bro that's pretty wizard of you to come back bro

Quote from: dahuterschuter on June 28, 2021, 09:52:03 PM

Strokeposting is the new meta.

what is strokeposting?

Quote from: Dan on June 28, 2021, 10:43:01 PM

Quote from: dahuterschuter on June 28, 2021, 09:52:03 PM

Strokeposting is the new meta.

what is strokeposting?

read my post there is your answer my friend. thank you for the post it was very good and i like it

Quote from: mojo on June 28, 2021, 10:46:14 PM

Quote from: Dan on June 28, 2021, 10:43:01 PM

Quote from: dahuterschuter on June 28, 2021, 09:52:03 PM

Strokeposting is the new meta.

what is strokeposting?

read my post there is your answer my friend. thank you for the post it was very good and i like it

It is meant to simulate the appearance of someone posting while having a stroke?

Or is meant to connote a stream of consciousness style of posting. Perhaps both?

        Okay, so let's see when was the last time you been here.. year and a half, right? My life went downhill from that big time. I haven't found a job for a year, military didn't take me cause my mom got fired and became full time pensioneer, I mostly was fucking around for around a year, but I learned Linux for the most part, but worst of all... vim became my favorite editor, so much that I actually started using vim outside of vim, like using a browser with vim shortcuts or importing vim shortcuts into VSCode, it's... ughhhhh (read: agonizing pay of joy that had come from deep arousment from oneself). By reaching this you should have noticed that I became even more sarcastic, sarcastic as I never been before.

        Nonetheless, starting this year I actually went ahead and made Linux From Scratch... and then almost never did touch it again, but I continued to use Linux. Oh yea, I forgot to say that I also set up dual boot system (pretty sure that was obvious by now tho). And few days later I got a job, my uncle helped me there, and I started working in... local rich man retail business. Building materials and tools. Plumbing. All other sort of stuff connected to that. I first been working as a programmer, even somehow managed to satisfy my boss, but soon afterwards my job became less and less programming, by now I have somehow become a marketer, a graphical designer and even a salesman out of all things. Not the worst of all outcomes, worst that could possibly happen is webdev of course. Though full time job from 9 to 6 with hour break does take a lot of energy from me. On the other hand it's in hometown. I don't know if it's positive or not tho because it's not a big town but I uhhhh was never conserned by it. Maybe my love for my town is about on same level as your love for Ishpeming.

        But enough rambling, at the end of the day as my competence grew and I got into it I started to hate it less and feel comfortableish there. Hell, even got a few friends. And I started to manage my responsibilities much better. But I can't stay there forever, I'll die as a programmer if I do and so will die any of the plans to move out of this country, so I started working on myself again when off clock with questionable results but results nonetheless. I got contacted by one company, they found out my half baked CV applying for a system administrator and umm they interviewed me and everything. I did fail test task at the end though, although I did half of it. Eventually they told me that they liked my attitude and they will contact me once they get open position, it won't be soon though. Meanwhile they gave me a list of tech I have to learn/relearn/brush up so I would fix holes in my knowledge and also I have to fix my internet too real bad. It was about month ago and while I learned something from the list they gave, I don't feel like I'm learning fast enough, so I have to pick up pace on it. Bad internet worries me more though, there are problem of lack of choice of ISPs here, there are 3 of them that can be characterized with words "shit", "less shit" and "hidden illuminati information of which is so scarce and userbase of who is so small here that I don't know what to expect" and I probably need 2 of them actually. I'm also worried about weather here becoming pretty extreme and electricity disappearing, but I can do nothing about it really. There are other work offers I consider at the moment, FatherlyNick pointed me out one company and QA line of work (with videogames!) and one of my relatives pointed me out the company where his daughter works and it's uhhhhhhhh... web development (reeeeeeeeeee). (P.S: Also Cheat if you are reading this, I'm sorry, I kinda learned Angular to some basic level, but I never helped you with Sep7 3.0 at all, I got busy with work and after work I either end up tired or playing videogames or learning Linux, and... aaaa, well I try to do something about it in short, someday)

        Now, my grandmother died on Wednesday in her age of  91 years and it was expected to happen, although death itself came quite sudden to her. I'm fine, my mom is mostly fine too, though she did break in tears sometimes these days and she also now doesn't exactly know what to do now that grandmother that she took care of died and what to do with freedom she got now, but it seems she handles it rather well, at least from what I can tell in this limited time frame. We planning to entirely move to her house at some point which is 2 houses away from our, even though we will miss our small cozy house. Need to plug in internet there first though.

        So, now that I done ranting about myself, how are you? Also how the hell do you manage to appear right after my relatives die, that's quite funny. Like some sort of angel that offers his support or something like that. Are you doing the math stuff you like still and do programming too?

computer engineering

seriously starting to consider streaming or something like that instead of what people might call a "real job" because i fucking hate working the vast majority of jobs out there. i am at my most depressed/stressed when i have a job. i dont give a shit about money really, but if i dont have money then my life has no value in the eyes of society, and i will subsequently die or at the very least suffer. so unfortunately i must work a job i will likely hate. doesnt matter what it is; i hate being subject to someone else's rules and schedules. i only enjoy life when i am doing things that i want to do and when i decide to do them.

i admire streamers because they have a lot more freedom in that regard. theyve made a career out of doing what they like to do. they set their own schedules, they have no boss, and they have no employees. if they get bored with one thing, they can stream something else.

the most productive i've ever been - believe or not - was when i was on government COVID benefits last summer. i had complete freedom to do whatever i wanted, whenever i wanted. i didnt have class and i wasnt working. i was fucking free. i juggled several different hobbies, many of which given time could have turned into real careers. i started learning how to make jewelry, mainly rings. i got super into photography which i spent a ton of time studying and practicing, and still do try to practice as much as i can. i also got into off-roading since there's a ton of wilderness where im at and a lotta cool shit to explore - landscapes, waterfalls, ruins from the copper mine days,  beaches, trails; i'd go driving every fucking day exploring and photographing the keewenaw (name of the region i live in). i also became obsessed with rock-hunting, and would often spend several hours scouring old mine piles for copper. super addicting hobby - its quite a rush when you find a big ol chunk of copper ore.

i was doing something every day. i kept busy with my passions, and for the first time since probably ever, i was actually happy with my life. i wasnt working or taking classes, and yet i was the most productive id ever been.

i dread the prospect of working a "real job" after college. i am always at my most depressed when i have a job. i always thought i was just lazy, but ive sinced realized that simply isnt true. i love to keep busy doing things i like to do. unfortunately, the things i like to do arent the easiest to make a living doing. plus, i like doing what i want when i want, which is the opposite of how "real jobs" work. even if i got a "real job" doing something i love, if its not on my own terms then i will likely begin to hate it. simply put, i dislike doing anything i am told i have to do by someone else. i hate being subject to someone else's schedule, nor do i want to hold subordinates accountable to a schedule of my own creation. boss or employee, either way im shackled and held back from freely living my life however i want.

in this world: money > human life, or any life for that matter

my value is judged by the size of my pockets, rather than the simple fact that i'm a human being.

but yeah uhhh im studying computer engineering lol