People Who Feel Bad

Sandtrap · October 19, 2015, 12:37:07 AM

I'm stuck in a rut that I can't change. I'm taking the only road that's open to me, and making due with what I can, but at the same time, I'm not satisfied with it. And everywhere I look, I don't have a way out.

Casper · October 19, 2015, 12:38:16 AM

I suck at everything. Especially painting.

R o c k e t · October 19, 2015, 12:40:18 AM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 18, 2015, 09:26:01 PM

Quote from: BottleRocket on October 18, 2015, 06:59:39 PM
The weirdest thing ever, is to want some negativity in your life because you think it's going too good. And now, it won't stop.

Oh
Never had this problem

What do you mean too well?

Well, just that life has been going good for quite a while, no issues. You almost forget what suffering feels like, and when it finally comes it overstays its welcome.

Welcome to my life.

LilypadGG · October 19, 2015, 12:44:27 AM

Depression is fucking awful.

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 05:51:06 PM

Quote from: Bonewheel Barry on October 19, 2015, 12:08:01 AM

I love a woman, but she doesn't love me back the same way. I'll be honest, frontal lobotomy never sounded more tempting.

On the bright side, now that I don't have any obligation to be a respectable human being anymore, I can go back to being a fatass lazy nerd.

Oh
Have you told her your feelings?

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 05:51:57 PM

Quote from: Prime Megaten on October 19, 2015, 12:26:15 AM

I just want to lay in bed all day and slowly die, but I have to do stupid shit like work, go to school, and breathe.

I completely feel you bro

Life seems like a real chore right now

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 05:53:21 PM

Quote from: Deadtrap on October 19, 2015, 12:37:07 AM

I'm stuck in a rut that I can't change. I'm taking the only road that's open to me, and making due with what I can, but at the same time, I'm not satisfied with it. And everywhere I look, I don't have a way out.

Well at least you're trying bro
I know you've been depressed for a while so mad respect for pushing through it

Well
Life is life
We just gotta keep going right

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 05:53:45 PM

Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 12:38:16 AM

I suck at everything. Especially painting.

Do you want to be a painter?

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 05:54:51 PM

Quote from: BottleRocket on October 19, 2015, 12:40:18 AM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 18, 2015, 09:26:01 PM
Quote from: BottleRocket on October 18, 2015, 06:59:39 PM
The weirdest thing ever, is to want some negativity in your life because you think it's going too good. And now, it won't stop.

Oh
Never had this problem

What do you mean too well?

Well, just that life has been going good for quite a while, no issues. You almost forget what suffering feels like, and when it finally comes it overstays its welcome.

Welcome to my life.

Well hardship builds character

But I'm glad your life is chill
take advantage of it

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 05:59:03 PM

Quote from: GlitterFairyLilo on October 19, 2015, 12:44:27 AM

Depression is fucking awful.

Amen to that

How're you hanging in there?

Casper · October 19, 2015, 06:13:07 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:53:45 PM

Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 12:38:16 AM
I suck at everything. Especially painting.

Do you want to be a painter?

No, but I have to know how to paint things properly when I make them. The problem is that whatever I make always gets messed up in the painting process.

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 06:14:01 PM

Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:13:07 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:53:45 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 12:38:16 AM
I suck at everything. Especially painting.

Do you want to be a painter?
No, but I have to know how to paint things properly when I make them. The problem is that whatever I make always gets messed up in the painting process.

Are you taking classes?

Casper · October 19, 2015, 06:15:39 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 06:14:01 PM

Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:13:07 PM
Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:53:45 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 12:38:16 AM
I suck at everything. Especially painting.

Do you want to be a painter?
No, but I have to know how to paint things properly when I make them. The problem is that whatever I make always gets messed up in the painting process.

Are you taking classes?

Yeah, but it's not teaching me what I thought.

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 06:17:25 PM

Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:15:39 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 06:14:01 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:13:07 PM
Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:53:45 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 12:38:16 AM
I suck at everything. Especially painting.

Do you want to be a painter?
No, but I have to know how to paint things properly when I make them. The problem is that whatever I make always gets messed up in the painting process.

Are you taking classes?
Yeah, but it's not teaching me what I thought.

What do you mean

Casper · October 19, 2015, 06:18:45 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 06:17:25 PM

Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:15:39 PM
Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 06:14:01 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:13:07 PM
Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:53:45 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 12:38:16 AM
I suck at everything. Especially painting.

Do you want to be a painter?
No, but I have to know how to paint things properly when I make them. The problem is that whatever I make always gets messed up in the painting process.

Are you taking classes?
Yeah, but it's not teaching me what I thought.

What do you mean

Its more arty and about the composition rather than the process

Ingy · October 19, 2015, 06:24:30 PM

Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:18:45 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 06:17:25 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:15:39 PM
Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 06:14:01 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 06:13:07 PM
Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:53:45 PM
Quote from: Casper on October 19, 2015, 12:38:16 AM
I suck at everything. Especially painting.

Do you want to be a painter?
No, but I have to know how to paint things properly when I make them. The problem is that whatever I make always gets messed up in the painting process.

Are you taking classes?
Yeah, but it's not teaching me what I thought.

What do you mean
Its more arty and about the composition rather than the process

Ahh I see
You should try asking someone about the process then
Or ask for one on one time with your teacher

R o c k e t · October 19, 2015, 06:35:20 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:54:51 PM

Quote from: BottleRocket on October 19, 2015, 12:40:18 AM
Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 18, 2015, 09:26:01 PM
Quote from: BottleRocket on October 18, 2015, 06:59:39 PM
The weirdest thing ever, is to want some negativity in your life because you think it's going too good. And now, it won't stop.

Oh
Never had this problem

What do you mean too well?

Well, just that life has been going good for quite a while, no issues. You almost forget what suffering feels like, and when it finally comes it overstays its welcome.

Welcome to my life.

Well hardship builds character

But I'm glad your life is chill
take advantage of it

Oh, my point was it's not chill, it used to be.

LilypadGG · October 19, 2015, 09:31:25 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:59:03 PM

Quote from: GlitterFairyLilo on October 19, 2015, 12:44:27 AM
Depression is fucking awful.

Amen to that

How're you hanging in there?

My depression tends to come in waves, and those waves have passed. I'm good for now c;

Elai · October 19, 2015, 11:43:08 PM

Quote from: TBlocks on October 18, 2015, 06:52:33 PM

Quote from: Ra on October 15, 2015, 09:59:49 PM
Just told a beautiful, interested woman that she's wasting her time with me.
Spoiler
Kierra?
Or someone else?

Yeah, her.

Winy · October 19, 2015, 11:45:28 PM

My girlfriend's parents are getting divorced, and this is going to be a horrendous, miserable year for her because of it. I want to do everything I can to comfort her, and make her happy, because I love her. But in this situation, that's something that'll be very difficult to do.

ExodusMae · October 20, 2015, 05:12:06 AM

Can I take a seat?

My depression is creeping back and I feel especially crappy today to the point where I just want to run and not stop. (I live in the middle of nowhere).
I tried to reach out but my support is busy and I feel useless and alone.

BaconShelf · October 20, 2015, 05:24:40 AM

I don't feel bad.

Bonewheel Barry · October 20, 2015, 11:50:44 AM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:51:06 PM

Quote from: Bonewheel Barry on October 19, 2015, 12:08:01 AM
I love a woman, but she doesn't love me back the same way. I'll be honest, frontal lobotomy never sounded more tempting.

On the bright side, now that I don't have any obligation to be a respectable human being anymore, I can go back to being a fatass lazy nerd.

Oh
Have you told her your feelings?

Yep.

Ingy · October 20, 2015, 08:11:43 PM

Quote from: RocketChan on October 19, 2015, 06:35:20 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:54:51 PM
Quote from: BottleRocket on October 19, 2015, 12:40:18 AM
Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 18, 2015, 09:26:01 PM
Quote from: BottleRocket on October 18, 2015, 06:59:39 PM
The weirdest thing ever, is to want some negativity in your life because you think it's going too good. And now, it won't stop.

Oh
Never had this problem

What do you mean too well?

Well, just that life has been going good for quite a while, no issues. You almost forget what suffering feels like, and when it finally comes it overstays its welcome.

Welcome to my life.

Well hardship builds character

But I'm glad your life is chill
take advantage of it

Oh, my point was it's not chill, it used to be.

Oh

But you're not feeling like it's too bad right?

Ingy · October 20, 2015, 08:12:32 PM

Quote from: GlitterFairyLilo on October 19, 2015, 09:31:25 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 19, 2015, 05:59:03 PM
Quote from: GlitterFairyLilo on October 19, 2015, 12:44:27 AM
Depression is fucking awful.

Amen to that

How're you hanging in there?

My depression tends to come in waves, and those waves have passed. I'm good for now c;

Good to hear
Hope you stay that way

Ingy · October 20, 2015, 08:13:51 PM

Quote from: Winy on October 19, 2015, 11:45:28 PM

My girlfriend's parents are getting divorced, and this is going to be a horrendous, miserable year for her because of it. I want to do everything I can to comfort her, and make her happy, because I love her. But in this situation, that's something that'll be very difficult to do.

Wow
that's rough

My parents also had a rough divorce
It's not something that goes away easily

Best you can do is just to be there for her
It helps to have someone

Ingy · October 20, 2015, 08:14:50 PM

Quote from: ExodusMae on October 20, 2015, 05:12:06 AM

Can I take a seat?

My depression is creeping back and I feel especially crappy today to the point where I just want to run and not stop. (I live in the middle of nowhere).
I tried to reach out but my support is busy and I feel useless and alone.

I'm sorry
What kind of thoughts do you have?

Ingy · October 20, 2015, 08:15:40 PM

Quote from: baecunself on October 20, 2015, 05:24:40 AM

I don't feel bad.

thumbs up bro

Stay that way

ExodusMae · October 20, 2015, 08:27:46 PM

Quote from: Ingloriouswho98 on October 20, 2015, 08:14:50 PM

Quote from: ExodusMae on October 20, 2015, 05:12:06 AM
Can I take a seat?

My depression is creeping back and I feel especially crappy today to the point where I just want to run and not stop. (I live in the middle of nowhere).
I tried to reach out but my support is busy and I feel useless and alone.

I'm sorry
What kind of thoughts do you have?

I tried very hard (and succeeded) in not killing myself last night. I had asked my closest friends and family for help and was refused, turned down and ignored. I spent hours crying and thinking of all the ways to end it. I think I need some serious help, antidepressants aren't helping and I'm scared I'll lose control again like I have in the past and actually attempt it.
It's so stupid thinking back on it now the next morning, I feel like such an idiot. But it hasn't completely gone away like it usually does the next day.

Busta Nut · October 20, 2015, 08:35:54 PM

I'm stuck in that perpetual cycle of depair that keeps me from trying to change anything because it all seems pointless. Quit my job like a year ago due to depression and dissatisfaction, and despite urgings to get another, I've never tried. Ever since my dad died (a fairly complex relationship in itself) I've been sort of lost and falling deeper into that abyss of self-loathing that I kept out of mind for years.

I'm the kind of person who brushes off personal issues behind good/dark humor and apathy, which unfortunately only pushes people away. My last girlfriend dumped me because I never took our problems and my own issues seriously, but I'm not sure what I could have done; I've got so many issues that it's best to just keep sweeping it all under the rug and pretending said issues don't exist.

A few months ago I started cutting, just to remind myself that I'm still alive and that the blood is proof of that. Always thought it was stupid, things for moronic kids to do to grab someone's attention, but it did help until I realized how fucked up it was. I've since stopped, but I can't escape those feelings that I'm not living for anything. All those times in my childhood and adolescent years where I tried killing myself aren't just things that didn't happen. Medication and hospitals don't work. I don't have any friends. I don't feel as if I have purpose.

To sum it all up, aside from a handful of internet buddies I hope to meet one day, I'm pretty much alone.

I always regret sharing this stuff. It feels whiny, goes against the light hearted person I present myself as, but I'm just looking for people who care or some measure of reassurance that I'm not alone.