Yeah, you always feel like you'd be imposing shit on someone even when you're not. I feel ya, son

Councilors are good for that sort of thing. You literally just pay them to listen to you and they offer advice, or not, depends on what you want. They have no other purpose then to listen and maybe provide feedback. Sometimes you don't want or even need communication from a listeners part. A little over a year ago some girl fucked me up bad so I went to a councilor for a few months and just having her listen to my melodrama helped me move on and do better in my life.

...or it's just really hard for me. The type of help I'm talking about is actually going and telling someone that I feel really sad, and... I don't know, just upset all the time. Like someone could offer their ear but I won't take them up on it even if I need it.

Yeah, you always feel like you'd be imposing shit on someone even when you're not. I feel ya, son

Honestly just this. 100% the reason I stopped talking to people about my shit because I just felt like I was imposing or whatever.

Nobody close to me has ever known about my suffering from depression and they're always very surprised when I disappear for a week or more to go to the hospital.

I just let it get so bad I try to kill myself and then take meds to make it go away.

Those around me also don't know I hear voices, (which I have started hearing again in the last few days)

ITT can be hard to ask for help, because it feels like an imposition, but a lot of times people will genuinely care about your issues and identify with them enough to share your problems and shoulder your burdens.

God you guys are fucked up. I thought this was gonna be about asking for directions or something.

You're one of the ones I wish was only a voice in my head.

Even though you're completely right like 90% of the time.

Yea
Choose this life you're on your own

Yea, it was hard for me too do that when I had depression last year. Only reason I talked about it was because I cried in front of my doctor from the question of if I'm depressed because of their usual questions and it somehow made me break down.

Took a whole before anyone knew, but it helped in the long run

you are a lovely human bean

I'm sorry to hear that Ender...
All it takes is saying something, people will want to help and I guarantee you will not be imposing.

It's one of the aspects to being depressed. Or maybe I should say it's something that becomes over-emphasized in a person's head. Your view gets skewed to just you. Even if you have friends or family, you feel on your own. You feel like you'd be a weight if you drop your problem into their hands. Or, maybe you don't even notice it. You don't remember that you're sad and you don't think about it until you stop and look at it.

You need to look at it in a different light. Think back to how often family members or friends may have talked to you about their problems. They trusted you enough to be comfortable in revealing what you might call a weaker side to them. Something that's vulnerable. And you probably listened. Maybe you even tried to help.

Reverse that, and look at yourself like somebody that needs a hand. Look at yourself like you're looking into a mirror. The person you see in the mirror, needs a hand. You wouldn't hesitate to help them, would you?

I've talked to you before, every now and again. You know you can talk to me. In fact I'd go so far as to say that's why I'm still here. There's people here that I stick around for. I know that I can only do so much to help them. But I offer as much as I can. You can drop anything buy me, any time you want. For all the walls I make, I can listen, too.

But you've gotta take the step. And I understand the feeling. It's like being locked up and chained. You'd like very much to say something. It's right there, in your head, but you can't say it. Maybe you don't want to. Or you're afraid of what you know is coming. You don't want to expose yourself so openly.

Well, the good news is, for now, you don't have to say anything by mouth. Just type. You have people here who will listen quite willingly. Don't see it as dropping your crap on somebody else. See it as somebody holding out a hand to pick you back up off the ground. Just get out there and say it. Don't be afraid of it.