Quote from: Icy on January 23, 2015, 03:45:52 PM

I don't think you should delete your account. If anything, have Cheat make the password something completely random - so you cannot log back in until you decide it's time.

But it's up to you.

I'd agree with this.
If you ever change your mind and decide you want to come back say...a year or two later and the forum's still going, then wouldn't it be nice to have your old account?

No. My account means nothing. I'm the poster behind the account. I could take any name and it would still be me.

Quote from: Rocketman287 on January 23, 2015, 03:24:20 AM

Don't do this Sandtrap. Ignore all the drama man, just keep talking with those whom you call friends.
Don't nuke your account over this crap.

It's not the drama. These sites are part of an old life. An old chapter in my life that harkons back to different days.

The reality is, I can't relieve those days. I can't re-experience what I had in those days. And clinging to these places is just becoming a hinderance on my time.

It's becoming a hinderance to me in my current fragile emotional state, which, in order to fix and fight, I need to move on with my life. In order to move on with my life, it's time that I let the past go and all the old wounds that came with it.

Why do you insist on being unnecessarily cryptic?

Why are you always so over the top?

Quote from: Meta Cognition on January 23, 2015, 04:12:39 PM

Quote from: RC on January 23, 2015, 04:11:37 PM

Why do you insist on being unnecessarily cryptic?

Cancer.

I know that

I was trying to be funny, not present a genuine answer.

Quote from: RC on January 23, 2015, 04:11:37 PM

Quote from: Sandtrap on January 23, 2015, 03:27:05 AM

Quote from: Rocketman287 on January 23, 2015, 03:24:20 AM

Don't do this Sandtrap. Ignore all the drama man, just keep talking with those whom you call friends.
Don't nuke your account over this crap.

It's not the drama. These sites are part of an old life. An old chapter in my life that harkons back to different days.

The reality is, I can't relieve those days. I can't re-experience what I had in those days. And clinging to these places is just becoming a hinderance on my time.

It's becoming a hinderance to me in my current fragile emotional state, which, in order to fix and fight, I need to move on with my life. In order to move on with my life, it's time that I let the past go and all the old wounds that came with it.

Why do you insist on being unnecessarily cryptic?

I wasn't aware that was cryptic. But okay. Let's re-word it for ya. This place, and Bungle, are part of my life. They take time out of it. Time that is precious and could be used to do other things. Time has changed me and I am not the same person I was a few years ago.

But I'm stubborn. I cling to shit long past it's due date. These forums, this part of my life. I am depressed. And I'm making a conscious effort to fight that off as hard as I can. And when I keep coming back here because of my yearning sense for nostalgia, it doesn't help me.

It wastes my time. And most of all, it fuels my depression. The shittier aspects of the community. The relative anonimity. I can vent about all the shit on my end and that's bad. Because it opens up my head to dark, shitty, depressive thoughts, and gets me all tangled up in feeling shitty, looking for a shoulder to lean on, and wanting an escape when there is none to be found here.

So I give this last piece of the old me up. I get up, and I move on with my life. I get up and fight and I do it alone because that's how it's done. And I've outgrown these places. It's just simply time to move on is all.

That makes more sense, thank you. I would have personally put that in the OP, but whatever. Good luck.

Why are you always so over the top?

You know that's a good question. I guess it comes with being a writer. Writers feed off drama and events. Writers feed off of things in their lives. It's their source of fuel for writing.

And if you're a good writer, a good teller of stories, then you learn to make words fit that spark emotion. And since you're a writer, anything is possible in your stories. Stories wouldn't be any fun if they didn't have conflict or high emotions and tension or drama.

And I guess it rubs off into things when I get all touchy feely bullshit.

Because let's face it. I've been in this community for a long time. 4-5 years on a known account and a good few more as a lurker. Giving this up ain't all sunshine and bunnies considering it's a routine and a pat of my life.

When I wake up tomorrow, suddenly, I won't be coming back here. It'll be over and dead, completely. This community is a lot of memories to me. It's friends, experiences, good days, and bad days. I'm a stubborn, sentimental son of a bitch is what.

So I'm over the top because I'm going to miss this. Be nostalgiac about it. And I'm having one last crap shoot to talk with people about whatever they feel like. Because that's what originally made this community.

New faces, new experiences, new ways of looking at things. My last day ought to be nice here, no?

Quote from: Sandtrap on January 23, 2015, 04:27:32 PM

Quote from: gooootsby on January 23, 2015, 04:16:10 PM

Why are you always so over the top?

You know that's a good question. I guess it comes with being a writer. Writers feed off drama and events. Writers feed off of things in their lives. It's their source of fuel for writing.

And if you're a good writer, a good teller of stories, then you learn to make words fit that spark emotion. And since you're a writer, anything is possible in your stories. Stories wouldn't be any fun if they didn't have conflict or high emotions and tension or drama.

And I guess it rubs off into things when I get all touchy feely bullshit.

Because let's face it. I've been in this community for a long time. 4-5 years on a known account and a good few more as a lurker. Giving this up ain't all sunshine and bunnies considering it's a routine and a pat of my life.

When I wake up tomorrow, suddenly, I won't be coming back here. It'll be over and dead, completely. This community is a lot of memories to me. It's friends, experiences, good days, and bad days. I'm a stubborn, sentimental son of a bitch is what.

So I'm over the top because I'm going to miss this. Be nostalgiac about it. And I'm having one last crap shoot to talk with people about whatever they feel like. Because that's what originally made this community.

New faces, new experiences, new ways of looking at things. My last day ought to be nice here, no?

I just feel like you're being too dramatic although like you said maybe it's because you're a writer. Take a break from this place, have cheat ban your account for 2 weeks or so and come back. You'd be surprised, you'll actually feel better. I know I did when I took a break from here.

Either way I enjoyed your presence so should you decide to leave I guess this is good bye. Good luck Sandtrap.

Trust me. I've taken breaks away from here. I come back to it impulsively. You could call it a borderline addiction. When you want to change your life, and you want to break free of things that hurt you but you're addicted or caught in a daily routine, you don't half ass things.

You put your foot down, right there, and you stop. The only way to stop myself from coming back here and going all loopy with my already loopy head in the shit state it's in right now, is to call it quits in one shot. And I know myself.

If I found the strength to force myself outta here for a few weeks, I'd fall right into the trap again. And I say no more.