So I was thinking about how I don't truly enjoy anything. I was laying on my couch in the sun room just browsing tumblr on my phone and the quaintness of staring at a small screen with the sun beams gently warming me and resting on the part of my face that wasn't blocking them with the pillow. I don't even have to ask myself "why bother" or "what's the fucking point" when I am just relaxing. When I am doing literally anything else all I am asking myself is what is the fucking point. I honestly feel very emotionless about a lot of stuff and that simple quaint little experience on the couch tops anything I have felt in a long time. I feel like a lot of people feel the stress of working but a lot of people aren't harmed by it. They go about their day to day business and they just bounce back. For me the more I go to school and do any sort of stuff like that the more dead I feel on the inside and the more I long for some quaint little comfort. The feeling of coming home from school as a kid and just watching television for hours. The care free sort of mindset that I can't get now because everything I think and feel is linked to some sort of existential crisis.

Working helps keep me distracted.

that's really interesting. you don't say. I am impressed by this story. If you don't mind me saying, I find your life fascinating. Do me a favor and never change. I like you so much the way you are right now. You are just a ray of sunshine, yes. I am so glad you said this because that brings new perspective. damn, I feel renewed, refreshed, invigorated.

Quote from: ghoostby on January 28, 2015, 03:38:35 PM

Working helps keep me distracted.

that's really interesting. you don't say. I am impressed by this story. If you don't mind me saying, I find your life fascinating. Do me a favor and never change. I like you so much the way you are right now. You are just a ray of sunshine, yes. I am so glad you said this because that brings new perspective. damn, I feel renewed, refreshed, invigorated.

did you want my autobiography or something you fucking faggot?
You said working and going to school makes you feel lifeless, I reply saying that it keeps me distracted. Ok I could have clarified and said that working and going school for me is the exact opposite as it keeps me distracted and gives me somewhat a purpose but you should have just asked me to elaborate. i'm not going to post something if i don't feel like it's necessary.

Quote from: Loaf on January 28, 2015, 03:40:22 PM

Quote from: ghoostby on January 28, 2015, 03:38:35 PM

Working helps keep me distracted.

that's really interesting. you don't say. I am impressed by this story. If you don't mind me saying, I find your life fascinating. Do me a favor and never change. I like you so much the way you are right now. You are just a ray of sunshine, yes. I am so glad you said this because that brings new perspective. damn, I feel renewed, refreshed, invigorated.

did you want my autobiography or something you fucking faggot?
You said working and going to school makes you feel lifeless, I reply saying that it keeps me distracted. Ok I could have clarified and said that working and going school for me is the exact opposite as it keeps me distracted and gives me somewhat a purpose but you should have just asked me to elaborate. i'm not going to post something if i don't feel like it's necessary.

whoa chill I was trying to be positive.

you sound like a bonafide school shooter.

Pot, meet kettle.

Quote from: SecondClass on January 28, 2015, 03:46:15 PM

Quote from: Loaf on January 28, 2015, 03:44:44 PM

you sound like a bonafide school shooter.

Pot, meet kettle.

omg such a cute little edge master. I want to pinch your cheeks.

I am pretty goddamn adorable.

Come come to my mountaintop monk monastery I will teach you my ways, you will find the meaning of the something you forgot long ago by exploring and winding through the catacombs of your young, thriving, dying soul

Actually, yes, the idea of working does make me panic.  I can't bear to think about working unproductively day in and day out.  That's not how I work.