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May, June, July, August, September, October, November, December, January.

Been stuck to a hospital bed for 8 months. 9 if I can beat January. More I think about it the more it gets to me. I've been here for 8 months. I've done nothing. I wake up when the staff show up. I wake up when I'm in discomfort. I sleep. That's about it. I've grown fed up of watching TV. Whatever I could do previously is tough now because I'm doing it with only one arm.

I know the reality of this. It'll take years to get out of here. I'm not even through treatment yet. This is just a pause to let me recover before things go again. The amount of physical therapy it's going to take to get me back to what I was before coming in here is anybody's guess.

I appreciate everything that the staff have done here for me. Believe me I appreciate what's been given by other people to keep me alive. Literal blood and bone. But I would be lying if I said there wasn't a part of me that wants to just close my eyes and hope that I don't wake up to one more day of this.

I don't even know how I'm suppossed to deal with months to years of this. And I know that none of you here have anything to offer for help let alone anything you can likely even say. But, being here like this is getting to me.


 
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It's not much, but if you're interested in prosthetics at all you could possibly be on the front line for testing with those robotic arms that are wired to your nervous system.

That would be kind of neat to do in my opinion.

Sure right now might suck, but your situation has also opened the door to new opportunities that weren't available to you before.
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It's not much, but if you're interested in prosthetics at all you could possibly be on the front line for testing with those robotic arms that are wired to your nervous system.

That would be kind of neat to do in my opinion.

Pun intended, that's something beyond my reach. Wound isn't even healed yet and it'd likely be massively dangerous to attempt any kind of procedure like that while still dealing with both cancer and chemo. If it were a possibility it's about as far away as me walking on my own two feet with no aid.


 
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It's not much, but if you're interested in prosthetics at all you could possibly be on the front line for testing with those robotic arms that are wired to your nervous system.

That would be kind of neat to do in my opinion.

Pun intended, that's something beyond my reach. Wound isn't even healed yet and it'd likely be massively dangerous to attempt any kind of procedure like that while still dealing with both cancer and chemo. If it were a possibility it's about as far away as me walking on my own two feet with no aid.

Yeah, I wasn't thinking it would be something that you would do right now. It was more of something you could look into when you fully recover if that kind of thing interested you at all.


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It's not much, but if you're interested in prosthetics at all you could possibly be on the front line for testing with those robotic arms that are wired to your nervous system.

That would be kind of neat to do in my opinion.

Pun intended, that's something beyond my reach. Wound isn't even healed yet and it'd likely be massively dangerous to attempt any kind of procedure like that while still dealing with both cancer and chemo. If it were a possibility it's about as far away as me walking on my own two feet with no aid.

Yeah, I wasn't thinking it would be something that you would do right now. It was more of something you could look into when you fully recover if that kind of thing interested you at all.

Maybe. Personally I was thinking of something more durable. I've an inkling that those robotic ones can't handle a chainsaw with the neccessary strength or finesse.

Non robo would at list have the strength.


 
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I appreciate everything that the staff have done here for me. Believe me I appreciate what's been given by other people to keep me alive. Literal blood and bone. But I would be lying if I said there wasn't a part of me that wants to just close my eyes and hope that I don't wake up to one more day of this.

I don't know what to say, really. There's nothing really that would help, I guess.

That and we never really got to interact much


 
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This is not the greatest sig in the world, no. This is just a tribute.
Just get yourself one of those cool grippy claws bro. I bet they're great for masturbating  cause you've got your options for temperature play right there.


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It's not much, but if you're interested in prosthetics at all you could possibly be on the front line for testing with those robotic arms that are wired to your nervous system.

That would be kind of neat to do in my opinion.

Pun intended, that's something beyond my reach. Wound isn't even healed yet and it'd likely be massively dangerous to attempt any kind of procedure like that while still dealing with both cancer and chemo. If it were a possibility it's about as far away as me walking on my own two feet with no aid.

Yeah, I wasn't thinking it would be something that you would do right now. It was more of something you could look into when you fully recover if that kind of thing interested you at all.

Maybe. Personally I was thinking of something more durable. I've an inkling that those robotic ones can't handle a chainsaw with the neccessary strength or finesse.

Non robo would at list have the strength.
That's not true at all but whatever.

Guess I'll have something to look into.


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Just get yourself one of those cool grippy claws bro. I bet they're great for masturbating  cause you've got your options for temperature play right there.

I don't got to worry about that one though.