You know I've kinda learned something

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I've learned that being honest, considerate, compassionate, and overall selfless as much as I can be, being truthful, being nice to others, it just gets me hurt.

I keep getting hurt every single time. I would try the exact opposite and lie, cheat, steal, and overall hurt others for my own personal gain, but my autism rather makes it impossible, and on top of that the guilt will eat me up alive.

Why am I like this? Why can't I just kill my own emotions and go cold and not gives 2 fucks about any single person at all? Why am I so fucking blunt? What the fuck is wrong with me?


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next time you see the nice lady in the store just beat her up with the gun and take the money and the golden bricks


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next time you see the nice lady in the store just beat her up with the gun and take the money and the golden bricks

Shit dude I didn't mean the complete polar opposite. That's just savage.


 
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next time you see the nice lady in the store just beat her up with the gun and take the money and the golden bricks

Shit dude I didn't mean the complete polar opposite. That's just savage.


and that's why you'll never change deci.

you are capable of MANY great things

and also capable of MANY things that are not so great in this world we call the center of the earth.


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
Understanding what should be done intellectually isn't enough. You have to actually abide.

Seriously, like The Dude says, "abide."

You keep abiding and it will condition you into a different mindset. The instant you start to deviant from the path, mindfulness should steer you right back into place because mindfulness should always be practiced. Always.

It's fairly obvious that you have an abundant lack of understand of what exactly is happening to you, why it is happening to you, and what the true consequences are. Knowing it, understanding it gives you the power to change it or even avoid it altogether, but as you seem to think, "I just can't," it is inevitable that you can't.

Until you accept that you can, abide by that thought, and pay attention to what is happening to you from an unbiased perspective, then you can not, and nor will you ever be able to overcome.
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next time you see the nice lady in the store just beat her up with the gun and take the money and the golden bricks

Shit dude I didn't mean the complete polar opposite. That's just savage.


and that's why you'll never change deci.

you are capable of MANY great things

and also capable of MANY things that are not so great in this world we call the center of the earth.

But I don't think I can live like that man. The guilt would drive me mad. I'd beg for death.

Understanding what should be done intellectually isn't enough. You have to actually abide.

Seriously, like The Dude says, "abide."

You keep abiding and it will condition you into a different mindset. The instant you start to deviant from the path, mindfulness should steer you right back into place because mindfulness should always be practiced. Always.

It's fairly obvious that you have an abundant lack of understand of what exactly is happening to you, why it is happening to you, and what the true consequences are. Knowing it, understanding it gives you the power to change it or even avoid it altogether, but as you seem to think, "I just can't," it is inevitable that you can't.

Until you accept that you can, abide by that thought, and pay attention to what is happening to you from an unbiased perspective, then you can not, and nor will you ever be able to overcome.

Well, I can try that, but I don't think its a guarantee.


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.

Well, I can try that, but I don't think its a guarantee.
You can try and you can fail. The point is that you have to give up the notion of try. You have to actually do it.

You are set up to fail from the start the instant you abide by the thought, "I'll try." Just save yourself the effort then. If you don't have the resolve to abide by the thought, "I WILL" then don't even bother trying.

This isn't some simple task you'd be undertaking, this is changing your mindset we're talking about here. Something that requires a significant amount of effort and resolve.


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Well, I can try that, but I don't think its a guarantee.
You can try and you can fail. The point is that you have to give up the notion of try. You have to actually do it.

You are set up to fail from the start the instant you abide by the thought, "I'll try." Just save yourself the effort then. If you don't have the resolve to abide by the thought, "I WILL" then don't even bother trying.

This isn't some simple task you'd be undertaking, this is changing your mindset we're talking about here. Something that requires a significant amount of effort and resolve.

I don't think I could just do that without being myself.


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
I don't think I could just do that without being myself.
smh, you're accepting yourself as inherently flawed, and that is absolutely foolish. The whole point of changing your mindset is becoming a new person.

If you're afraid to become a new person then that's it, you're done. Have fun living the rest of your life being flawed. I'm sure it will be fun, right?


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I don't think I could just do that without being myself.
smh, you're accepting yourself as inherently flawed, and that is absolutely foolish. The whole point of changing your mindset is becoming a new person.

If you're afraid to become a new person then that's it, you're done. Have fun living the rest of your life being flawed. I'm sure it will be fun, right?

How is one not flawed?


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
I don't think I could just do that without being myself.
smh, you're accepting yourself as inherently flawed, and that is absolutely foolish. The whole point of changing your mindset is becoming a new person.

If you're afraid to become a new person then that's it, you're done. Have fun living the rest of your life being flawed. I'm sure it will be fun, right?

How is one not flawed?
No one is perfect but you seem to think that the way you are is your inherent nature.

Your nature is the result of your experience. But you can make a conscious effort to change and influence what you experience and how you perceive that experience.

If you've got the time and are truly interested then maybe John Bergman can explain better than I can:

YouTube


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I don't think I could just do that without being myself.
smh, you're accepting yourself as inherently flawed, and that is absolutely foolish. The whole point of changing your mindset is becoming a new person.

If you're afraid to become a new person then that's it, you're done. Have fun living the rest of your life being flawed. I'm sure it will be fun, right?

How is one not flawed?
No one is perfect but you seem to think that the way you are is your inherent nature.

Your nature is the result of your experience. But you can make a conscious effort to change and influence what you experience and how you perceive that experience.

If you've got the time and are truly interested then maybe John Bergman can explain better than I can:

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Added to my watch later list. Thanks.


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There's no such thing as karma bro. Sandtrap's life to date has made that abundantly clear. Don't behave outside your nature just because you're expecting a reward for it fam.


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There's no such thing as karma bro. Sandtrap's life to date has made that abundantly clear. Don't behave outside your nature just because you're expecting a reward for it fam.

I'm not expecting a reward. I just don't get why people are such fucking pieces of human garbage.


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
There's no such thing as karma bro. Sandtrap's life to date has made that abundantly clear. Don't behave outside your nature just because you're expecting a reward for it fam.
Karma is essentially consequence. Action and reaction.

It's not some mystical entity that inflicts divine justice or anything.


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Change if being you hurts you enough to be someone else. You can't just pretend to be someone else, you must change yourself for it to work.

One of the hardest things you can do, I think, but it would be worth the payout.


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Change if being you hurts you enough to be someone else. You can't just pretend to be someone else, you must change yourself for it to work.

One of the hardest things you can do, I think, but it would be worth the payout.

I can never pretend. Its hard for me to be fake, and I don't like fake people.


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Change if being you hurts you enough to be someone else. You can't just pretend to be someone else, you must change yourself for it to work.

One of the hardest things you can do, I think, but it would be worth the payout.

I can never pretend. Its hard for me to be fake, and I don't like fake people.
She's not telling you to pretend, she's indicating that you should legitimately and honestly change if you're suffering more as you are now.


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Change if being you hurts you enough to be someone else. You can't just pretend to be someone else, you must change yourself for it to work.

One of the hardest things you can do, I think, but it would be worth the payout.

I can never pretend. Its hard for me to be fake, and I don't like fake people.
She's not telling you to pretend, she's indicating that you should legitimately and honestly change if you're suffering more as you are now.

I feel like that's really hard to do though. I can't just flip a switch and become a total savage.


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
Change if being you hurts you enough to be someone else. You can't just pretend to be someone else, you must change yourself for it to work.

One of the hardest things you can do, I think, but it would be worth the payout.

I can never pretend. Its hard for me to be fake, and I don't like fake people.
She's not telling you to pretend, she's indicating that you should legitimately and honestly change if you're suffering more as you are now.

I feel like that's really hard to do though. I can't just flip a switch and become a total savage.
Why would you want to become one in the first place?


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Change if being you hurts you enough to be someone else. You can't just pretend to be someone else, you must change yourself for it to work.

One of the hardest things you can do, I think, but it would be worth the payout.

I can never pretend. Its hard for me to be fake, and I don't like fake people.
She's not telling you to pretend, she's indicating that you should legitimately and honestly change if you're suffering more as you are now.

I feel like that's really hard to do though. I can't just flip a switch and become a total savage.
I don't think anyone meant it as flipping a switch. Aether's post summarizes it best, I think. Mindfulness towards abiding and actually doing it is the most important part of changing. If you fail, process why you've failed and try again. As to the savage part I don't understand what you mean.


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Change if being you hurts you enough to be someone else. You can't just pretend to be someone else, you must change yourself for it to work.

One of the hardest things you can do, I think, but it would be worth the payout.

I can never pretend. Its hard for me to be fake, and I don't like fake people.
She's not telling you to pretend, she's indicating that you should legitimately and honestly change if you're suffering more as you are now.

I feel like that's really hard to do though. I can't just flip a switch and become a total savage.
Why would you want to become one in the first place?

I don't, but at the same time I don't want to be this overemotional wreck.


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Change if being you hurts you enough to be someone else. You can't just pretend to be someone else, you must change yourself for it to work.

One of the hardest things you can do, I think, but it would be worth the payout.

I can never pretend. Its hard for me to be fake, and I don't like fake people.
She's not telling you to pretend, she's indicating that you should legitimately and honestly change if you're suffering more as you are now.

I feel like that's really hard to do though. I can't just flip a switch and become a total savage.
I don't think anyone meant it as flipping a switch. Aether's post summarizes it best, I think. Mindfulness towards abiding and actually doing it is the most important part of changing. If you fail, process why you've failed and try again. As to the savage part I don't understand what you mean.

Taken from Urban Dictionary:

A savage is some who does not care about the Consequences of his or her actions. Usually the savage will do things that make other people say, "What the fuck are you crazy?" It has been over used to mean other things but this is the orinigal meaning. also see balls of steel


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.

I don't, but at the same time I don't want to be this overemotional wreck.
Like I've said. Repetition.

No one masters anything with a single thought or a single experience. You have to repeat the thought, the experience, again and again.

Have you ever considered meditation? I mean true meditation, as in, clearing the mind of all thought and emotion and achieving true focused attention.


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I don't, but at the same time I don't want to be this overemotional wreck.
Like I've said. Repetition.

No one masters anything with a single thought or a single experience. You have to repeat the thought, the experience, again and again.

Have you ever considered meditation? I mean true meditation, as in, clearing the mind of all thought and emotion and achieving true focused attention.

Not really because its too damn noisy here where I live. I'd have to go up north to the mountains and hills to basically hike to escape from any noise.


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.

I don't, but at the same time I don't want to be this overemotional wreck.
Like I've said. Repetition.

No one masters anything with a single thought or a single experience. You have to repeat the thought, the experience, again and again.

Have you ever considered meditation? I mean true meditation, as in, clearing the mind of all thought and emotion and achieving true focused attention.

Not really because its too damn noisy here where I live. I'd have to go up north to the mountains and hills to basically hike to escape from any noise.
Noise just makes for more vigorous practice. When you meditate effectively the noise is meaningless because it never enters your attention (unless it is the noise that you are focused on). In fact, some noise can help augment the experience, as it can be something to focus on rather than thoughts and emotions.

I remember hearing a story, in a book by Chuck Norris actually, about a monk that would meditate to the Bee Gees because it made the practice more effective, and it showed just how much he had mastered it.
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