it.
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« on: January 08, 2022, 10:21:37 AM »
Let the past die
Gtfo Kylo. The past sucked. Jacen was the better Vader.
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« on: January 04, 2022, 01:33:22 PM »
I've been reading the Sword of Truth books with my wife over the past year, and by god is it a fucking miserable experience. The first book is a spectacular story as a standalone, but after the third it just keeps slogging on and on. I personally wouldn't have continued if she weren't adamant that we might as well since they were a gift. Here we are on Omen Machine and I'm kinda just done with TK's filler and endless reiterations.
I've been currently going through Phillip K. Dick and Harlan Ellison's works as of late. Finished off all of Lovecraft's works a couple of weeks ago, and The Colour Out of Space and At the Mountains of Madness are by far the two I most adore.
I also plan on reading through all of the Tolkien books again once the Game-Mania running through me subsides.
All Quiet on the Western Front will probably remain my favourite singular book of all time, though.
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« on: January 04, 2022, 12:56:40 PM »
Put in over 80 hours into Three Houses over the last week and a half.
Still need to finish Fallout 2 (finished 1 a month ago when my internet was out), but I've got my anime game to complete beforehand. 2 is definitely far more interesting and enjoyable though, tbh.
Got Skyward Sword for Switch on my birthday, but considering I was 90% done with it on Wii before my brother trashed the system, it's on the lower list of priorities.
Still stuck on the Sand Pharoah on Luigi's Mansion 3, but I've only just thought of that NOW.
Kinda wanna do another playthrough of Wind Waker and New Vegas as well.
Still need to buy Infinite.
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« on: January 04, 2022, 12:51:05 PM »
And from the woodwork, they cum. 
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« on: November 20, 2021, 05:08:37 PM »
The meme aside, it really does seem like activity has hit the lowest levels I've ever seen. Just look at the latest responses on the second thread of each forum. It ranges for days to weeks, and across the board, even some of the most recent posted in topics have comments in that same spectrum.
RIP
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« on: September 16, 2021, 11:01:03 PM »
a mess of his own making
he can get fucked
Much as I love the man's work, I can only echo this sentiment.
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« on: August 26, 2021, 12:41:57 PM »
My father passed in 2015, and I haven't had contact with my immediate family (aside from my younger brother) in years.
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« on: August 11, 2021, 08:16:06 AM »
I went from being a shitty McDonald's manager, to being an intern chef in a 2-star Michelin restaurant, to being approved and THEN denied at Benu (3-star in San Fran) due to not having a shot that no longer seems to matter because of DELTA lol.
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« on: July 21, 2021, 03:31:26 AM »
Different strokes, I know. But it's all multi-cultural. They're good guys and gals though, and appreciate the effort. Better workplace than any I've experienced thus far.
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« on: July 21, 2021, 03:31:02 AM »
Fair enough. Working at a traditional African place right now, so I'm just used to pushback in regards to opinions. Makes sense as I'm the only white guy. Still kinda sucks when they can concoct some of the best dishes of my life, but scorn momo, poutine, or Lihapullat, alongside other dishes. Spoiler First is Nepalese, second Canadian, third Finnish. Tried different tastes.
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« on: July 20, 2021, 11:35:46 PM »
Don't downplay that Louisiana/Cajun cookin'. Some of the BEST cuisine in the world. Kinda biased as I'm from and have worked in plenty of New Orleans kitchens.  Spoiler Hopefully you weren't thinking I was similarly downplaying your cooking. Mashed Potatoes are one of my favourite foods, and those were some of the buttery and best I've seen.
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« on: July 20, 2021, 10:39:21 PM »
Wow. Seriously good looking pics. Are you legit a chef or in the food business or something?
As someone who has apprenticed in a 2-star Michelin restaurant, this is pretty good. Mashed taters of this quality (no matter how good they might look AND HOLY FUCK DO THEY) wouldn't pass though, just by appearance and texture. If you are a chef Solo, everything else looks pretty excellent. Especially that beef in the first pic. Fat Mmm right there.
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« on: July 18, 2021, 07:15:02 AM »
Might wanna spoiler tag that
Yeah, my bad. Hope no one saw that lol Man, if this isn't one of the best Gundam soundtracks tho. Earth has put me into a writing mood like no other.
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« on: July 17, 2021, 05:50:56 PM »
Just finished the Hathaway novels (watched the movie yesterday). Spoiler The ending was what I expected for our boy, but holy fuck did he and Bright deserve better.
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« on: June 28, 2021, 10:23:16 AM »
where them feet pics at tho
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« on: June 18, 2021, 12:12:22 PM »
It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia
Never understood the obsession with this show. The only good one I remember was when they went to a waterpark and Danny DeVito pretended he had AIDS/HIV to bypass all of the lines or some shit. Other than that? Eh.
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« on: May 12, 2021, 05:22:24 PM »
no u
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« on: April 22, 2021, 02:50:24 AM »
Never been into models, but any of you boys got any variation of the Tallgeese (not that I enjoyed Wing, really)? Favourite Mech alongside the Zaku I and Rick Dom, but I've not seen many irl.
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« on: April 19, 2021, 09:35:26 AM »
Spoiler What the fuck is up with Gendo? That eye just makes me think of 100% Boros from OPM.
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« on: March 11, 2021, 12:46:03 PM »
Only if you're bustin'.
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« on: February 28, 2021, 09:18:44 PM »
I don't think calling Class's situation "making it" would be accurate.
If SC made it, so can you.
I've given her a lot of shit over the years (much of it I regret), but at least she's fucking happy.
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« on: February 28, 2021, 09:08:14 PM »
And you're beating yourself up for nothing too. Be real about this. You still got family. They're all still alive back where you left em. You're still alive to see them.
You might feel like an ass if you can get back to them. You might feel like an ass just telling them what happened. But they're still there for you, even if you goofed. Ideally, that's what family is. And you really didn't goof from the sounds of it. You met assholes, both corporate and bums on the street. That's not your fault.
Ask yourself a question. Is right now on par with the worst day you've ever had in your life? If it's not, you can beat it. And if it is, then try anyway.
I can only offer one more bit of commentary in the meantime. You've got a girlfriend that gives a shit about you and cares about you. And it sounds like she cares enough about you to help you out. Just go back to her, man. Tell her you're sorry, you tried, and you love her. If she's a decent human being who really gives a fuck about you she'll stand by you. That alone should be enough to get you back up.
Put the ashamed feelings and the desperation aside because they're not going to do you any good. Get up and fight it. Make you a deal. If you can weather the shit that's hitting you right now, then I'm willing to try to keep fighting the shit that's hitting me right now. Come on. You can do it.
I'm just tired of this, Q. I was in a bad place before this garbage, and now I'm in an even worse spot. I can't eat, I sleep maybe three hours a day because all I dream of is dying, and I don't know what the fuck I should do. The fantasy of abandoning everything is becoming more of a necessity because no one I know really understands. I've alienated myself, and the one person who I thought might understand now just thinks of me as some pill junkie looking for kicks. My own fucking dad OD'd, I refuse ALL pills, but he doesn't see that. No one (except you) believes in me. I'm basically a walking corpse, with the façade I've given them shattered. I just don't know what to do anymore. No one will hire me, no one trusts me, and I'm basically a stranger in a strange land. My fiancé wants me to see someone, but all they do is push fucking pills. I've had sixteen years of that shit to know that's exactly what's going to happen, and I refuse. I don't want to hear "you just haven't found the right one" anymore. I want to be stable, I want to feel something other than suicidal depression or boiling rage at my own inability to feel the former. I want to be fucking normal. It just feels like I'm broken, with no way out.
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« on: February 28, 2021, 01:55:57 PM »
And holy fuck does it suck.
Mugged within the second week, beaten to unconsciousness by three dudes, had my phone stolen, and here I am left with broken teeth that makes me look like a methhead, and a large ass hospital bill to boot. Literally just wanted to go mountain climbing, but NO, these shitters had to screw me over. I can't even eat anymore without pain.
The job I was promised? The company filled days before I flew out (NOT THAT ANYONE CONTACTED ME ABOUT IT, FUCK CORPORATE), so now I'm just some jobless loser, subsisting off my girl's good will.
Attempted suicide failed because four beers and about forty Xanax couldn't do the trick without my stupid body rejecting it, and now no one trusts me to be a normal human being.
Fuck this. I abandoned my family and the few people I actually care about for fucking nothing.
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