I need your folk's help

Sandtrap · January 17, 2015, 09:36:02 PM

And I'll keep it simple. All I ask is that if you see me walking into a drama/slappy fight on here, or it looks like I'm getting dragged up in shit. Notify me. Right there in the open. Slap me upside the head and turn me around the other way.

You folks can say or believe what you want about my treatments. But one thing is clear and if it wasn't obvious by now it's that I'm depressed. And this, right now, is the real danger. It's the real threat to me and I'm trying really hard to curb it.

My emotions are sitting on a tripwire right now and it doesn't take much to set me off or put me into a downward swing. And you might suggest taking time away from here. Believe me. I've tried that. I just fall downwards faster.

I'm fighting this as much as I can and I know I can turn all of this around. But I can't do it alone this time and I need a bit of help to watch out for me when I slip up. So if it looks like I'm walking into a drama fest or getting wound up in a slappy fight, then slap me upside the head and knock some sense back into me.

Because those don't help me. They don't help my mental state which is fragile right now. I'm trying to help myself here and so far I've been holding up. But I need a bit of help here to cover my blind spot when I slip into a shitty mood and I do shit which'll make things worse for me.

I'd bet 10 bucks this'll only cause more trouble. But I know there are some folks here who will keep an eye out on me and I appreciate it if you do because I don't have any other options here.

January 17, 2015, 09:36:43 PM

Nexus · January 17, 2015, 09:37:14 PM

This might be your shortest post yet.

TB · January 17, 2015, 09:37:23 PM

Sandtrap do you want a custom nameplate?

Sandtrap · January 17, 2015, 09:38:41 PM

Quote from: TBlocks on January 17, 2015, 09:37:23 PM

Sandtrap do you want a custom nameplate?

Na.

DAS B00T x2 · January 17, 2015, 09:38:46 PM

RIght, so, iffin I see you shillin around, I'm ta tell ya ta shut yer trap?

TB · January 17, 2015, 09:39:13 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on January 17, 2015, 09:38:41 PM

Quote from: TBlocks on January 17, 2015, 09:37:23 PM
Sandtrap do you want a custom nameplate?

Na.

aww :c

R o c k e t · January 17, 2015, 09:39:36 PM

I'll let you know Sandtrap.

No worries man.

Camnator · January 17, 2015, 09:40:58 PM

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Sandtrap · January 17, 2015, 09:41:06 PM

Quote from: Nuka 'Kal Vargun on January 17, 2015, 09:38:40 PM

So...what, you want us to tell you when to stop if you're going overboard? That's what I'm getting from this, I think.

You know the thread on Kiyo? If you see me walking into shit like that and getting wound up then slap some sense into me. I can't stop myself when I'm in a buggered up state but I can still listen to reason.

Now's the time that I have to get up and fight and start trying to get my life back in order. And the first thing I need to do is curb my depression. I can do this on my own but when I slip up I just need somebody looking out for me.

Sandtrap · January 17, 2015, 09:41:31 PM

Quote from: DAS B00T x2 on January 17, 2015, 09:38:46 PM

RIght, so, iffin I see you shillin around, I'm ta tell ya ta shut yer trap?

That's exactly it.

Sandtrap · January 17, 2015, 09:44:58 PM

Quote from: Nuka 'Kal Vargun on January 17, 2015, 09:42:49 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on January 17, 2015, 09:41:06 PM
Quote from: Nuka 'Kal Vargun on January 17, 2015, 09:38:40 PM
So...what, you want us to tell you when to stop if you're going overboard? That's what I'm getting from this, I think.

You know the thread on Kiyo? If you see me walking into shit like that and getting wound up then slap some sense into me. I can't stop myself when I'm in a buggered up state but I can still listen to reason.

Now's the time that I have to get up and fight and start trying to get my life back in order. And the first thing I need to do is curb my depression. I can do this on my own but when I slip up I just need somebody looking out for me.
So...how would you prefer exactly? With a PM?

No. Those notifications take too long. Just do it right there in the thread. Quote me and tell me to shut my trap.

OysteinAarseth · January 17, 2015, 09:45:32 PM

aaay guis if u c me getting into a slappy fite slap me on teh hed pls thnkx

Sandtrap · January 17, 2015, 09:47:07 PM

Quote from: Camnator on January 17, 2015, 09:40:58 PM

Do you live with any family? I assume this is just a desire for attention, hopefully not because of suffering.

I already know your game so I won't take the bait here. This ain't for attention. This is part of a plan of mine that I'm going to put into play because I'm trying to get back onto my feet. I just need a hand and for folks to watch my back and tell me when I'm being silly so that I can curb my downward mood swings and get things under control.

Epsira · January 17, 2015, 09:47:59 PM

We got your back, b.

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DAS B00T x2 · January 17, 2015, 09:50:17 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on January 17, 2015, 09:41:31 PM

Quote from: DAS B00T x2 on January 17, 2015, 09:38:46 PM
RIght, so, iffin I see you shillin around, I'm ta tell ya ta shut yer trap?

That's exactly it.

Can do, pardner.

Luis · January 17, 2015, 10:59:37 PM

Yu · January 17, 2015, 11:06:16 PM

Oki dooki.

o______________o · January 17, 2015, 11:06:16 PM

I'm sorry for arguing with you earlier bro. I do hope that your condition somehow makes a miraculous turnaround.

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Sandtrap · January 18, 2015, 12:41:35 AM

Quote from: o______________o on January 17, 2015, 11:06:16 PM

I'm sorry for arguing with you earlier bro. I do hope that your condition somehow makes a miraculous turnaround.

You don't have to worry about shit. I got good news from the doc a few days back. No more treatments. I'm done. What my focus is now is the ugly shit in my head. And the doc's going to be watching me. I still have to go in as normal. But they're going to be scanning to make sure nothing is moving around in there or starts up again. But for now, for all intents and purposes, no more treatments.

That's why I'm making a push. Time to get back onto my feet.

o______________o · January 18, 2015, 12:32:14 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on January 18, 2015, 12:41:35 AM

Quote from: o______________o on January 17, 2015, 11:06:16 PM
I'm sorry for arguing with you earlier bro. I do hope that your condition somehow makes a miraculous turnaround.

You don't have to worry about shit. I got good news from the doc a few days back. No more treatments. I'm done. What my focus is now is the ugly shit in my head. And the doc's going to be watching me. I still have to go in as normal. But they're going to be scanning to make sure nothing is moving around in there or starts up again. But for now, for all intents and purposes, no more treatments.

That's why I'm making a push. Time to get back onto my feet.

I'm really glad to hear that

You seem like such a nice guy!

clum clum · January 18, 2015, 12:41:04 PM

Uhm, if you insist. I'd consider leaving for a little while - it probably would be more helpful to get away from the bad vibes. I recommend that you don't take this site so seriously, either.

Sandtrap · January 18, 2015, 01:03:09 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 18, 2015, 12:41:04 PM

Uhm, if you insist. I'd consider leaving for a little while - it probably would be more helpful to get away from the bad vibes. I recommend that you don't take this site so seriously, either.

Like I said. I've tried that whole deal before. I just fall down the hole faster. What this place does is provide my head with a distraction. I can think about stuff. And it keeps me away from the moody shit that pulls me down.

But it's a double edged sword because there's a lot of bullshit that comes with it too. Doing my best not to waltz into any of it but sometimes I slip up. So that's where any of you come in if I do.

月 · January 18, 2015, 05:31:48 PM

I'll just say chill. I get into internet arguments sometimes and just leave because I can't be bothered as it is ALWAYS a waste of both party's time.

InstaCode · January 18, 2015, 05:37:04 PM

Sandtrap · January 18, 2015, 05:37:05 PM

Quote from: Latsu on January 18, 2015, 05:31:48 PM

I'll just say chill. I get into internet arguments sometimes and just leave because I can't be bothered as it is ALWAYS a waste of both party's time.

See. That's what I can do normally. I can piss off and do something else instead. But I'm loopy right now. I'm irritable. I snap real easy. And it's getting harder to hold that back, and easier to fall into. Once I get started I just keep going and going until I burn myself out.

I can't handle that stress right now. And the sensible thing would be to leave. But I have nothing to turn to. This place occupies my head and my time and I need that focus so I'm not focusing on the ugly shit in my head.