Quote from: i cum in peace on April 05, 2017, 04:31:57 PMSandtrap messaged me some long-ass message when I was depressed. Telling me to keep my chin up and sort my life out. I didn't reply.Idk if he saw my thread about kicking drugs and getting on medication, but I hope he did. And I wish I had replied to him, to let him know his efforts weren't in vain. But now he's gone and isn't coming back. And it sucks. Don't let what you didn't say become a regret. Just say it. I cried when I read Psy's post, and Challenger made a point about how we were often too lazy or dismissive to consider him. And many of us have been. Yeah, I don't know where the fuck I was going with this post. But. . . Yeah. I'll fucking miss him.How is being clear working out for you?
Sandtrap messaged me some long-ass message when I was depressed. Telling me to keep my chin up and sort my life out. I didn't reply.Idk if he saw my thread about kicking drugs and getting on medication, but I hope he did. And I wish I had replied to him, to let him know his efforts weren't in vain. But now he's gone and isn't coming back. And it sucks. Don't let what you didn't say become a regret. Just say it. I cried when I read Psy's post, and Challenger made a point about how we were often too lazy or dismissive to consider him. And many of us have been. Yeah, I don't know where the fuck I was going with this post. But. . . Yeah. I'll fucking miss him.
I know it's your own to choose but the fact that you show any kind of regret shows that you know you're going down the wrong road with drugs. I won't try to guilt trip you on this but I'll speak plainly because you're already doing it to yourself. You're wallowing in it. You can give me any excuse about your drugs and I'll tell you why it's bullshit. I've seen and heard every last argument from people trying to come up with a reason to support their usage. The worst ones are those kids who say "Oh don't worry, I don't do heavy stuff." It catches up with them. Every time. Their tame shit fizzles out and then they're ready to try something new and then they're fucked.You're headed there. Within 6 years if you keep going where you are now, you'll be trapped. This comes back to what I said. It's your call. You've got other stuff in your life weighing you down. I get that. Doesn't mean you can't man up to things and start taking control over your life before you don't have a choice anymore. This isn't a guilt trip. But I want you to think about it.Rob, Melissa, Dylan, David, Reg, Caitlyn.You don't know those people and you never will since they all died from their cancers. They didn't have a choice. If any of them could be alive, I'd bet my life that they wouldn't waste theirs.I understand you. I get the self pity and the wallowing. You're smart enough to know that it's closing in around you and you feel like you don't have what's needed to escape it. You lack the will and the drive to pull yourself out of it on your own.Get help. Try anything you can to pull yourself out of your hole. Don't sit around and watch yourself circle around that drain until you've gone too far. I'm telling you. It'll catch up to you. Maybe you want it to. I say that's a load of shit. You don't have any valid reason to want that kind of fate.
Quote from: Fishcakes on April 05, 2017, 04:45:27 PMFor what it's worth, we've had our difference but you're a pretty solid guy. I hope college works out for you and that you can leave all the miserable crap behind.
He really wanted to see Verbatim finish Dark Souls. This is so fucked up.
Quote from: Fishcakes on April 05, 2017, 06:14:13 PMYou seem to have dealt with a great deal of stress and challenges in your life, and I hope that things go well for you from this point on. I've greatly enjoyed talking with you on Discord.
Quote from: Mmmmm Napalm on April 05, 2017, 06:25:59 PMQuote from: Fishcakes on April 05, 2017, 06:14:13 PMYou seem to have dealt with a great deal of stress and challenges in your life, and I hope that things go well for you from this point on. I've greatly enjoyed talking with you on Discord.I feel like my adversities have been a drop in the bucket compared to what is coming in the future, and it seems unfair to gripe about them when other people, people I know, have been through so much more.I hope you get what you want out of life.Your talent is growing everyday, I see that. And I can only assume all things you do grow with such intricate bliss. But what already have, whether you know it or not, is vision. The most important thing anybody can have is a vision.But my vision is shifting, and I play it off like it was absolute. A beautiful lie, to make things seem like I never made compromise, and to make it seem like everything was just, well...Part of some smooth plan.
Sandtrap did more for me than I ever deserved.
Quote from: Nuka on April 05, 2017, 08:18:22 PMSandtrap did more for me than I ever deserved.That seems to be a running theme in his relationships with people. It's a shame that light has gone out.
A bad person would be the man who stepped into a car intoxicated when they knew damn well what can and will happen when you drive drunk.Your absence of words doesn't make you a bad person. No words, however thoughtful or well meaning, can ever fix the hole of the absence of the person I knew. But I can appreciate both. The well meant words of somebody trying to help, and the silence of somebody who doesn't know what to say, and chooses not to speak in hollow words.
Quote from: Mmmmm Napalm on April 05, 2017, 06:25:59 PMFlee, you help keep this site going, and I have always been struck by your intelligence and reasoned approach to issues. You have emy respect and thanks for being a mod here.Thanks man, I appreciate it. You too help this site going, just like any of the other regulars on here. You contribute a lot of good threads and your art, both drawings and figurines, is nice to look at.
Flee, you help keep this site going, and I have always been struck by your intelligence and reasoned approach to issues. You have emy respect and thanks for being a mod here.
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