This is pretty much my life story:
Oldest of 3. From Kindergarten to 8th grade I went to a VERY small private school. Our graduating class had 8 kids including me. I was pretty talkative, sort of a class clown I guess. Never played sports or anything, was always very skinny fat and unathletic. Loved video games ya know? I went into highschool 5'6" and 115lbs, with the face of a baby and a bad case of social anxiety. I knew maybe 3 people going into highschool, going from a class of eight people in my age group to about 2000. I hungout with the group of people I knew, who made friends with some drama students so that's who I hungout with my freshman year. I would sit there and think of how much cooler I was than them, and how I should be with the popular kids and pretty girls, what a huge faggot i was now that i look back.
Then sophomore year I joined cross country and made friends with a few mexican dudes, very fast runners, who quickly became my best friends. Cross country was a blast, I made lots of runner friends, and started talking to more girls ect. That's where my life changed, because there were two wrestlers in xc who were super buff. They would walk around school confidently, people respected them, girls loved them, guys wanted to be them, I knew I had to be like that. I joined a gym, started lifting weights and fell in love.
Jr year was uneventful in terms of me changing really, still lifted, talked to pretty girls, felt a false sense of confidence, also got semi chubby from bulking so hard.
Senior year was the best year by far. By now I was one of the biggest/most aesthetic kids in school, I was like the wrestlers from all those years back. I hungout with the hottest group of girls in my school, messed around with the heavenly blessed beauty cheerleaders, friends with all the sports players, invited to the parties, and I was friendly with everyone, especially the group I used to hangout with freshman year because I was more comfortable with myself, so I wouldn't feel the need to be cooler. Confidence here was at all all time high(still is really).
Then I started looking into a lot of books involving ego death, mindfulness, the power of the subconscious mind, philosophy, and helping others. I love to meditate and am a very calm person now. I'm nice to everyone I meet, hate when people bully and will stand up to anyone to defend that, and I have the mindset that I can literally be whatever I want to be, the universe will bend to my desires.
Let's get personal!