Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:49:43 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:45:19 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:43:39 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:41:40 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:33:44 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?Closest friend I have.. Or soon.. "Had"So you said something or did something. Now, personally, I don't know of any friend of mine that would be dissappointed in me if I said something. And, depending on what I did, they wouldn't be dissappointed either. In the personal context.You did something big to upset them then. I can think of three things, maybe four, that would do that.Stealing and using money without permission.Snapping and lashing out at them, physically, or verbally.Fucking around with relationships.If I had to guess, you got upset. Said stuff you didn't mean to.
Quote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:45:19 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:43:39 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:41:40 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:33:44 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?Closest friend I have.. Or soon.. "Had"
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:43:39 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:41:40 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:33:44 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?
Quote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:41:40 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:33:44 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:33:44 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?
Quote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.
Quote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Quote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
Quote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I keep seeing signs from TV, the radio, and videogames reminding me of what happened, how much I lost, and how much I failed. Maybe I'm over thinking it, but I just can't wrap my head around it.
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 08:55:02 PMI keep seeing signs from TV, the radio, and videogames reminding me of what happened, how much I lost, and how much I failed. Maybe I'm over thinking it, but I just can't wrap my head around it. Imagine having that but with paranoid schizophrenia at the same time. I could read the signs in things like... things that didn't even have a symbolic relation... like a two line advertisement for an egg cup or something. You've gotta knuckle down and tune all that shit out.Edit: Oh damn. I just assumed this thread was about your lady friend. Sorry.
Quote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 10:04:51 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:49:43 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:45:19 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:43:39 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:41:40 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:33:44 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?Closest friend I have.. Or soon.. "Had"So you said something or did something. Now, personally, I don't know of any friend of mine that would be dissappointed in me if I said something. And, depending on what I did, they wouldn't be dissappointed either. In the personal context.You did something big to upset them then. I can think of three things, maybe four, that would do that.Stealing and using money without permission.Snapping and lashing out at them, physically, or verbally.Fucking around with relationships.If I had to guess, you got upset. Said stuff you didn't mean to.Things I got annoyed about from the past. Mainly said by jealousy and my idiotic ways.
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 10:10:56 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 10:04:51 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:49:43 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:45:19 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:43:39 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:41:40 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:33:44 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?Closest friend I have.. Or soon.. "Had"So you said something or did something. Now, personally, I don't know of any friend of mine that would be dissappointed in me if I said something. And, depending on what I did, they wouldn't be dissappointed either. In the personal context.You did something big to upset them then. I can think of three things, maybe four, that would do that.Stealing and using money without permission.Snapping and lashing out at them, physically, or verbally.Fucking around with relationships.If I had to guess, you got upset. Said stuff you didn't mean to.Things I got annoyed about from the past. Mainly said by jealousy and my idiotic ways.You try telling them what you're telling me now?
Quote from: Elegiac on December 08, 2014, 10:13:34 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 08:55:02 PMI keep seeing signs from TV, the radio, and videogames reminding me of what happened, how much I lost, and how much I failed. Maybe I'm over thinking it, but I just can't wrap my head around it. Imagine having that but with paranoid schizophrenia at the same time. I could read the signs in things like... things that didn't even have a symbolic relation... like a two line advertisement for an egg cup or something. You've gotta knuckle down and tune all that shit out.Edit: Oh damn. I just assumed this thread was about your lady friend. Sorry.That's my problem.. I'm a paranoid person who can over think the simplest things. I don't know, but I am trying to get through this toxic way of thinking.
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 10:16:58 PMQuote from: Elegiac on December 08, 2014, 10:13:34 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 08:55:02 PMI keep seeing signs from TV, the radio, and videogames reminding me of what happened, how much I lost, and how much I failed. Maybe I'm over thinking it, but I just can't wrap my head around it. Imagine having that but with paranoid schizophrenia at the same time. I could read the signs in things like... things that didn't even have a symbolic relation... like a two line advertisement for an egg cup or something. You've gotta knuckle down and tune all that shit out.Edit: Oh damn. I just assumed this thread was about your lady friend. Sorry.That's my problem.. I'm a paranoid person who can over think the simplest things. I don't know, but I am trying to get through this toxic way of thinking.I'm a reader so I did a lot of reading, but maybe for a gamer, this?http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sparx_%28video_game%29I just read the page and it seems interesting.
Sorry to hear Gasai. I wish you the best through this.
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 10:24:52 PMQuote from: The Nuke Before Christmas on December 08, 2014, 10:23:38 PMSorry to hear Gasai. I wish you the best through this.And to you, Nuka-chanYou have me on Skype. I'm pretty much always willing to talk.
Quote from: The Nuke Before Christmas on December 08, 2014, 10:23:38 PMSorry to hear Gasai. I wish you the best through this.And to you, Nuka-chan
Is it ok if I ask what's wrong?If not, I hope you can get past it man.
Quote from: WORKSHOPWIZARD on December 08, 2014, 10:26:24 PMIs it ok if I ask what's wrong?If not, I hope you can get past it man.This one girl I've known for 4+ years, I hit her last nerve with me.
Quote from: Elegiac on December 08, 2014, 10:22:25 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 10:16:58 PMQuote from: Elegiac on December 08, 2014, 10:13:34 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 08:55:02 PMI keep seeing signs from TV, the radio, and videogames reminding me of what happened, how much I lost, and how much I failed. Maybe I'm over thinking it, but I just can't wrap my head around it. Imagine having that but with paranoid schizophrenia at the same time. I could read the signs in things like... things that didn't even have a symbolic relation... like a two line advertisement for an egg cup or something. You've gotta knuckle down and tune all that shit out.Edit: Oh damn. I just assumed this thread was about your lady friend. Sorry.That's my problem.. I'm a paranoid person who can over think the simplest things. I don't know, but I am trying to get through this toxic way of thinking.I'm a reader so I did a lot of reading, but maybe for a gamer, this?http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sparx_%28video_game%29I just read the page and it seems interesting.The game is only available to New Zealand citizens...Huh..
Quote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 10:27:30 PMQuote from: WORKSHOPWIZARD on December 08, 2014, 10:26:24 PMIs it ok if I ask what's wrong?If not, I hope you can get past it man.This one girl I've known for 4+ years, I hit her last nerve with me.Shit man, what'd you do?
Quote from: WORKSHOPWIZARD on December 08, 2014, 10:28:18 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 10:27:30 PMQuote from: WORKSHOPWIZARD on December 08, 2014, 10:26:24 PMIs it ok if I ask what's wrong?If not, I hope you can get past it man.This one girl I've known for 4+ years, I hit her last nerve with me.Shit man, what'd you do?Jealousy took over.
Quote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 10:17:22 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 10:10:56 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 10:04:51 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:49:43 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:45:19 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:43:39 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:41:40 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:33:44 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:30:23 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:14:47 PMQuote from: Sandtrap on December 08, 2014, 09:11:30 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:08:32 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 09:05:16 PMQuote from: Naru on December 08, 2014, 09:00:39 PMQuote from: Officer Big Dick Dave on December 08, 2014, 08:57:44 PMWhatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.Jealousy, dependent, clingy.I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.Jealousy is natural.Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.How about dependant?Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.How about clingy?I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?Closest friend I have.. Or soon.. "Had"So you said something or did something. Now, personally, I don't know of any friend of mine that would be dissappointed in me if I said something. And, depending on what I did, they wouldn't be dissappointed either. In the personal context.You did something big to upset them then. I can think of three things, maybe four, that would do that.Stealing and using money without permission.Snapping and lashing out at them, physically, or verbally.Fucking around with relationships.If I had to guess, you got upset. Said stuff you didn't mean to.Things I got annoyed about from the past. Mainly said by jealousy and my idiotic ways.You try telling them what you're telling me now?A few times, but no response. So I have to wait to see what happens
is it wrong that i get solace/comfort from hearing about other people's depressionbecause i'm depressedyou can't be meand think the things that i thinkbelieve the things that i believe, and not be depressedeverywhere i go, i feel burdensomeeven when i'm with people i know, i feel like they're day would've been better off if i hadn't been there, and i have trouble expressing how much i appreciate the people who tolerate my presence day and day outi cried for the first time in years tonighti don't normally cry, because of the stigma associated with it, but that's just how sad i am i guessbut when i see threads like thisand i read what other people are going throughjust knowing that there's people who have an idea of what you're going throughit doesn't help anything, it doesn't make anything betterbut i feel less alone
a lot of people tell me to take medicationno, i want to be stronger than thatnot that taking meds necessarily makes you weak, buti want to be stronger than thati am stronger than that
Imma gib you dat fish
Hey, we talked about it. We can talk again if you want....Anyway, I'm starting to have to take pills for my anxiety. Kinda annoying.
I've been lurking here
