Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 01, 2014, 10:56:50 PM

I got a letter saying that my financial aid has been reinstated. I'm going to get my aid.

See? Things will get better Deci. You just have to hang in there and get your degree. Then, you'll be able to get out and do what you actually want to do. You can make something great of your life.

I suppose so.

Honestly do you still feel kind of empty inside with no end in sight. Like lost. Cause if you do i really do not want to see you giving up on life. It may sounds stupid for me, to care for a stranger, but still you are a member of our forums and honestly kind of like a second family. If you still feel there are problems just tell us.

I know a bit about how you feel. I can tell you that not a night goes by where I don't ask myself if I should kill myself. It's just a trudge to find something better and I can't say If I or you will find something that you enjoy. I can't say anything because it isn't my place to do so but look out for something you enjoy even if it's something very small. I know that I have to make the first move to get myself out of the shit I have put myself in but there are people out there who you can look for help. I have a couple friends who have been helping me, you might want to look towards any close friends you have.

I know you don't like me Deci, but I feel the same way. Not as bad as you, I was fortunate enough that my parents were well off, but it made me spoiled. I was bullied and called names from middle school to high school; felt like an outcast as well. Excluded from things from people who I thought were my friend. I'm going through what you are, I don't know what to do anymore. I've done nothing for five months since graduating and it doesn't feel good, so you're not alone. I don't know what keeps me going. I'm a 22 year old with only three months of work experience. I'm a freaking spoiled brat and that's why I feel lost in life, I never had to fully provide for myself.

I know you don't like me Deci, but I feel the same way. Not as bad as you, I was fortunate enough that my parents were well off, but it made me spoiled. I was bullied and called names from middle school to high school; felt like an outcast as well. Excluded from things from people who I thought were my friend. I'm going through what you are, I don't know what to do anymore. I've done nothing for five months since graduating and it doesn't feel good, so you're not alone. I don't know what keeps me going. I'm a 22 year old with only three months of work experience. I'm a freaking spoiled brat and that's why I feel lost in life, I never had to fully provide for myself.

At least you're better off than I am.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 03, 2014, 04:55:45 AM

Quote from: Scorch on October 02, 2014, 09:56:29 PM

What city in socal?

Glendale.

What the hell? You're right in LA. I'd kill to live there.

I hate it here. It sucks. Trust me there is nothing fun about it. I want to leave.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 03, 2014, 05:37:37 PM

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Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 03, 2014, 04:45:01 PM

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Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 03, 2014, 04:55:45 AM

Quote from: Scorch on October 02, 2014, 09:56:29 PM

What city in socal?

Glendale.

What the hell? You're right in LA. I'd kill to live there.

I hate it here. It sucks. Trust me there is nothing fun about it. I want to leave.

Dude you're in LA. One of the best cities on the planet. Move to a different area of you don't like it, but it's pretty damn good.

You closer to the hills or what?

For the record I don't live in LA. Glendale may fall under LA county, but it's still it's own city.

Can't you just move?

No. It's not as easy as it sounds. As of right now I am stuck here.

You live in California? Just get a medical marijuana card.

Quote from: DAS B00T x2 on October 01, 2014, 09:17:41 PM

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 01, 2014, 09:10:00 PM

Quote from: Septy on October 01, 2014, 09:08:05 PM

Move to a city.

Are towns and cities not the same thing? If not, I am in a city, and this city sucks.

You're in a city and you can't find things to do?

That's correct. There is literally nothing good here anymore. My local video game store is even closing down so I can't even get rare deals or find rare items anymore.

I'd watch a movie but I don't have any friends that would want to go and the theaters half the time get crowded or the movie sucks. That or some idiot has his cellphone on.

The mall is shit. Used to be okay but now it's just shit. I'd go on but I think you'd get the point. After 21 years this place is really going downhill. I'd go far to another city mainly the one that is close to mine to see if it's mall still has it's local Arcade open (Arcades are dying btw) but it's too much of an effort really.

You don't live in Panama City, Florida do you? You basically described my hometown.

I luckily got a job, but during high school everyone always talked about leaving this place.

I think LA is about as good as it gets.

I think LA is about as good as it gets.

I strongly disagree.

Quote from: Decimator Omega on October 01, 2014, 09:00:44 PM

I'm beginning to lose it. I have over a million things to think about in my life and I can never rest because of it. I'm not even a busy person so to speak.

It's the same shit for me everyday. Nothing but getting on the internet. There is nothing new in my life. My town sucks, the people living in my town suck and there is nothing fun to do here, and having to put up with this crummy place since the day I was born makes me regret being alive if I can't even get off the ground and support my own ass by leaving.

I remember why I used the internet to escape. Sadly it's a false escape. I just feel like I'm in limbo the entire time. Nothing ever seems to fracking change no matter what I try to do.

This bit is the same for me so I can empathize. Leaving your home town rarely works though. Anywhere can be shitty.

I'm sure there are places better than here.