Really starting to like my position

 
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i literally feed off of my own negativity
You heard it here. Verbatim eats his negativity.


 
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good post


 
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Goodness gracious, great balls of lightning!
i literally feed off of my own negativity
You heard it here. Verbatim eats his negativity.
Well at least he's not eating anybody's face this time


 
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i haven't ruled it out


 
 
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Just to be clear, nothing in my post was intended to be glib or condescending. I know you're not interested in the specifics of my job (which only makes sense and goes both ways), but my point was pretty simple and just to try and help you. Your negative experiences and background have shaped what pops into your head when you think of a job, being a lowly paid, pointless, menial and annoying endeavor you repeat endlessly. Of course, the same applies to me and I'm biased to the opposite, although I do have to point out that I have worked jobs involving children, administrative work and packing/stacking kind of deals. I'm not here to tell you how awesome everything is or how narrow-minded you are (I'm actually legit surprised that's what you got out a post that I thought was sincere and just an attempt to help). I'm just here to tell you that all of the bad stuff you fear about jobs isn't inherent to being employed.

I get what you say about time, but I see resources as something very broad. Access to knowledge and tools that aren't public or easily available otherwise, a view behind the scenes, an actual opportunity to make impact / affect things or talk to certain people... A job can help you with all of that. Perhaps you don't see yourself caring about much of that now, but I can see it being true even for you.

And I know that only few people can do what I do. I know that not everyone can get any job and that there isn't a perfect career out there for everyone. Of course that's bullshit. I'm just saying that you shouldn't sell yourself sort. You're clearly not an idiot and seem to have more potential than what you're making things out to be.

Anyways, I'm not here to try and convince you that jobs are cool and fun and that you should get one or strive for more. What you do for a living doesn't affect me much. I doubt I'm the first to tell you this stuff and I have no illusions about how much you care about what I'm saying. Like I said, I just don't want you to wake up one day with most of your life already behind you and suddenly realize how much you've missed out on and how many opportunities you threw away because of your militant state of mind and currently very negative thoughts on all this stuff. You do you, but I just didn't want to stand by without at least once giving you some advice or providing a more positive pov.
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And I know that only few people can do what I do. I know that not everyone can get any job and that there isn't a perfect career out there for everyone. Of course that's bullshit. I'm just saying that you shouldn't sell yourself sort. You're clearly not an idiot and seem to have more potential than what you're making things out to be.
i appreciate the optimism, and i respect that you're just trying to help

the reason i called you glib is just because i get kinda tired of people who refuse to see how shitty life really is

i just want someone to admit to me that life really does fucking suck for a lot of people, even for cozy privileged sheltered internet-having white people like me, and that your optimism is about as effective as prayer when it comes to these things

furthermore, i'm just not convinced that you have a good enough picture of my situation to be able to give me any real advice—i've tried to illustrate bits and pieces of it to give you a taste of what being me is like, because i don't want to bore you to death the full picture, but if i were to give you the full picture, you would be singing a different tune

you say the "bad things i fear about work" aren't inherent to every job in the market—but by saying that, you're saying that there's a job out there that doesn't involve doing any work, doesn't involve any time investment, and doesn't involve any other people (customers, bosses, coworkers, or anybody)

these are things that i hate intensely, and they are indeed inherent to all jobs, otherwise they wouldn't be jobs

basically, 1.) how am i supposed to enjoy work when i don't even want to enjoy work, and 2.) how do i deal with people in the workplace without wanting to suplex them off a cliff

these aren't questions anyone can answer, they're things i have to figure out myself

and i'm struggling really hard

i am utterly insatiable—i feel like all i can do is just grin and bear it, while dying inside
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Like I said, I just don't want you to wake up one day with most of your life already behind you and suddenly realize how much you've missed out on and how many opportunities you threw away because of your militant state of mind and currently very negative thoughts on all this stuff.
i don't want that either, but i don't want a lot of things

i find bitching about my life on the internet to be extremely cathartic, at least, so as long as i have that, i think i can endure just about anything—i just won't enjoy it, and other people won't enjoy it either

numbing myself like carson has to his job is not an option either—that'll lead to alzheimer's at 40


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I had an interview in one company, they had a cool office with a kitchen in entrance and room with computers with comfy leather chairs. Place was really colorful, it`s was actually pretty cool designed. There were a lot of people of my age working, chatting, drinking coffee, tea. I heard one guy talking about how he wants to buy second monitor to play videogames on them. There were a few posters with motivating stuff. Recruiter proposed me a coffee or tea. I would really like to work there, even if I wouldn`t like job itself. It was really close to my place, and I could pick my working time, I would receive 1.5x salary if I would work at night shift, and I would be picked by taxi, paid by company, if my working time start/end at 24:00.

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Excuse me, I'm full of dog poison
Like nigga, just try it. Work is fun.

Seriously though verb, life ain't a picnic. I don't enjoy being forced to work for a living, I'm not sure anyone does. America also has a pretty serious boner for work and it's disgusting how we behave when others choose not to work 40 hours a week to barely scrape by.

I think a lot of that stems from jealousy or thinking that "if I have to work why shouldn't they have to?" It won't get better either. Until something changes, this is the situation we find ourselves in though. Unless you move out of country or hit the lotto there's not much choice in the matter.

It doesn't have to be all bad though, there's a silver lining and all that. Work is a good way to socialize, my current job involves a lot of physicality so I'm getting in better shape, I'm learning a lot about hands on stuff and how to build things.

Hopefully one day you find something you enjoy but even then it's not guaranteed. Shit sucks, but what can you do?


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1.) how am i supposed to enjoy work when i don't even want to enjoy work, and 2.) how do i deal with people in the workplace without wanting to suplex them off a cliff

these aren't questions anyone can answer, they're things i have to figure out myself

and i'm struggling really hard

i am utterly insatiable—i feel like all i can do is just grin and bear it, while dying inside

Welcome to the fucking party sugar Ive been dying inside for years, its called work for a reason and if you actually find a job you can completely enjoy then thank fuck someone finally found it.

No one wants to work, the world fucking sucks because it revolves around money but you just need to accept that.

And honestly dealing with work colleagues, grin and fucking bear dude, you got worklife and you have your actual life. Ive always kept conversation with colleagues to a basic level, you be friendly and leave your opinions to the side. If they spout theirs, keep it quiet and eventually theyll get whats coming. If you get to a higher level you can tell them to keep their banter to a minimum  (thats what Ive done), but you gotta remember you have to work with these people. Find something that pays well and enjoy your life after working hours.


Also maybe try and find some competition in your work, a drive perhaps? I just keep climbing the ladder  because my job would get boring otherwise, its fucking stressful but it isnt boring.


 
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