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If you bend your mind towards the challenge, the skill will follow in your hands
... but when it came to business, you failed to put effort into it? Or even worse, you managed to put effort, but results were so miserable by your own standarts that it additionaly double down any left in you motivation to do a thing?


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Long live NoNolesNeckin.

Ya fuckin' ganderneck.
I have an immense desire to achieve a high level of skill in the various areas of drawing/art I am interested in, but the chronic health condition I have sucks all the motivation and drive I could have right out of me most of the time.

I don't really feel like I can't do it, I just know it will take a ton of work. It took me about 3 years to get to where I am with drawing female faces when it could've just taken 3 months if I had actually put in the effort and treated practicing as if it were a full time job. Lord knows I have all the time in the world for it.


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Toys are hereby declared:
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placed under ARREST and thrown in the DUNGEON!
No kidding!               ๐Ÿ…ฑ
My issue is that I'm dying for a chance to do something, but my current position prevents me from doing so, and yes I have tried. I'm used to working in substandard conditions, but what I'm in right now is beyond me. And what sucks about it is that, so like for 3D, with all the people I've talked to, I have potential, but I need to put time into it that I don't have because work plus commute takes up to at least 12-13 hours of my day if I don't stay for overtime. On top of being in an ill-suited attic bedroom that I can even stand in. Not tryi g to bitch, these are just issues I've struggled to find solutions to. Hell even in our last house I was able to find a way to paint, but I unless I want to invest money in this shithole that I'm tryi g to leave, there's no feasible way


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Ye but I can't so I wish for the next best thing: death


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Brother, I always wanted to replace my arms with drills, and my legs with wheels, but I get too queasy thinking about it... Like how will I be able to love those I care about, when I fucking drill holes in them, and run over their corpses? Sometimes for me, it's good to have cold feet and be lazy about not murdering your asshole boss at night.
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Hey.
I came here from b.net after a few Floods invited me. None of them post on either b.net nor here anymore, which is sad. I was still active on b.net until for some bizarre reason, b.net admins locked out people who have not played Destiny. Even if you wanted to post on the offtopic section. After that, I fully moved here and have not returned to b.net since.
Please come play Halo with me.
One thing that let me achieve things is if I forget I have a choice.

basically, whenever a thought like "Oh yeah, I need to do thing X" - you immediately proceed to do it instead of postponing it for later.

You have no choice. there are no shortcuts in the life of an adult.


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I am feeling so good I passed my Circuits but most importantly, my STATICS class!

Was stressing for a long while but I pulled through :))))))


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His eyebrows sparkling, his white beard hangs down to his chest. The thatched mats, spread outside his chise, spread softly, his splendid attos. He polishes, cross-legged, his makiri, with his eyes completely absorbed.

He is Ainu.

The god of Ainu Mosir, Ae-Oine Kamuy, descendant of Okiku-Rumi, He perishes, a living corpse. The summers day, the white sunlight, unabrushed, ends simply through his breath alone.
Diet. I always end up eating poorly even though it always makes me feel awful. If it weren't for portion management and low-moderate exercise I would likely be obese.


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The angel agreed to trade a set of white wings for the head of another demon. Overjoyed, the demon killed one of his own and plucked the head right off its still-warm body.

The angel then led the demon to heaven, where he underwent centuries of the cruelest tortures imaginable. Finally, the pain was so great that he lost consciousness - at which point his dark wings turned the promised shade of white.
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If you bend your mind towards the challenge, the skill will follow in your hands
Diet. I always end up eating poorly even though it always makes me feel awful. If it weren't for portion management and low-moderate exercise I would likely be obese.
Oh, that's interesting. Dedicated diet is something I've always wanted to have, but I don't have knowledge or money, depending on what kind of diet. I tried keto, it seems to went well, but it's very hard diet to support.

I do have some sort of gear in my brain that controls what I eat, so I try to eat what is best for my health as long as I can afford it, but sometimes I really want to go and just eat 300g of fries or big bag of chips and I go and do that, and sometimes I'm just too lazy to cook, so I can skip it. In recent years however I managed to bring the idea of breakfast as necessity to my brain, so I try to have food soon after I wake up.

Exercise is something I wanted to implement as well, and there was perions of time when I went running every next day or at least go for a long walk, but right now is raining season, with bunch of work to do, so it flopped.



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Brother, I always wanted to replace my arms with drills, and my legs with wheels, but I get too queasy thinking about it... Like how will I be able to love those I care about, when I fucking drill holes in them, and run over their corpses? Sometimes for me, it's good to have cold feet and be lazy about not murdering your asshole boss at night.
calm down discount edward scissor hands


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for sure

much of my life improvement has been jammed into the past year. i set out to better myself as a person and to better my life. i evolved so much. all in all, 2019 was a good year for me. had some really shitty lows and failings, but i learned from em and am better cause of it.

just gotta keep on truckin. i finally started taking the steps i needed to improve my life that i should have started years ago. i still got work to do, but my accomplishments have been staggering.

 the number one thing that held myself back was myself. i was afraid to make the changes i needed. im still afraid, but im learning to confront my fear more and more. and its paying off
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i feel that for real

you can always try to be a better person than you were 5 minutes ago, in whatever it is you want to be better at or whatever you believe makes you a better person


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I neither fear, nor despise.
I felt that 2019 was the year for me where things just didn't work out. When I was younger I expected to be in a very different place in life. Having a family possibly, living elsewhere, with a good job and degree. None of that has come to pass, but I am working towards the degree again. My jobs also feel like failures because I've had so many as of late, nothing long term works out.

But I will find a way dammit.


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Toys are hereby declared:
ILLEGAL
IMMORAL
UNLAWFUL
 anyone found with a TOY in his possession will be
placed under ARREST and thrown in the DUNGEON!
No kidding!               ๐Ÿ…ฑ
I felt that 2019 was the year for me where things just didn't work out. When I was younger I expected to be in a very different place in life. Having a family possibly, living elsewhere, with a good job and degree. None of that has come to pass, but I am working towards the degree again. My jobs also feel like failures because I've had so many as of late, nothing long term works out.

But I will find a way dammit.
This seems to be a much more common trend among Y/Zoomers, I'm finding.


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Toys are hereby declared:
ILLEGAL
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 anyone found with a TOY in his possession will be
placed under ARREST and thrown in the DUNGEON!
No kidding!               ๐Ÿ…ฑ
the number one thing that held myself back was myself. i was afraid to make the changes i needed. im still afraid, but im learning to confront my fear more and more. and its paying off
After my experience in Germany, I realized this, too.  I mean, yeah a lot of things ended up being a waiting game that either never happened or still haven't.  But what I've found is that even tho I know what I need to do to better myself and to become independent, but it really seems like my mom has and is trying her damnedest to let that happen, and I'm to guilt ridden to just up and leave her, because I guess I'm more afraid that she won't be able to take care of herself or something.  Like when I was away in Berlin for 4 months, she called me everyday.  The only day she didnt, the very next day she asked why I didnt call.


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I felt that 2019 was the year for me where things just didn't work out. When I was younger I expected to be in a very different place in life. Having a family possibly, living elsewhere, with a good job and degree. None of that has come to pass, but I am working towards the degree again. My jobs also feel like failures because I've had so many as of late, nothing long term works out.

But I will find a way dammit.
hey thats the spirit! things rarely work out as planned, especially once you start building up grand ideas and scenarios in your head.

the best mindset is what youve got - keep on trying regardless. just cause u aint there now doesnt mean u never will be, and u got time


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the number one thing that held myself back was myself. i was afraid to make the changes i needed. im still afraid, but im learning to confront my fear more and more. and its paying off
After my experience in Germany, I realized this, too.  I mean, yeah a lot of things ended up being a waiting game that either never happened or still haven't.  But what I've found is that even tho I know what I need to do to better myself and to become independent, but it really seems like my mom has and is trying her damnedest to let that happen, and I'm to guilt ridden to just up and leave her, because I guess I'm more afraid that she won't be able to take care of herself or something.  Like when I was away in Berlin for 4 months, she called me everyday.  The only day she didnt, the very next day she asked why I didnt call.

interesting. im glad you want to move forward and know what you have to do. i knew deep down for a while i needed to make changes but always just kinda ignored it and deludedly thought things would just get better and work out without me actively trying to help myself.

confused about the mom situation though... u mentioned that a bit in my new years thread too.

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my mom has and is trying her damnedest to let that happen

she is or isnt? from the other stuff youve said it sounds like shes trying to hold you back... unless she is supportive of you pursuing your career/school but is just really emotionally attached.

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I'm more afraid that she won't be able to take care of herself

...or its a health issue?

if its not too personal, elaborate