Bout to go see a wrinkle in time.
Coming to the end of my third year of uni (doing computer science). Finalising our big group project which we present to the public in three weeks. Got one more year left after this where I've gotta decide on what I want to do for my individual project. Problem is that you can do absolutely anything you want, but have to come up with it yourself, which I'm terrible at doing. Hoping to do something related to machine learning, not sure what specifically.Other than that, nothing much. Haven't had much time for gaming because of coursework and have only really been playing Sea of Thieves, PUBG and New Vegas. Hoping to get back to The Witcher 3 soon, though.
Quote from: Fedorekd on April 20, 2018, 04:44:35 AMComing to the end of my third year of uni (doing computer science). Finalising our big group project which we present to the public in three weeks. Got one more year left after this where I've gotta decide on what I want to do for my individual project. Problem is that you can do absolutely anything you want, but have to come up with it yourself, which I'm terrible at doing. Hoping to do something related to machine learning, not sure what specifically.Other than that, nothing much. Haven't had much time for gaming because of coursework and have only really been playing Sea of Thieves, PUBG and New Vegas. Hoping to get back to The Witcher 3 soon, though.what was the project? i hate working with others
Quote from: Eli on April 20, 2018, 02:45:02 PMI've had a subpar week. I've become obsessed with abstinence for its social benefits as well as my own pride as I remove addiction from my life (as well as the chemical boost I'd receive to facilitate muscle growth). Unfortunately, this presents a few problems I've had issues dealing with. For example, my anxiety has spiked. I used to be a pretty anxious person to begin with but in the last couple of years I've been meeting my very high personal standards of productivity and the confidence boost did wonders for my stress levels. This last week though has been particularly difficult because, when I'm not otherwise occupied, all I'm thinking about is sex. I spent 4 hours at the gym on Tuesday, most likely because of this (I mean, I also wanted a thorough leg workout.) My sex drive is through the fucking roof, which makes it a lot harder to focus on other things while at home (school, art, talking with friends, etc.) This makes me feel anxious because a) I'm trying to avoid sex and/or masturbation, but I really want to fuckand b) I don't want to fail to meet my own expectations. So I either give in to my desires and feel somewhat relaxed for a time (which can be helpful for falling asleep, which is generally how I used to do it), but have to deal with the fact that I failed to do something I set out to do, OR deal with the side affects of my anxiety, like difficulty falling asleep, difficulty finding motivation (which I've always prided myself on not needing, so imagine how low it must really be here), lowered hunger, etc. Failing to fall asleep and not eating right directly affects my primary focus these days (training), so it's an even bigger problem. For example, Wednesday night which marked the 2 week point for my current absitence period, I could NOT fall asleep. This directly affected my ability to perform at the gym the following morning, where I could not lift anywhere near my previous bests. For anyone who trains, the high you get from visibly getting stronger and pushing higher weight is awesome, but you also know the feeling of defeat at not being able to beat even on par with your previous self. I also got my results for my monthly weigh-in and it should have made me much happier than it did.It could be that I didn't have a great work schedule last weekend (I feel very useless if I'm at work and not working, so when they asked me to train the new kid, I had him do everything I usually do on my shift, and I felt sort of superfluous) or the fact that my trainer has been gone for a week on a trip, and being the highly habitual creature that I am (borderline neurotic), I'm just feeling a little subconsciously frazzled at the weird day-to-day I'm going through. I'm trying to get back to my normal sex drive (release every other day or so, sometimes longer depending on schedule.) Not a bad week relatively speaking, but I'm someone that generally wakes up pretty excited to get his shit done and loves his life, so a 5 or 6/10 week feels like a real bust to me. I was going to make a thread but this worked out perfectly.Why even set this "goal"? What's wrong with having sex and masturbating?
I've had a subpar week. I've become obsessed with abstinence for its social benefits as well as my own pride as I remove addiction from my life (as well as the chemical boost I'd receive to facilitate muscle growth). Unfortunately, this presents a few problems I've had issues dealing with. For example, my anxiety has spiked. I used to be a pretty anxious person to begin with but in the last couple of years I've been meeting my very high personal standards of productivity and the confidence boost did wonders for my stress levels. This last week though has been particularly difficult because, when I'm not otherwise occupied, all I'm thinking about is sex. I spent 4 hours at the gym on Tuesday, most likely because of this (I mean, I also wanted a thorough leg workout.) My sex drive is through the fucking roof, which makes it a lot harder to focus on other things while at home (school, art, talking with friends, etc.) This makes me feel anxious because a) I'm trying to avoid sex and/or masturbation, but I really want to fuckand b) I don't want to fail to meet my own expectations. So I either give in to my desires and feel somewhat relaxed for a time (which can be helpful for falling asleep, which is generally how I used to do it), but have to deal with the fact that I failed to do something I set out to do, OR deal with the side affects of my anxiety, like difficulty falling asleep, difficulty finding motivation (which I've always prided myself on not needing, so imagine how low it must really be here), lowered hunger, etc. Failing to fall asleep and not eating right directly affects my primary focus these days (training), so it's an even bigger problem. For example, Wednesday night which marked the 2 week point for my current absitence period, I could NOT fall asleep. This directly affected my ability to perform at the gym the following morning, where I could not lift anywhere near my previous bests. For anyone who trains, the high you get from visibly getting stronger and pushing higher weight is awesome, but you also know the feeling of defeat at not being able to beat even on par with your previous self. I also got my results for my monthly weigh-in and it should have made me much happier than it did.It could be that I didn't have a great work schedule last weekend (I feel very useless if I'm at work and not working, so when they asked me to train the new kid, I had him do everything I usually do on my shift, and I felt sort of superfluous) or the fact that my trainer has been gone for a week on a trip, and being the highly habitual creature that I am (borderline neurotic), I'm just feeling a little subconsciously frazzled at the weird day-to-day I'm going through. I'm trying to get back to my normal sex drive (release every other day or so, sometimes longer depending on schedule.) Not a bad week relatively speaking, but I'm someone that generally wakes up pretty excited to get his shit done and loves his life, so a 5 or 6/10 week feels like a real bust to me. I was going to make a thread but this worked out perfectly.
Quote from: Eli on April 20, 2018, 07:54:27 PMQuote from: challengerX on April 20, 2018, 05:32:50 PMQuote from: Eli on April 20, 2018, 02:45:02 PMI've had a subpar week. I've become obsessed with abstinence for its social benefits as well as my own pride as I remove addiction from my life (as well as the chemical boost I'd receive to facilitate muscle growth). Unfortunately, this presents a few problems I've had issues dealing with. For example, my anxiety has spiked. I used to be a pretty anxious person to begin with but in the last couple of years I've been meeting my very high personal standards of productivity and the confidence boost did wonders for my stress levels. This last week though has been particularly difficult because, when I'm not otherwise occupied, all I'm thinking about is sex. I spent 4 hours at the gym on Tuesday, most likely because of this (I mean, I also wanted a thorough leg workout.) My sex drive is through the fucking roof, which makes it a lot harder to focus on other things while at home (school, art, talking with friends, etc.) This makes me feel anxious because a) I'm trying to avoid sex and/or masturbation, but I really want to fuckand b) I don't want to fail to meet my own expectations. So I either give in to my desires and feel somewhat relaxed for a time (which can be helpful for falling asleep, which is generally how I used to do it), but have to deal with the fact that I failed to do something I set out to do, OR deal with the side affects of my anxiety, like difficulty falling asleep, difficulty finding motivation (which I've always prided myself on not needing, so imagine how low it must really be here), lowered hunger, etc. Failing to fall asleep and not eating right directly affects my primary focus these days (training), so it's an even bigger problem. For example, Wednesday night which marked the 2 week point for my current absitence period, I could NOT fall asleep. This directly affected my ability to perform at the gym the following morning, where I could not lift anywhere near my previous bests. For anyone who trains, the high you get from visibly getting stronger and pushing higher weight is awesome, but you also know the feeling of defeat at not being able to beat even on par with your previous self. I also got my results for my monthly weigh-in and it should have made me much happier than it did.It could be that I didn't have a great work schedule last weekend (I feel very useless if I'm at work and not working, so when they asked me to train the new kid, I had him do everything I usually do on my shift, and I felt sort of superfluous) or the fact that my trainer has been gone for a week on a trip, and being the highly habitual creature that I am (borderline neurotic), I'm just feeling a little subconsciously frazzled at the weird day-to-day I'm going through. I'm trying to get back to my normal sex drive (release every other day or so, sometimes longer depending on schedule.) Not a bad week relatively speaking, but I'm someone that generally wakes up pretty excited to get his shit done and loves his life, so a 5 or 6/10 week feels like a real bust to me. I was going to make a thread but this worked out perfectly.Why even set this "goal"? What's wrong with having sex and masturbating?Historically people have used their abstinence to fuel other endeavors. George Washington was famous for this, and many boxers/professional fighters will refrain before big fights or whatever. Sex is okay in a general sense if you're not trying to abstain but there's loads of issues with masturbating. With sex there's pheromones, touching, etc. Masturbation eventually leads to porn which can be incredibly destructive for the body and mind. It's like Snoop Dogg nowadays. Imagine the amount of pot he needs to smoke to hit that high he used to when he was a teenager. I'm trying to avoid that as well as a ton of other emasculating issues down the line like ED, or low testosterone in general.Right, but every once in a while is healthy. Porn is disgusting I agree with you there.What are you trying to achieve, though?
Quote from: challengerX on April 20, 2018, 05:32:50 PMQuote from: Eli on April 20, 2018, 02:45:02 PMI've had a subpar week. I've become obsessed with abstinence for its social benefits as well as my own pride as I remove addiction from my life (as well as the chemical boost I'd receive to facilitate muscle growth). Unfortunately, this presents a few problems I've had issues dealing with. For example, my anxiety has spiked. I used to be a pretty anxious person to begin with but in the last couple of years I've been meeting my very high personal standards of productivity and the confidence boost did wonders for my stress levels. This last week though has been particularly difficult because, when I'm not otherwise occupied, all I'm thinking about is sex. I spent 4 hours at the gym on Tuesday, most likely because of this (I mean, I also wanted a thorough leg workout.) My sex drive is through the fucking roof, which makes it a lot harder to focus on other things while at home (school, art, talking with friends, etc.) This makes me feel anxious because a) I'm trying to avoid sex and/or masturbation, but I really want to fuckand b) I don't want to fail to meet my own expectations. So I either give in to my desires and feel somewhat relaxed for a time (which can be helpful for falling asleep, which is generally how I used to do it), but have to deal with the fact that I failed to do something I set out to do, OR deal with the side affects of my anxiety, like difficulty falling asleep, difficulty finding motivation (which I've always prided myself on not needing, so imagine how low it must really be here), lowered hunger, etc. Failing to fall asleep and not eating right directly affects my primary focus these days (training), so it's an even bigger problem. For example, Wednesday night which marked the 2 week point for my current absitence period, I could NOT fall asleep. This directly affected my ability to perform at the gym the following morning, where I could not lift anywhere near my previous bests. For anyone who trains, the high you get from visibly getting stronger and pushing higher weight is awesome, but you also know the feeling of defeat at not being able to beat even on par with your previous self. I also got my results for my monthly weigh-in and it should have made me much happier than it did.It could be that I didn't have a great work schedule last weekend (I feel very useless if I'm at work and not working, so when they asked me to train the new kid, I had him do everything I usually do on my shift, and I felt sort of superfluous) or the fact that my trainer has been gone for a week on a trip, and being the highly habitual creature that I am (borderline neurotic), I'm just feeling a little subconsciously frazzled at the weird day-to-day I'm going through. I'm trying to get back to my normal sex drive (release every other day or so, sometimes longer depending on schedule.) Not a bad week relatively speaking, but I'm someone that generally wakes up pretty excited to get his shit done and loves his life, so a 5 or 6/10 week feels like a real bust to me. I was going to make a thread but this worked out perfectly.Why even set this "goal"? What's wrong with having sex and masturbating?Historically people have used their abstinence to fuel other endeavors. George Washington was famous for this, and many boxers/professional fighters will refrain before big fights or whatever. Sex is okay in a general sense if you're not trying to abstain but there's loads of issues with masturbating. With sex there's pheromones, touching, etc. Masturbation eventually leads to porn which can be incredibly destructive for the body and mind. It's like Snoop Dogg nowadays. Imagine the amount of pot he needs to smoke to hit that high he used to when he was a teenager. I'm trying to avoid that as well as a ton of other emasculating issues down the line like ED, or low testosterone in general.
Quote from: Eli on April 20, 2018, 02:45:02 PMSpoilerI've had a subpar week. I've become obsessed with abstinence for its social benefits as well as my own pride as I remove addiction from my life (as well as the chemical boost I'd receive to facilitate muscle growth). Unfortunately, this presents a few problems I've had issues dealing with. For example, my anxiety has spiked. I used to be a pretty anxious person to begin with but in the last couple of years I've been meeting my very high personal standards of productivity and the confidence boost did wonders for my stress levels. This last week though has been particularly difficult because, when I'm not otherwise occupied, all I'm thinking about is sex. I spent 4 hours at the gym on Tuesday, most likely because of this (I mean, I also wanted a thorough leg workout.) My sex drive is through the fucking roof, which makes it a lot harder to focus on other things while at home (school, art, talking with friends, etc.) This makes me feel anxious because a) I'm trying to avoid sex and/or masturbation, but I really want to fuckand b) I don't want to fail to meet my own expectations. So I either give in to my desires and feel somewhat relaxed for a time (which can be helpful for falling asleep, which is generally how I used to do it), but have to deal with the fact that I failed to do something I set out to do, OR deal with the side affects of my anxiety, like difficulty falling asleep, difficulty finding motivation (which I've always prided myself on not needing, so imagine how low it must really be here), lowered hunger, etc. Failing to fall asleep and not eating right directly affects my primary focus these days (training), so it's an even bigger problem. For example, Wednesday night which marked the 2 week point for my current absitence period, I could NOT fall asleep. This directly affected my ability to perform at the gym the following morning, where I could not lift anywhere near my previous bests. For anyone who trains, the high you get from visibly getting stronger and pushing higher weight is awesome, but you also know the feeling of defeat at not being able to beat even on par with your previous self. I also got my results for my monthly weigh-in and it should have made me much happier than it did.It could be that I didn't have a great work schedule last weekend (I feel very useless if I'm at work and not working, so when they asked me to train the new kid, I had him do everything I usually do on my shift, and I felt sort of superfluous) or the fact that my trainer has been gone for a week on a trip, and being the highly habitual creature that I am (borderline neurotic), I'm just feeling a little subconsciously frazzled at the weird day-to-day I'm going through. I'm trying to get back to my normal sex drive (release every other day or so, sometimes longer depending on schedule.) Not a bad week relatively speaking, but I'm someone that generally wakes up pretty excited to get his shit done and loves his life, so a 5 or 6/10 week feels like a real bust to me. I was going to make a thread but this worked out perfectly.Why even set this "goal"? What's wrong with having sex and masturbating?
SpoilerI've had a subpar week. I've become obsessed with abstinence for its social benefits as well as my own pride as I remove addiction from my life (as well as the chemical boost I'd receive to facilitate muscle growth). Unfortunately, this presents a few problems I've had issues dealing with. For example, my anxiety has spiked. I used to be a pretty anxious person to begin with but in the last couple of years I've been meeting my very high personal standards of productivity and the confidence boost did wonders for my stress levels. This last week though has been particularly difficult because, when I'm not otherwise occupied, all I'm thinking about is sex. I spent 4 hours at the gym on Tuesday, most likely because of this (I mean, I also wanted a thorough leg workout.) My sex drive is through the fucking roof, which makes it a lot harder to focus on other things while at home (school, art, talking with friends, etc.) This makes me feel anxious because a) I'm trying to avoid sex and/or masturbation, but I really want to fuckand b) I don't want to fail to meet my own expectations. So I either give in to my desires and feel somewhat relaxed for a time (which can be helpful for falling asleep, which is generally how I used to do it), but have to deal with the fact that I failed to do something I set out to do, OR deal with the side affects of my anxiety, like difficulty falling asleep, difficulty finding motivation (which I've always prided myself on not needing, so imagine how low it must really be here), lowered hunger, etc. Failing to fall asleep and not eating right directly affects my primary focus these days (training), so it's an even bigger problem. For example, Wednesday night which marked the 2 week point for my current absitence period, I could NOT fall asleep. This directly affected my ability to perform at the gym the following morning, where I could not lift anywhere near my previous bests. For anyone who trains, the high you get from visibly getting stronger and pushing higher weight is awesome, but you also know the feeling of defeat at not being able to beat even on par with your previous self. I also got my results for my monthly weigh-in and it should have made me much happier than it did.It could be that I didn't have a great work schedule last weekend (I feel very useless if I'm at work and not working, so when they asked me to train the new kid, I had him do everything I usually do on my shift, and I felt sort of superfluous) or the fact that my trainer has been gone for a week on a trip, and being the highly habitual creature that I am (borderline neurotic), I'm just feeling a little subconsciously frazzled at the weird day-to-day I'm going through. I'm trying to get back to my normal sex drive (release every other day or so, sometimes longer depending on schedule.) Not a bad week relatively speaking, but I'm someone that generally wakes up pretty excited to get his shit done and loves his life, so a 5 or 6/10 week feels like a real bust to me. I was going to make a thread but this worked out perfectly.
For example, Wednesday night which marked the 2 week point for my current absitence period, I could NOT fall asleep.
This last week though has been particularly difficult because, when I'm not otherwise occupied, all I'm thinking about is sex. I spent 4 hours at the gym on Tuesday, most likely because of this (I mean, I also wanted a thorough leg workout.) My sex drive is through the fucking roof, which makes it a lot harder to focus on other things while at home (school, art, talking with friends, etc.)
I'm trying to get back to my normal sex drive (release every other day or so, sometimes longer depending on schedule.)
Quote from: Jono on April 20, 2018, 03:48:40 AMGot promoted at work so I'm gonna be making an extra dollar an hour. That means I'll be making $14.75 an hour now.Changed the oil in my car cause it needed to be changed so now she's all good to go until I hit 22k miles. Next purchase is going to have to be tires.Everything else has been going good right now. There's really nothing that is negative going on that's affecting me.i dont know nothing about cars so idk even know when my next one isthe past few days, my car has been shaking and the rpm would dip below what was normal, and we ended up taking it go get fixedthis car has problems upon problems
Got promoted at work so I'm gonna be making an extra dollar an hour. That means I'll be making $14.75 an hour now.Changed the oil in my car cause it needed to be changed so now she's all good to go until I hit 22k miles. Next purchase is going to have to be tires.Everything else has been going good right now. There's really nothing that is negative going on that's affecting me.
howre you doing
