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I don't really have anyone else to tell. I don't use social media. Beyond that, in spite of what some of you think of me you're the people I have always felt most comfortable with.

Being a part of the b.net and Sep7agon communities helped me figure a teeny tiny bit about myself when I didn't really know anything about who I was. When I was a child, I wasn't really allowed to be or want anything. My mother raised me like some disgusting mixture of a dress-up doll and a poorly trained dog. I wasn't allowed to choose my own clothes until I was in eighth grade. I'm sure you all know I didn't have any friends, and I'm sure I've told my story extensively over the last decade here.

My life was really hard after that. But I checked in every now and then and you probably know things have gotten a lot better. You're probably aware that I started HRT six years ago. You might not know that it was difficult for me to maintain a supply of medication early on, or that it was more important to me than things like food, or shelter. I've been able to be secure in having access to meds for the last four years.

I'm talking about all of this because, the thing I wanted to share with you, is that I just broke down in tears after realizing that for the first time in fifteen years I am not completely ashamed of myself and my body. I stopped being comfortable with being seen without a shirt on when I was eleven or twelve. The funny thing about this is I've been extremely depressed lately, and completely went insane in October. I was doing some engineering work for a company near Tulsa, and it was the first job I'd ever had that paid well enough for me to buy a house. I pretended to be someone that I wasn't because I knew that they wouldn't take the real me seriously. I had a relatively socialist worldview, which I had constructed for myself after clawing out of the repressed pits of fascist hell my brain lived in until I was 22. Suddenly I needed to fit in with the Maga crowd. I really didn't realize how much self-harm I was inflicting by trying to be that person. I knew I could be that person though, because I had been before. Holy shit what happens to you when you start drinking their Kool-aid.

So, I had gone completely insane, not the first time. Then my mother forced me to relive being abandoned by her. I had an absolute psychotic breakdown. I checked myself into the hospital but it was too late, the damage was done. I needed to start all over over again and this time I decided to go back to school. Now that I have fewer external pressures I'm free to be myself all the time. I still feel guilty for going on autistic rants about everything, while pacing and gesticulating, but I'm trying to accept that I can't repress my neurodivergent behavior without hurting myself either. It's still really embarrassing though.

So I've been really depressed and I got a little bit fat, I gained about thirty-five pounds over the course of the whole ordeal, and I've been really ashamed of that. But I just lost the first ten pounds and just yesterday I realized that my hips are wider than my shoulders. And I realized even though I've still got another twenty pounds to lose I have a narrow waistline. I tried on some of the clothes that I had put away years ago because I would be embarrassed to be seen in them when I was 30lbs lighter than I am now, and they actually looked pretty good. And tonight, it struck me that I didn't have to feel bad about myself anymore, and I don't need to pretend to be someone I'm not anymore. I'm actually more myself than I've ever been in my whole entire life and it's time to start acting like it. And I just broke down sobbing. I'm crying right now, too.

Thank you guys so much for being here, after all these years. And thank you so much for all the help you gave me. I just didn't think I could get through this moment without letting you know it means everything to me.

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The Flood / Hang on, wait a second
« on: October 05, 2023, 05:42:44 AM »
what if Handlebars by FloBots isn't about the darkness within human potential, but instead is about the inevitable trajectory of limitless growth

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The Flood / Check out my shed
« on: September 30, 2023, 07:31:13 PM »
got the SNES and GameCube set up on the crt and native analog 480i streaming without an Xbox or ps3

old shows look great over this setup, nothing is squished and it also has dlna steaming

Old 4:3 anime looks especially good.




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Gaming / The Destiny Community is shocked that Bungie has abandoned them
« on: August 06, 2023, 10:58:27 PM »
I can't really remember why was this forum created again? Who could possibly have seen this coming? If only we had some way of predicting this... perhaps a pattern of behavior?

Pre-order Marathon to Tarkov today!

Seriously though, thoughts regarding the State of the Game Bungie put out, and community backlash leading to, and coming from the article?

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The Flood / hey, some of you are undoubtedly familiar with networking
« on: October 23, 2022, 08:44:38 PM »
How do I allow my vsftpd (Linux FTP Server) to be accessed by WAN?

It's for a project I'm doing at work to overhaul our network infrastructure. I built a server and have been deploying new features on it for a few weeks now.

Im trying to get an easy solution for our Sales department's reliance on cloud storage, and in the process make our in-house operations more robust against internet outages.

If anyone knows about this kinda stuff, I'd appreciate some advice.

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The Flood / I was in an episode of infowars AMA
« on: July 30, 2022, 07:11:13 PM »
 T4R

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The Flood / Bungie becomes part of Sony
« on: February 01, 2022, 02:49:42 AM »
nintendo ownership by 2040

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Gaming / Okay, this is driving me fucking nuts (Witcher 3)
« on: January 19, 2022, 04:18:57 AM »
No amount of searching has yielded any results, I can't even find a name for these things, nobody seems to have anything to say about them.

What is the deal with these locked chests that are EVERYWHERE.



Does anyone know anything at all?
Are they just here to drive me crazy?

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The Flood / Sold a Computer
« on: August 23, 2021, 08:08:51 PM »



Flipped the one I built earlier this year since I finished a new one.

got a cool grand for it

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The Flood / I made some food
« on: July 19, 2021, 02:57:08 AM »
You hungry?








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The Flood / Bought my bf a ps5, but at what cost?
« on: May 08, 2021, 11:31:43 AM »
I managed to snag him one at msrp for his birthday, but now I have to drive 6hrs to pick it up from Best Buy in Memphis.

I'm grateful to have been able to get one at all, but seriously, fuck scalpers.

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The Flood / Gojira Vs. King Kong - Bernie Free Edition
« on: April 08, 2021, 06:26:04 PM »
I edited out the B storyline from Godzilla Vs. Kong. I call it Gojira vs. King Kong. I think it's a little bit closer to the film we deserved. Still not perfect, but after the bluray versions or maybe even a director's cut comes out I plan to watch all the deleted scenes and cut together another version in higher quality etc.

The source video for this version is the 1080p HBO Max version, and it looks more or less okay, but if you liked the movie you might wanna give mine a watch.

https://mega.nz/file/FR8x0CQR#NRuLZ10bkRzup5Y74FsYbiFV9Bo_9Hi_YCw7sPJBX2Y

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The Flood / Hey so uh
« on: February 11, 2021, 06:57:02 AM »
Halo is a twenty year old game.

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The Flood / Building a PC am I cool now
« on: December 20, 2020, 04:21:19 AM »
https://pcpartpicker.com/list/wfxbRT

I bought everything but the gpu (no stock) and the aio, I figure the stock cooler will do good until I can put it through its paces anyway.

First Load Arrived

Does anybody have ideas about the cooling configuration? The 3060Ti exhausts at the rear through the io plate and also blows air up toward the cpu block, so I'm wondering where to install the radiator and about the directionality of the front and top fans. Obviously, the rear fan is going to have to exhaust since there's already going to be hot air out there. I'm wondering if pulling cool air through the radiator at the upper two fans of the front intake, with the bottom front fan blowing in cool air, and the two fans at the ceiling of the case exhausting is gonna be the way to go. Or maybe a more traditional configuration with the radiator at the top could work somehow?

Like, a configuration with cool air coming in at the front and warm air coming in through the radiator at the ceiling and all of the air gets exhausted through the rear?

It's kinda a head scratcher.

Initially I was planning to exhaust through the front and intake air at the rear and top, but with the gpu blowing hot air back there it just doesn't seem to be the way to go.

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The Flood / Guys we won
« on: October 16, 2020, 09:13:47 PM »
no more DeeJ

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The Flood / damn bruh trannies actually do be crazy tho
« on: October 07, 2020, 11:11:26 PM »

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The Flood / Be honest, who here still hasn’t seen my ass?
« on: June 19, 2020, 11:39:27 PM »
http://sep7agon.net/anarchy/fuck-it-why-not/

Please just take my recommendation and look at this fantastic butt if you haven’t yet. But if that’s not enough, take a look at this thread above. It excellently sums up what’s so great about my ass, and I want to actually challenge Verbatim’s argument from his traps aren't gay delusion about themes in this post.

Spoiler
My ass is a single-orificed mystery/trap with plenty of erotic elements. It takes place in chairs and sofas, in two cheekss that ultimately connect to each other along a crack. It has a huge round shape of slappable cheeks, some appearing in only one angle, some appearing in two, and one set hole, extremely important but essentially disgusting if you think about it too much, which appears when you spread it. Despite how gay this may sound, it never gets saggy and you’re never at a lull where you’re asking “wait, who is this guy again”?

The firmness makes the ass, in my opinion, but make no mistake - the jiggliness of the ass is one of the most well-crafted twerks where you’re often confused, but always wanting more. The only time you might be scratching your head is at the end of the first session, as, fair warning, it’s more of a “oh fuck was thatr gay?” situation that doesn’t make a whole lot of sense on first fuck except to the most mental-gymnasticky of coomer. I always tell people that no, you can’t suck my dick that would be gay bro, as that would homosexually set the tone and then everything else would be gay, but the first aspect of a concise, heteroromantic relationship begins on the second date.

The show is almost, almost like a “Tom Holland meets a Marilyn Monroe meets a Christina Hendrix ass”, in a way. That’s just a simple comparison, though, and the ass itself is unique and unlike anything you’ve probably seen.

This ass makes me disagree with Verbatim’s idea that the dick makes it better. He said that without the dick, without the male genitals flopping wtih the rhythm, an ass is just bred. That may be the case with most asses, yes. That may be the case when an ass is treated as auxillary to a larger image or provide some larger reason for you to fuck it - for Verbatim, he likes to walk away from an ass with some takeaway he can fap to his later, to feel like his time wasn’t wasted.

I can understand that, but really, do you need a pussy or dick to have something to fap to your when you're done? What about a “I relate to this person and the things they went through their ass makes me feel better about things I’ve gone through in my own life”? What about “their ass and how it jiggled, and how they resolved the orgasm I gave them has given me new insight on what I'm looking for in a relationship”? I’m mainly speaking to Verbatim in this paragraph, because for most people, merely the promise of watching an incredible, high-quality ass bounce on our cock is its own reward. What I’m saying is that you don’t need a dick, or a vagina, to something to think about while you fap later. The ass itself can be what gets you off.

Verbatim compared traps to a man - the dick being the main attraction, and the ass being the thing you use to jack your meat while you stare at the penis - the the literal force on your penis - but not the reason you're fucking the person. My ass, as I said, is unlike any ass I’ve ever seen, and I think no exception can be made. My ass is like an entree of tastiest potato chips you’ve ever tasted. Not some Lays bullshit - the genuine article, made by some renowned Southern cook and served to you in a fancy restaurant. Is it a sandwich, is it good for you? Not really. It's still still deep fried and mostly fat. It has no health food content (i.e. dick, pussy, gigantic tiddies), but goddamn is it delicious. Goddamn you will mount me time after time, and it'll be gone as fast as you can coom in it. And while it didn’t do anything for you on a health food level, goddamn you’ll remember that dining experience, eating that ass, for a long, LONG time.

My ass takes its cheeks and hole very seriously, and everything is very consistent. But it also doesn’t pander to you pretending to be something it’s not. It’s definitely not a fat pair of tits or something like vagina. If I had to reach and guess the weight of my ass, it would be “fat as FUCK”. The ass goes out of its way to reward the people who buy me dinner, makes the ones who won't even share their bud reconsider their lives, and suffocate the outright monsters. There’s a sense of romance in each caress and slap, working together to defeat this horny that looms over everything. And in the end of my jeans, there’s yes, a sense of romantic love that these same-sex individuals have developed toward each other.

You will love the ass, that’s for sure. You’re connected with it and want to see it from a dozen different angles almost immediately. Even the “dick” is endearing and charming (except that literally is NOT the point pls no touchy). Anyway, this isn’t really an ass that even has masculine features, and men's pants are almost more like saggy trousers than male features. It’s not a pretentious ass, even if it might seem that way initially. Just give it a chance and you’ll enjoy it - I promise, on the honor of Das B00t.  ;)

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The Flood / I started injections today
« on: June 19, 2020, 07:45:54 PM »
AMA me anything

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The Flood / @Das
« on: June 02, 2020, 05:31:53 PM »

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The Flood / Someone offered me $300 to make a sex tape
« on: May 23, 2020, 06:05:10 AM »
I'm really not sure what to do.

I should say, this isn't prostitution. They don't want to be in the tape. They just want me to make one and send it to them, but I've never done anything like that before.

The most I've done is take dick pics or pictures in my underwear. I don't even own a sex toy, much less take dildo pictures or make recordings.

I'm not sure if it's something I wanna do, but my irl friends seem to have a really destigmatized view of sex workers. They tell me I shouldn't be ashamed, and that it's easy money.

What do you guys think of sex work and cam girls? Is it something for the shameless and the truly desperate, or is it just another job?

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The Flood / holy shit I just realized
« on: May 14, 2020, 03:27:28 PM »
Cheat isn't a pegboy

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The Flood / Liking traps are gay and always will be
« on: May 02, 2020, 11:58:02 PM »
fuck you Fred

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Gaming / MCC Giveaway
« on: April 23, 2020, 05:10:12 PM »
I know most people already have this game, but I recently found a digital copy of the MCC, in my stuff. I've had a physical copy since launch, and obviously don't need both, so I'm wondering if anyone doesn't have it yet?

I'm generally not on here anymore so if you're interested, shoot me a message on Discord @Solonoid#7465

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Septagon / ♫ Just the two of us ♫
« on: November 13, 2019, 06:50:35 AM »

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The Flood / I guess I should address that point.
« on: November 13, 2019, 05:39:13 AM »
I'm acutely aware that for years I was a blind and stubborn person who thought I was infallible, and in addition to that, I'm very aware that I've treated a lot of people here poorly. To this day, when I return here, it's easy to fall back into those habits because of the relationship I've established with people here. I'm a lot like my mother in that regard.

I'm aware that I've made statements, and wholly believed in them, that were racist, race-baiting, sexist, sexist, or in general bigoted. I'm a lot like my father, and his father before him, in that regard.

Every day in my daily life, probably since the last time I got out of jail a little over a year ago, I have been trying to look more closely at the things that make me a shitty person and change them.

I think I've made a lot of progress, and I've seen every relationship in my life improve as a result of this. It was not easy to get to a place where I realized that it was time I change. I had to live through poverty, homelessness, losing my freedom, being sexually assaulted (as an adult it was worse for me than as a child, I think), paranoid delusions stemming from mental illness, and a whole lot of loss. But it wasn't the pain that opened my eyes to what kind of a manipulative monster I'd become.

Just before my last trip downtown, I really and truly found love. I wrote letters every day, and when I got out months later, my boyfriend was still waiting for me. When I got out, I also found real friendship. Where before most of my relationships had been based on personal gain, I learned what it meant to be someone's friend. My friends took me in, and I was so grateful that I did everything I could within my meager power to give back to them. Their generosity showed me how to be generous.

I liked the person I was becoming so much that I decided to start taking strides toward doing the right thing in every walk of life. This is where things start to get hard. When I learned to give back to my friends, I had a genuine change of heart, but you can't force that kind of change to occur intrinsically.

I found out it takes conscious and constant effort to teach yourself the habits of a decent human being. Honesty was the first step, and it was hard. There were times when it was so grueling to tell someone the truth when a lie felt easier. But I did it anyway. Honesty is a habit and it can be mastered.

The next was the way I regard others. I found out I couldn't be dismissive of the opinions of others, or walk into a room and assume I knew more about everything than everyone else there. I think I have a lot of room to improve still in this regard, but just by paying careful attention to what others have to say and really taking it to heart I think I'm getting a lot better at being courteous. Of course, disagreements still occur, but I've found out that there's no reason to get angry at someone because you disagree with them about something.

One thing I hadn't gotten the chance to improve on during the time I spent living with my friends was bigotry. Where we lived in Texas, starting a race war is next to normal, so I didn't get the chance to be exposed to the good habit of not being a racist. And I still held a low opinion of women. When I moved to Colorado this summer I started meeting new people and my eyes really opened up to the idea that white-supremacy miiiiiight not be a political end-all-be-all.

When I arrived in Colorado I met a middle aged black man named Phil. I never would've guessed that he was going to become one of my best friends. Phil was born and raised in the Bronx, and came up during a hard time in the city. His family and his friends were more important to him than anything, and he spent his summer worrying constantly about whether or not his son was getting in trouble. He showed me that I was wrong, and opening up to his friendship helped me to move past my racist upbringing.

I used to think all women were boring, stupid, empty wastes of human life only here to pump out babies. I really wanted nothing to do with them. A lot of amazing women have come into my life in the last year, and they've shown me what should've been obvious all along: women are just people. Earlier today someone on discord was echoing those negative sentiments and backward views on women. I was reviled at first, but then I started feeling sorry for them. I actually feel bad for anyone who feels the way I used to feel. I can't imagine how lonely and angry at the world they must be. They must feel abandoned.

After moving to Wyoming I came under the tutelage of a particularly talented and thoughtful chef named Vasko. He's from Bulgaria. In general, I had always held a low opinion of Eastern Europeans, despite never having met one. Vasko wasn't alone though, I made a lot of friends there from various Eastern European countries, and much to my surprise, they too, were just people.

Some of them I disliked, some I got along with, some, like Vasko, I even admired a little. But they were all startlingly human, and couldn't be encapsulated by a stereotype.

I don't want to end up broken and lonely like my family. I want to live a decent life where I can be proud instead of ashamed.

Consider this an apology for the shitty way I've treated some of you, hell, at some point probably all of you. I realized a bit back I had been using this site to vent my negative feelings onto others, but now I see that I need to do the right thing and treat you guys, my oldest friends, with the same dignity I'm trying to engender in my daily life.

Please, be my friend. It will save my life.

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The Flood / Yoo they fixed sonic
« on: November 12, 2019, 01:21:54 PM »
YouTube
The movie still might bomb but Sonic doesn't give children nightmares anymore at least.

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The Flood / Decimator Omega is the most important user here
« on: November 11, 2019, 02:11:46 PM »
we literally need him the site is dying without him

bring back Roman too

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The Flood / holy shit this is awesome
« on: November 10, 2019, 06:27:25 AM »
Ted Cruz confirms he is the Zodiac Killer, the world's most prolific serial killer.

The story is an odd one, as it involves the world's most prolific serial killer who, in a strange turn of events, turns out to be a famous political figure.

But the story of Ted Cruz as the Zodiac Killer is one that should be considered as some sort of a cautionary tale for the United States and its citizens, and especially its young people.

The story is well-known, but not well-understood.
The story is well-known, but not well-understood.

Ted Cruz is the Zodiac Killer

Ted Cruz, as you may already know, is running for President of the United States. He is running as a member of the Republican party. And he is running

the above text was generated by Ol' Musky's neural net GPT-2, through the site talktotransformer.com

sometimes the generated text is slightly incoherent in places, like at the end of this but where it just ends with "And he is running", or the line that was generated twice, but in this particular case I think it fits the narrative

altogether though, it's a pretty convincing generator, and I cannot wait for the hilarious erotic fanfic it pumps out when wielded by the right smutlord

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The Flood / rip in peace Florida niggas
« on: November 08, 2019, 02:45:05 PM »
sure, now they've just bought Clearwater, but how long until scientology buys all of Florida?

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