100% out of spite

if it doesn't start to "feel good" as everyone told me it would by january 1st (it doesn't feel good at all, i do not feel happier, i do not feel more "confident"), my new year's resolution will be to quit and start only doing things that i want to do, period

Lets see the physique

fortunately i know better now than to post pictures of myself on a public forum containing people i do not trust, so i'm afraid you'll have to take my word for it

i don't look impressive or muscular, because that wasn't my goal, but objectively speaking i'm in better shape than i've been in my life. i was told this alone would give me a "boost" to my mental health, but it hasn't done a goddamn thing, i'm just as miserable as ever except now i waste an hour of my life at the gym 4 days a week when i could be playing street fighter

Look at it this way, you don’t do drugs or drink alcohol as far as I’m concerned. I remember you saying you don’t do any of that. You’re already in better shape than majority of the US. I’d say that’s something to be proud of.