That I couldn't get a decent job after graduating college. There were some I really wanted and absolutely tried my best: technical writer for an aerospace company, would have loved that. Wrote my piece and hoped for the best, but someone else got it. So now I've been working in a department store for eight months. I'm on the substitute teaching list, but have only gotten one call so far. Now I want to be a history teacher, I feel like it's what I should have known from the beginning of college. Now I'm hoping I get into this masters program because if I don't, well I don't want to think about not getting into it... I have a test tomorrow which basically determines whether I get into grad school or not.

Other than that, the last time I met a group of friends was last December. I miss friends that I've had from childhood, but they've moved on with their lives. They'll only play Xbox with me online. Also never been in love or formed a connection with a woman. Is it bad that the only things that I think will make me happy are Halo 5 and The Force Awakens?

Quote from: RomanGladiator on October 13, 2015, 07:51:46 PM

technical writer for an aerospace company, would have loved that. Wrote my piece and hoped for the best, but someone else got it.

Well to be fair, you did study liberal arts. You obviously weren't what they were after.

It was more writing about the news in the industry...a small part was how they worked. And even then, it's not like I'd be doing an engineer's job. It was more like knowing the difference between a Blackhawk and Apache helicopter. It was more of a research assistant.

I could easily have not existed at all and just been a ghost

But yeah, being dead in all but a name for two years is perhaps a little depressing.

Oddly enough, this is precisely how I want to operate at my institution. I don't want anyone to remember me.

Quote from: Epsira on October 13, 2015, 08:08:05 PM

Quote from: Mr Psychologist on October 13, 2015, 07:46:48 PM

I could easily have not existed at all and just been a ghost

But yeah, being dead in all but a name for two years is perhaps a little depressing.

Oddly enough, this is precisely how I want to operate at my institution. I don't want anyone to remember me.

Indeed, I mean preferably I'd spend the next two years as a ghost as well but unfortunately I think I'm going to be obliged to prove my existence at some point which is uh... fun.

Equally though, I'm not half as depressed/anxious as I was a year ago so eh. It's more of a 'alright fine, let's get this over with' at the thought of speaking to the tutor/class rather than 'just kill me now'

I'll be in a similar boat soon enough (if I get my shit together). First though, I'd like to straighten my priorities. Considering I know what I want to do I just have to plan a track to researching.
The amount of field experience (and social connections) I have to endure is dependent upon which company I join or make. First I want to know exactly where I'm going, then plan around that.
I'll likely make a decision to switch institutions to better fit my curricular interests, so I have to jump through more hoops, but it's also part of the reason I'm not making any social ties. I probably don't have to at this stage.

And same, I'm nowhere near as miserable as last year and hopefully I can avoid that altogether from this point onwards.

Inbound self pity

I'm 5'4". I would add an extra 7"

Most of it, lads

That i'm not a chad slayer low inhibition robust blonde boy

Such is life

From an objective standpoint, the fact that I don't get out much is probably the worst aspect of it.

From my point of view, the occasional unwarranted panic attack at night that affects my mood for at least a week can get pre depressing tbh.

:^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^(

it is k bbe

we play smash togedah, tings get bettah

I'm taking a break from Gaming since my last panic attack seems to have been brought on by raging at Mario Kart earlier that day.

It's hard to say at the moment, because I'm not really in a rut right now. Uh, probably the fact that my current satisfactions will put me in financial burden later in life.

i'm stuck on a planet of complete and utter fuckwads

>tfw you wanna drink but your on meds so you can't drink

Weigh the pros and cons Cinderp

You know what you want more than drinking

Quote from: Cindo on October 13, 2015, 11:54:16 PM

>tfw you wanna drink but your on meds so you can't drink

Weigh the pros and cons Cinderp

You know what you want more

the last time i advocated someone's death, i got a lecture

Quote from: Prime Megaten on October 13, 2015, 11:57:35 PM

Quote from: Cindo on October 13, 2015, 11:54:16 PM

>tfw you wanna drink but your on meds so you can't drink

Weigh the pros and cons Cinderp

You know what you want more

the last time i advocated someone's death, i got a lecture

What? I'm going to assume that's a joke lol