I went out to a concert last night. It seems like every time I talk to someone, no matter how casual, mundane, ordinary the conversation may have been, I just have the worst sinking feeling in my head that I messed something up. I talked to like 3 people who were at the show, I was really chill and just said hi and asked them about their favorite bands and stuff. I really tried hard to be as normal, as far from weird or fucked up as I could possibly be. Yet this next morning, all I have is this terrible feeling that I should have never talked to them, that I want to go escape to the space station.

Go to the space station Lofe.

lol

It's cuz you're not just a faggot, you're an M&S faggot

Be sonder. That might help the feeling.


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It's cuz you're not just a faggot, you're an M&S faggot

masochism and sadism?

tfw. i'm the same way. even to the point where, during longer conversations, i start not paying attention because i'm worried about something i said earlier, which then leads me to worry about whether or not i looked like i tuned out and if they think i'm a fuck because of that, and on and on in a terrible cycle. i just can't help it. i tell people i'm bad at conversation, but really it's just because i'm too worried that i said something weird or whatever.

that happens to me too.