What's been the biggest struggle of your life?

Death · February 08, 2016, 01:00:44 PM

Being blind in one eye for 14 years was a little hard on me. The divorce was a challenge for the family.
But I can say I've overcame them all.
What do you struggle with? Have you let it define you?

Naru · February 08, 2016, 01:05:37 PM

staying alive

Sandtrap · February 08, 2016, 01:08:01 PM

Basically what Gasai said.

Except it's wanting to continue that defines it.

Jocephalopod · February 08, 2016, 01:08:23 PM

Those lobsters really gave me a hard time at H-Mart.

gats · February 08, 2016, 01:25:47 PM

living on my own sucked especially since i was 16

Sandtrap · February 08, 2016, 01:32:09 PM

I could list what I think would be large struggles. No doubt, they were. Miscellaneous diseases and bodily issues. Even what I'm dealing with right now is starting to get to me. Less oxygen in my blood means everything takes a little bit more effort. Blood cells not reproducing properly means I'm brusing and bleeding easily and it's not healing. It's taxing.

But it's just physical. I'm used to bumps and scrapes when it comes to physical. I've got a body that's A okay with working. Once I get moving, I don't feel it anymore. No aches, no pains, no bothers.

But the biggest one, and always has been, what's in my head. The point of bothering to try and continue on when I have almost, almost nothing to go on for, really. It's been there so long, I've been coasting so long in this state that it's worked itself so deep.

No matter how much effort I put in to trying, I don't see it. It never seems to click. I can't seem to find that light at the end of the tunnel. And it's been so long without it that I don't really see the point of looking for it. I try anyway. Maybe I'll stumble on it through being stubborn about it.

The worst about it though, is that it's not an outside influence. It's not some force or random act. It's just little old me, plain and simple.

Ender · February 08, 2016, 01:32:18 PM

We were bankrupt for a while, still sort of, but not much.

Ghost Guy · February 08, 2016, 01:34:24 PM

Suffering through six minutes of boku no pico.

🂿 · February 08, 2016, 01:35:07 PM

I struggle to exist each day. I feel like I can just vanish into thin air at any moment now.

Had a terrible migraine last night.

nͫiͤcͫeͤ · February 08, 2016, 01:37:09 PM

not blowing all my money on my hobbies

Jester · February 08, 2016, 01:51:40 PM

I'll have to think on that

Elegiac · February 08, 2016, 02:05:49 PM

Probably the move here from b.net, it exposed me to a hitherto-unknown cyst of jealousy and venom that had been built up without my notice. While their group is still a vocal minority, we still don't have enough posters or elements of the original flood from which we all migrated for there to be any serious opposition to them. My friends here keep quiet because they don't want to fuck with the most vocal and aggressive group here, and I hope and wait for the day when the tables can be turned and equilibrium restored.

True Turquoise · February 08, 2016, 02:20:22 PM

Quote from: Elegiac on February 08, 2016, 02:05:49 PM

Probably the move here from b.net, it exposed me to a hitherto-unknown cyst of jealousy and venom that had been built up without my notice. While their group is still a vocal minority, we still don't have enough posters or elements of the original flood from which we all migrated for there to be any serious opposition to them. My friends here keep quiet because they don't want to fuck with the most vocal and aggressive group here, and I hope and wait for the day when the tables can be turned and equilibrium restored.

This is a big struggle in your life?

do you go out?

True Turquoise · February 08, 2016, 02:22:14 PM

Probably keeping a consistent amount of motivation.

When I was younger, dealing with being very small. Thats pretty much out of the way now, though.

Death of my brother, friend and pets

Moving to college

SecondClass · February 08, 2016, 02:25:42 PM

Dealing with the death of my best friend when I was younger or these gender issues I have now.

Elegiac · February 08, 2016, 02:30:17 PM

Quote from: True Turquoise on February 08, 2016, 02:20:22 PM

Quote from: Elegiac on February 08, 2016, 02:05:49 PM
Probably the move here from b.net, it exposed me to a hitherto-unknown cyst of jealousy and venom that had been built up without my notice. While their group is still a vocal minority, we still don't have enough posters or elements of the original flood from which we all migrated for there to be any serious opposition to them. My friends here keep quiet because they don't want to fuck with the most vocal and aggressive group here, and I hope and wait for the day when the tables can be turned and equilibrium restored.
This is a big struggle in your life?

do you go out?

It seemed such an open question so I wrote the first thing that popped into my head. Remembering Pandajerk.. remembering the old b.net scene always causes me to review what I'm doing here. I realised what kind of replies and from whom they would be drawn shortly after I posted it

(even you know I'm among the most social here, great question lol) so I'll probably just scoot away from this thread now

True Turquoise · February 08, 2016, 02:32:01 PM

Quote from: Elegiac on February 08, 2016, 02:30:17 PM

Quote from: True Turquoise on February 08, 2016, 02:20:22 PM
Quote from: Elegiac on February 08, 2016, 02:05:49 PM
Probably the move here from b.net, it exposed me to a hitherto-unknown cyst of jealousy and venom that had been built up without my notice. While their group is still a vocal minority, we still don't have enough posters or elements of the original flood from which we all migrated for there to be any serious opposition to them. My friends here keep quiet because they don't want to fuck with the most vocal and aggressive group here, and I hope and wait for the day when the tables can be turned and equilibrium restored.
This is a big struggle in your life?

do you go out?
It seemed such an open question so I wrote the first thing that popped into my head. Remembering Pandajerk.. remembering the old b.net scene always causes me to review what I'm doing here. I realised what kind of replies and from whom they would be drawn shortly after I posted it (even you know I'm among the most social here, great question lol) so I'll probably just scoot away from this thread now

Just asking, seems to be something very pointless to have a struggle over, especially on such a forum as this.

And I somehow doubt you're up there on the most social. But, we all have our thoughts.

Ian · February 08, 2016, 02:47:24 PM

Forming real connections with people. All my friends at work are just that, work buddies. I haven't had friends that come over and hang out or do things with for long period of time for years now.

🂿 · February 08, 2016, 02:51:02 PM

Quote from: Gaara444 on February 08, 2016, 02:47:24 PM

Forming real connections with people. All my friends at work are just that, work buddies. I haven't had friends that come over and hang out or do things with for long period of time for years now.

I can easily relate to this too actually.

RomanGladiator · February 08, 2016, 02:54:13 PM

It's not that bad, but having ulcerative colitis since I was 15. Other people have worse things. Probably additionally trying to be successful and finding a full time job is taking two years so far.

Super Irish · February 08, 2016, 03:11:07 PM

So far, not much by comparison to many here.

Moving away from my home country, camping in a tent for the 6 weeks of summer and then the subsequent divorce wasn't exactly a great time to have. Neither was trying to make new friends in the final year when everyone already had their established groups and I was just that strange Irish kid who didn't really understand what the fuck everyone was on about (Who knew rural Wales has such a strong take-up of Welsh amongst kids?...who knew they had a language other than English in the first place?!)

But I say my hardest struggle is still ahead of me. After (hopefully) graduating from my course, I've literally no clue what to do next. Should be good, though it has a tremendous likelihood of going bad.

Thun · February 08, 2016, 03:36:16 PM

Quote from: Gaara444 on February 08, 2016, 02:47:24 PM

Forming real connections with people. All my friends at work are just that, work buddies. I haven't had friends that come over and hang out or do things with for long period of time for years now.

If you're willing to split the bill fam, i'll come visit you.

R o c k e t · February 08, 2016, 03:44:47 PM

My entire adult life has been a roller coaster

big dog · February 08, 2016, 03:46:17 PM

Quote from: Jocephalopod on February 08, 2016, 01:08:23 PM

Those lobsters really gave me a hard time at H-Mart.

You too?

Jocephalopod · February 08, 2016, 03:51:21 PM

Quote from: Fedorekd™ on February 08, 2016, 03:46:17 PM

Quote from: Jocephalopod on February 08, 2016, 01:08:23 PM
Those lobsters really gave me a hard time at H-Mart.
You too?

do they have H-marts/Korean black markets in the UK?

Ian · February 08, 2016, 03:55:04 PM

Sure, I welcome such thoughts. But visits like that need to be planned out.

Quote from: Thunder on February 08, 2016, 03:36:16 PM

If you're willing to split the bill fam, i'll come visit you.

big dog · February 08, 2016, 03:56:28 PM

Quote from: Jocephalopod on February 08, 2016, 03:51:21 PM

Quote from: Fedorekd™ on February 08, 2016, 03:46:17 PM
Quote from: Jocephalopod on February 08, 2016, 01:08:23 PM
Those lobsters really gave me a hard time at H-Mart.
You too?

do they have H-marts/Korean black markets in the UK?

We have Tesco which is run by the Uzbeks.

Mr. Psychologist · February 08, 2016, 06:18:24 PM

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What do you struggle with?

hmm probably the worst and most enduring issue is the PeeTeeEssDee
It was fairly bad a few years ago, then it got treated and went quiet but for some reason it's flared up again recently and it's starting to get to me.

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Have you let it define you?

Through and through.

Because it happened when I was young enough to not know what the fuck it was and old enough to be fully aware of it, I figured out my own way to handle it. Which surprise surprise was fucking terrible and instead of getting over it with a little bit of counselling or what have you it's burned it's way through me to the point where I'm pretty sure that it is me.

still

After last week's episode, I'm going to see someone about it soon because I could really do without going all fucking flippy in the middle of the day.

who knows, they might have a clue where to begin fixing me e.e

Elai · February 08, 2016, 06:20:10 PM

Coming to turns with my own mortality.