I feel agitated, like my head is boiling

Loaf · January 12, 2015, 06:36:43 PM

I'm just pissed because I have been in my bedroom all day. I am feeling devoid of human interaction. I don't have anyone to talk to on skype, and there's nothing interesting to do on websites. I am sick of websites. I snapped when I asked my mom what there is to do besides get a job or go to school. She said I could play music and I said that I tried that. She said "yeah well you gave up and you didn't try very hard". So I chucked a pen across the room and told her fuck you, I did try, asshole. I just feel so irritable. There is nothing in the world that can make me happy. I feel so tired and my mind feels stricken with tons of bad feelings. I don't believe in anything happy.

I don't want to be told by people on the flood that I am an immature autist, or that I am edgy right now. I just feel absolutely miserable. I feel like all of the life has been drained out of me. I have spent about 3 years in and out of colleges. I never get to live on the campuses. I just do the same thing. I go to them, and then I try to do work, then I go home and am too bored to do the homework. So now I've failed college 3 times because each time I was too depressed and miserable to get any work done. So now I am moving to Colorado. They are setting me up with a house that someone will let me use any time I want, and trying to find me an apartment to live in in the town near the college. I will be away from all of my family (not that that matters), and I won't know anyone (just like I don't know anyone right now). I cannot stress enough how fucking miserable I am. Everything I think just hurts.

January 12, 2015, 06:37:36 PM

Man, isn't Chinatown such a good movie?

clum clum · January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM

Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.

R o c k e t · January 12, 2015, 06:39:46 PM

Think of this as a new start. Make friends at your college, and try to find a job you enjoy.

Feel free to add me on skype too: rocketman.287

We've got a group for this forum if you'd like to join. I can add you in.

Loaf · January 12, 2015, 06:40:18 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM

Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.

It's only lame if you choose to look at it that way.

clum clum · January 12, 2015, 06:41:45 PM

Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:40:18 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM
Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.
It's only lame if you choose to look at it that way.

Maybe. But honestly, wouldn't anyone find sitting in their bedroom doing nothing all day lame?

Loaf · January 12, 2015, 06:51:15 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:41:45 PM

Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:40:18 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM
Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.
It's only lame if you choose to look at it that way.

Maybe. But honestly, wouldn't anyone find sitting in their bedroom doing nothing all day lame?

It's not my fucking choice. I can't find anything else to do. You're pissing me off.

clum clum · January 12, 2015, 06:52:14 PM

Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:51:15 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:41:45 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:40:18 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM
Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.
It's only lame if you choose to look at it that way.

Maybe. But honestly, wouldn't anyone find sitting in their bedroom doing nothing all day lame?
It's not my fucking choice. I can't find anything else to do. You're pissing me off.

It's not my fucking problem if I'm pissing you off or not, mate.

Loaf · January 12, 2015, 06:54:06 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:52:14 PM

Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:51:15 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:41:45 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:40:18 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM
Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.
It's only lame if you choose to look at it that way.

Maybe. But honestly, wouldn't anyone find sitting in their bedroom doing nothing all day lame?
It's not my fucking choice. I can't find anything else to do. You're pissing me off.

It's not my fucking problem if I'm pissing you off or not, mate.

Relax. I am just mad that you belittled me by calling me lame. I honestly want to stab you in the neck right now. I don't believe verbally attacking you will solve anything though.

clum clum · January 12, 2015, 06:55:23 PM

Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:54:06 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:52:14 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:51:15 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:41:45 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:40:18 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM
Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.
It's only lame if you choose to look at it that way.

Maybe. But honestly, wouldn't anyone find sitting in their bedroom doing nothing all day lame?
It's not my fucking choice. I can't find anything else to do. You're pissing me off.

It's not my fucking problem if I'm pissing you off or not, mate.
Relax. I am just mad that you belittled me by calling me lame. I honestly want to stab you in the neck right now. I don't believe verbally attacking you will solve anything though.

...I never called you lame? I was calling the situation lame. As in, it's not a fun situation to be in.

Grapes · January 12, 2015, 06:55:54 PM

Go get $500, buy a van on craigslist, then use it in demolition derby.

Loaf · January 12, 2015, 06:56:43 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:55:23 PM

Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:54:06 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:52:14 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:51:15 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:41:45 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:40:18 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM
Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.
It's only lame if you choose to look at it that way.

Maybe. But honestly, wouldn't anyone find sitting in their bedroom doing nothing all day lame?
It's not my fucking choice. I can't find anything else to do. You're pissing me off.

It's not my fucking problem if I'm pissing you off or not, mate.
Relax. I am just mad that you belittled me by calling me lame. I honestly want to stab you in the neck right now. I don't believe verbally attacking you will solve anything though.

...I never called you lame? I was calling the situation lame. As in, it's not a fun situation to be in.

My mistake.

clum clum · January 12, 2015, 06:57:42 PM

Quote from: Grapes on January 12, 2015, 06:55:54 PM

Go get $500, buy a van on craigslist, then use it in demolition derby.

Alternatively, go get $500, go to the m4m section on craigslist and have some adventures.

clum clum · January 12, 2015, 06:59:23 PM

Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:56:43 PM

Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:55:23 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:54:06 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:52:14 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:51:15 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:41:45 PM
Quote from: Loaf on January 12, 2015, 06:40:18 PM
Quote from: Numb Digger on January 12, 2015, 06:38:58 PM
Lame. But I know what it's like to be devoid of human interaction for prolonged periods of time. It kills you inside.
It's only lame if you choose to look at it that way.

Maybe. But honestly, wouldn't anyone find sitting in their bedroom doing nothing all day lame?
It's not my fucking choice. I can't find anything else to do. You're pissing me off.

It's not my fucking problem if I'm pissing you off or not, mate.
Relax. I am just mad that you belittled me by calling me lame. I honestly want to stab you in the neck right now. I don't believe verbally attacking you will solve anything though.

...I never called you lame? I was calling the situation lame. As in, it's not a fun situation to be in.
My mistake.

All right. I knew there was a misunderstanding.