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Been feeling under the weather lately..

Bored. Depressed. No motivation.

Just staying home, watching Netflix, doing assignments, working.. I can't really think straight. Didn't post here for a couple days. I have been seeing a therapist to find out what to do to cope with someone and fix myself. I failed people and I feel guilty. I lost the one thing I was excited for this Christmas time, and I doubt it'll happen anytime soon.

It may seem like I'm rambling, because I am, and it does help a bit with how I'm feeling. I keep seeing signs from TV, the radio, and videogames reminding me of what happened, how much I lost, and how much I failed. Maybe I'm over thinking it, but I just can't wrap my head around it.

Still not sure what type of thread this is, but AMA or whatever. Discuss shit you're dealing with, I don't care.


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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.


 
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May I ask what was lost?

I wondered where you went you know. I don't know you. But I noticed your absence.
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.


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May I ask what was lost?

I wondered where you went you know. I don't know you. But I noticed your absence.
I can't say specifically.

Valued is the main word I can give you.


 
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Seeking help is a big step. Just don't be afraid to get more. Not enough help isn't beneficial either.
I'm getting enough help, I've been improving slowly. Baby steps.


 
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I'm having separation anxiety...
That's what I got...


 
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I have been feeling like shit for a while as well. You can talk to me on skype or wherever if you wish to.
Thanks, I might do so if I feel like it today.


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do you want to go to the hardcore disco with me
Too hardcore.


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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.


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May I ask what was lost?

I wondered where you went you know. I don't know you. But I noticed your absence.
I can't say specifically.

Valued is the main word I can give you.

Family or friends then. Personal life. Somebody important to you doesn't return the sentiments. Or, everything in general seems grey. You're alone right? Feels like a prison. You're not wanted or cared for and it doesn't seem like anybody gives a shit?

I can't say much, because I know nothing about you. But, I'm here. Here to stay as well. If you want to talk, shoot.

The thing that you should see here, is that you're not as alone as you think. Similar folks group together. They have a knack, for finding each other. There are people here, among you that are riding through the bullshit too. Maybe not the same. But there's a lot of hurt folks here. More than what you see at first glance. If you want to talk, I'm around.


 
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.


 
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May I ask what was lost?

I wondered where you went you know. I don't know you. But I noticed your absence.
I can't say specifically.

Valued is the main word I can give you.

Family or friends then. Personal life. Somebody important to you doesn't return the sentiments. Or, everything in general seems grey. You're alone right? Feels like a prison. You're not wanted or cared for and it doesn't seem like anybody gives a shit?

I can't say much, because I know nothing about you. But, I'm here. Here to stay as well. If you want to talk, shoot.

The thing that you should see here, is that you're not as alone as you think. Similar folks group together. They have a knack, for finding each other. There are people here, among you that are riding through the bullshit too. Maybe not the same. But there's a lot of hurt folks here. More than what you see at first glance. If you want to talk, I'm around.
Thanks Sand, but I need to focus on myself and you need to focus on yourself. Only I can bring myself up.

If I need the help, I can ask for it. Don't worry.


 
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.


 
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Jealousy, dependent, clingy.

I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.


 
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May I ask what was lost?

I wondered where you went you know. I don't know you. But I noticed your absence.
I can't say specifically.

Valued is the main word I can give you.

Family or friends then. Personal life. Somebody important to you doesn't return the sentiments. Or, everything in general seems grey. You're alone right? Feels like a prison. You're not wanted or cared for and it doesn't seem like anybody gives a shit?

I can't say much, because I know nothing about you. But, I'm here. Here to stay as well. If you want to talk, shoot.

The thing that you should see here, is that you're not as alone as you think. Similar folks group together. They have a knack, for finding each other. There are people here, among you that are riding through the bullshit too. Maybe not the same. But there's a lot of hurt folks here. More than what you see at first glance. If you want to talk, I'm around.
Thanks Sand, but I need to focus on myself and you need to focus on yourself. Only I can bring myself up.

If I need the help, I can ask for it. Don't worry.

Come on. Give it a shot. What do you have to lose? Ask yourself that. What do you have to lose, by taking this shot, right here, and right now? What if something good comes of it?

Believe me, I'm doing fine. My life is just a rolling. And it will keep rolling. But I'm sitting here, right now, asking because I can and I choose too. Give it a shot. At worst, you won't get anything. At best, you might gain something.

Try me.


 
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Jealousy, dependent, clingy.

I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.

Jealousy is natural.

Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.

How about dependant?

Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.

How about clingy?

I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.

So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.


 
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Jealousy, dependent, clingy.

I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.

Jealousy is natural.

Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.

How about dependant?

Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.

How about clingy?

I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.

So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.
I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.


 
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Jealousy, dependent, clingy.

I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.

Jealousy is natural.

Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.

How about dependant?

Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.

How about clingy?

I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.

So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.
I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.

If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.

And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?


 
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Jealousy, dependent, clingy.

I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.

Jealousy is natural.

Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.

How about dependant?

Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.

How about clingy?

I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.

So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.
I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.

If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.

And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?
Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..


 
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Jealousy, dependent, clingy.

I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.

Jealousy is natural.

Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.

How about dependant?

Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.

How about clingy?

I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.

So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.
I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.

If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.

And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?
Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..

Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?


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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Jealousy, dependent, clingy.

I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.

Jealousy is natural.

Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.

How about dependant?

Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.

How about clingy?

I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.

So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.
I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.

If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.

And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?
Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..

Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?
Closest friend I have.. Or soon.. "Had"


 
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don't let the niggermen get to you. i gochu if you wanna talk to someone.
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Whatever it is you're dealing with I hope you can find a way to fix or move past it, Gasai.
I will soon, man. Just now is not the time.
I'll definitely go on record and say that I'm not necessarily the best at giving advice, but if you feel like you need to get this stuff off of your chest I'm willing to listen and provide some insight.
It's fine man. You're a cool guy, but I'm fine. I just need to release my flaws I have.

If you don't want to talk about that, then what are your flaws? What do you, think your flaws are? Come on. Shoot.

I'll tell you mine up front and center if you tell me yours. A trade.
Jealousy, dependent, clingy.

I want to better myself, and to prove that I can change. Ugh, the episode of House has the name "Selfish".. See what I mean? I keep seeing these signs.

Jealousy is natural.

Tell you what. I'm jealous. Every time I see two people, friends or something more, it burns me. It hurts. Because I'm alone. And it burns my ass when I try to change shit and it just doesn't change.

How about dependant?

Do you know the reason why I'm here right now? Because I can't fight alone anymore. I can't do it. Try as hard as I might, I can't stand on my own two feet.

How about clingy?

I've gotten overly clingy with a friend. I made a mistake. A big one. And it backfired. Even worse, I made the same mistake again with somebody else. Another friend. And while it didn't backfire, I know that what was said will always push them away from me. The direct opposite of what I wanted.

So, here I am Naru. I'm in your shoes. And you're in mine. How are we going to change it. Don't know yet. But, certainly, not alone.
I made a huge mistake.. The only thing I'm told to do is to wait out and see what can happen. It's been days and soon to be a week, and nothing. I'm scared something will happen and things will drastically change. I made it happen and it's horrible.

If I had to guess. Don't quote me on this. Maybe I'm not reading things right here. Pregnant? Pregnancy, isn't it? Or, you came out. You told somebody. You told somebody what was in your head. Told them what you've kept chained up inside and set that free.

And they flinched when you told them. They backed away. And now you're just waiting right? Waiting for something?
Nothing like that. I did something, it was their last straw. yes, backed away, and I'm told to wait it out. Waiting for something..

Last straw implies doing something to disappoint someone. Friend or family?
Closest friend I have.. Or soon.. "Had"

So you said something or did something. Now, personally, I don't know of any friend of mine that would be dissappointed in me if I said something. And, depending on what I did, they wouldn't be dissappointed either. In the personal context.

You did something big to upset them then. I can think of three things, maybe four, that would do that.

Stealing and using money without permission.

Snapping and lashing out at them, physically, or verbally.

Fucking around with relationships.

If I had to guess, you got upset. Said stuff you didn't mean to.