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The Flood / Re: not to be political« on: August 06, 2021, 08:20:25 PM »
I don't even know why I log in most the time tbh
Spoiler Besides the occasional DMs I get that make me log in, I think SC threads are probably the number one reason I don't even bother coming back anymore besides the fact that there's just absolitely nothing else worthwhile. Thinking its officially time to move on. Peace out. 3
Gaming / Re: Blizzard/Activision« on: August 02, 2021, 12:01:40 AM »what happened? all ive heard was that blizzard employees were threatening to quit, or somethingThe employees were trying to unionize so the company hired the same union busting company that Amazon used. 4
Gaming / Re: anybody want a 2 week trial for xbox game pass ult? i got 2« on: July 22, 2021, 02:00:39 PM »
I've been leeching off my roommate's windows PC for matchmaking so I wouldn't mind (can't play matchmaking or customs on linux because of EAC, really dumb) and there are a handful of other Game Pass games I wanted to try
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Gaming / Re: Tell Me Why is free on Steam and MS store for month of June« on: June 08, 2021, 08:07:52 PM »Wait, he did? Snagged it up either way because why notis it any good? i really enjoyed the first life is strange but wasnt interested in the 2nd oneDunno, haven't played. Our boy Staten worked on it though. Also my Game Pass trial just expired about an hour ago so it's back to PC for me anyway lol 6
Gaming / Re: Picked up Kingdom Hearts: The Story So Far« on: June 05, 2021, 07:01:26 PM »
So I'm currently trying to get the Ultimate Keyblade and in this game there's exactly 7 Orichalcum+ you can find, all 7 are needed to craft it. One of them you get by completing the flan heartless minigames and the cherry flan game is one of the worst things I've done in a while. Holy fucking shit.
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Gaming / Re: Picked up Kingdom Hearts: The Story So Far« on: June 02, 2021, 07:01:17 PM »I know what people say and how they think it's super important to play the filler games but I honestly couldn't give two shits. And frankly I'm glad I didn't bother.Just beat the 3rd game. Didn't bother with any of the filler between 2 and 3 because I honestly don't care, but watched a few summary vids.Yeahhhh, my Kingdom Hearts friends were ADAMANT that I avoid doing this, because it turns out that all those weird spin-offs are actually integral to the storyline, and being able to follow along with their convoluted mess of a story is meant to be super gratifying, and you're meant to forgive a lot of the dumb stuff because you've just been with these characters for so long and whatnot. I dunno. re:cry porn but in KH3 a good half of the last world in 3 was cry porn and it was really dumb I played CoM as the GBA game. For what it was, I remember it being pretty good. I'm assuming you played the remake for console, which I could never imagine translating over well. As far as the flashback stuff goes, I really think they were just cutting corners because they would've had to remodel a loooot of assets. It's really jarring to see PS2 graphics though when it's mixed with places that both have and haven't been remodeled for current gen. 8
Gaming / Re: Picked up Kingdom Hearts: The Story So Far« on: June 02, 2021, 05:36:49 PM »
Just beat the 3rd game. Didn't bother with any of the filler between 2 and 3 because I honestly don't care, but watched a few summary vids. Putting aside the obvious incomprehendable mess that is the storyline (especially the time travel bullshit), I found the boss fights extremely lacking and disappointing. In a weird way, the worlds too. Even though individual loaded areas were bigger/more expansive, which was pretty cool, it really just felt like there was so much less. Once you've traversed through an area, that was basically it for most places, there's no real reason to go back except to maybe farm resources or completion stuff. I also disabled all the extra flare animations pretty early on and avoided using the "ride attraction" abilities because it was just too much for me and they get old fast anyway. Obviously that's where they dumped a lot of their budget/development, but it really seems like the rest of the game suffered for it. Also goddamn the characters repeat the same dialogue too much during gameplay sometimes. If you thought "get up on the hydra's back" was bad...
Still managed to enjoy it despite the weird shit, bad writing, horribly awkward characters and the other things that bothered me, and I guess it could've been worse? Honestly the writing was just downright painful sometimes. Whatever, the little kid in me was happy that the game finally fucking exists. I'm still really disappointed that there weren't more good boss fights though. Almost seems like maybe the studio wasn't equipped well enough for the new engine or something. Also all the flashbacks in the old graphics, seriously? Couldn't even redo those to match the new graphics? lazy mfers Can I recommend the series to a new player? No lmfao, it's a fucking stupid convoluted mess. If you played the originals as a kid, sure. Wait for a sale or use Game Pass or whatever. But it's definitely not as good as 1 or 2. 9
The Flood / Re: Who is Jive Turkey« on: May 27, 2021, 11:56:50 PM »
someone found the jar of "special" cookies
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The Flood / Re: Let's talk« on: May 24, 2021, 05:36:27 PM »It's not like it's a stretch to say that the economy that we entered as adults is not the one our parents or grandparents entered. Most people I know are basically holding onto the hope that they'll get a good inheritance when their parents die. Millenials and zoomers are the first generations where our life expectancies are expected to go down rather than up. Things aren't exactly great, and I'm sure you know that. So it's important to look for some semblance of fulfillment wherever you can, as long as it's not destructive or whatever.Welcome to adulthood under late stage capitalism.I think I'm the most depressed I've ever been in my lifeis it the new job? Plus you never know if it'll lead to greener pastures down the line. 11
Gaming / Re: Backlog 2020« on: May 24, 2021, 04:32:48 PM »
How much would you say you've spent on games in the past year?
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The Flood / Re: How have you changed since Sep7 began?« on: May 24, 2021, 12:19:00 PM »I've since watched and, regrettably, enjoyed the Attack on Titan anime, so even I have become a weeb after all this time.smh 13
The Flood / Re: Let's talk« on: May 24, 2021, 12:16:49 PM »Welcome to adulthood under late stage capitalism.I think I'm the most depressed I've ever been in my lifeis it the new job? Consider taking up a hobby or something. It might sound frivolous, but doing something productive you enjoy, even if you don't make money from it, even if you need to learn the basics, even if you don't become the best at it, can be good for you. Bonus points if you find a community for whatever it is and involve yourself somehow. Humans are social creatures that want work that feels fulfilling, and unfortunately large swaths of the population can't get that through regular employment. If social media/smart devices have fucked your attention span, consider implementing restraints to such things. Disabling all nonessential notifications is a good start. Just my two cents. 14
The Flood / Re: Converse or Vans?« on: May 23, 2021, 11:49:40 AM »
I exclusively wore laceless converse from middle school until last year.
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The Flood / Re: How have you changed since Sep7 began?« on: May 22, 2021, 12:38:46 PM »tbh it's why I've left a few times, but I always eventually seem to wind up coming back. It's one of the few places in my entire life that has the comfort of not completely changing beyond recognition or being ripped out from my hands. For as long as it exists, there will always be familiar faces here. And it hasn't all been bad, but I do have a lot of negative associations that originated from this forum.That's why sometimes I worry about the people that vanished from this place without warning and never came back.You guys caught me at the very tail end of a major depressive episode so you didn't get to see that much of who I used to be.More or less the same case for a lot of people here. Probably why it became such a cesspool, if you think about it. This has never really been a healthy community. The whole 'getting outed' thing fucked with me on a level I hadn't anticipated. I had after all, when Sep7agon first started, been freshly dumped, a few months before that kicked out. At the time I was relatively safe living at my friend's house, but pretty soon his parents were about to divorce and things were about to get much, much worse. I clung onto this forum as my only escape from my real life. After it was blasted across here and b.net that I was a nasty 'ol tranny that could potentially become the fun new punching bag I decided I wasn't going to let some stupid assholes take my only escape from me, but it came at the cost of a lot of really bad personality changes at such a huge developmental/turning point in my life. Since I wasn't going to let people take it from me I thought, I had to make it so that people wouldn't be able to attack me/make it look like it didn't really affect me. Not inherently a bad thing itself, but with the forum entering one of its most toxic phases that meant me joining if not initiating the bullying towards other people. I'd justified to myself that I'd never initiate without them first provoking me, but nonetheless I was still complicit in cruelty towards others. I will never change my opinion that the Anarchy board destroyed a lot of things here. Being the first publicly known/confirmed trans person of the community, by force or not, also led to the endless long Serious threads full of arguing the legitimacy of trans people as a whole. Around the time a number of people came out to me privately in PMs, eventually some publicly of their own volition. But the endless long threads had always felt extremely targeted regardless of if they were or not, and the endless arguing over whether me or people like me were really real, if my experience was really legitimate... well it really really fucked with me on an extremely deep level when I was already juggling fresh trauma from multiple other sources. I felt compelled to try to justify my own existence, retain what little bit of acceptance I could hold onto. Compounded with my experiences in real life losing everything I had ever cared about- this turned into a violent hatred of not necessarily myself, but what I was. Intrusive thoughts about how being trans ruined my life, hating being trans evolved into disgust, especially towards people who didn't do everything they could to blend in and be "normal", hatred of people who seemed to enjoy being trans while I was working for organizations like fucking Pride. Was the hundreds of hours of volunteering all just a massive cope? Down the line this all led me to becoming an extremely bitter, miserable, and isolated person. The isolation is probably what destroyed me the most. I'd cut myself off from most of my IRL networks I'd built up on blood and sweat and burnt out hard. I've spent most of my life even from a younger age in a never-ending state of self reflection, on a quest for self improvement. Isolation has long been something that encompasses much of my life. But my time spent here has been during the darkest part of my history in more ways than one, and has made me do and say things I deeply regret. Not that I'm sure of what any of the alternatives were. I was not mentally equipped to handle the scenario that was thrown at me here, and many (not all) of the others who surrounded me at the time were just as unstable or had questionable leanings. While I resented "giving them what they want" and just leaving my only escape from life, perhaps that would've been the best solution. But I don't know. Despite everything though, even with this place being as slow as it is now with not much of interest to come back to, I always seem to regardless. Even when I told myself that I wouldn't really be missed. Currently the trials presented to me in life are more physical, involving multiple long recoveries. Been taking the opportunity to sort myself out through this process since I've had a lot of fucking downtime, even with covid aside. I'd spent so much of my life yearning for the acceptance of others that I neglected it from the most important source: myself. I conjured up a self hatred that I reframed as "I don't hate me, just this disgusting life destroying thing I am that I don't even want to be to begin with" and that has probably been the most difficult thing to confront. Still working in it, really. This turned a bit longer than I anticipated. While I wrote this I started visualizing all the ways people would've responded about how I'm just being a whiny cunt who can't take the bants. Figures. 16
Gaming / Re: Day one Vault of Glass« on: May 21, 2021, 04:12:49 PM »
VoG was the only good thing about D1 at launch, and there was no buildup to the level of challenge it presented. Beat it twice and never played it again, 'cause it sorta spelled out how they'd handle the rest of the franchise. It's a real shame/bummer, but what can ya do.
Technically I do have a Game Pass Ultimate trial right now but I'm not sure it's worth downloading. 17
The Flood / Re: How have you changed since Sep7 began?« on: May 21, 2021, 04:03:27 PM »You guys caught me at the very tail end of a major depressive episode so you didn't get to see that much of who I used to be.More or less the same case for a lot of people here. Probably why it became such a cesspool, if you think about it. This has never really been a healthy community. 18
The Flood / Re: I Don't Get Why Everyone Doesn't Just Kill Themselves« on: May 19, 2021, 11:27:17 AM »So do it for the people who put effort into your existence, or do it to spite them is what you're saying. Just to be crystal clear- not suicidal myself and I haven't been for a long as time at this point, but just felt like making the distinction where 'people who brought you into the world care about you' just doesn't apply.Okay but that's kind of bullshit if that situation doesn't apply to you. What about people who are kicked out and disowned by their family? What if all of someone's family died? What if they assaulted/abused you? Not that I'm saying that someone in that situation should OD, but rather that notion of importance over effort of the people who gave the effort if they don't want anything to do with you anymore or if they're all just dead.I have to add that she OD'd by accident and had no intention of going out. I more or less agree though, persisting to spite people has long been a personal motivator. Volunteering a fuckton for a sense of purpose was also something I did for quite a few years. I think it's an extremely positive outlet for such a situation. 19
The Flood / Re: I Don't Get Why Everyone Doesn't Just Kill Themselves« on: May 18, 2021, 04:38:13 PM »
Okay but that's kind of bullshit if that situation doesn't apply to you. What about people who are kicked out and disowned by their family? What if all of someone's family died? What if they assaulted/abused you? Not that I'm saying that someone in that situation should OD, but rather that notion of importance over effort of the people who gave the effort if they don't want anything to do with you anymore or if they're all just dead.
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The Flood / Re: I Don't Get Why Everyone Doesn't Just Kill Themselves« on: May 18, 2021, 10:36:32 AM »
Why give up now after getting this far? Giving up is for pussies.
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Serious / Re: President Trump and the 2020 Election« on: May 13, 2021, 04:26:32 PM »
I still can't believe that a bunch of dinosaur-ass boomers who barely know how to use facebook started unironically worshiping a tripfag
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The Flood / Re: How have you changed since Sep7 began?« on: May 13, 2021, 04:23:20 PM »Technically looking at a screen up close too much might be the reason why in the first placemy eyesight got worse 23
The Flood / Re: How have you changed since Sep7 began?« on: May 11, 2021, 05:02:01 PM »my eyesight got worse YouTube 24
The Flood / Re: How have you changed since Sep7 began?« on: May 11, 2021, 02:54:30 AM »
my eyesight got worse
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The Flood / Re: Ask me stuff« on: January 28, 2021, 11:46:57 AM »probably because you can't rely on autoaim playing the game for youAlso this forum is just one big conglomerate of mental illness.good 'ol fashioned island of misfit toys 26
The Flood / Re: Dogecoin just hit $0.01« on: January 28, 2021, 11:45:19 AM »So how did everyone enjoy Hedge Fund investors getting absolutely BTFOed over the last week? Melvin Capital reportedly lost at least $5.05 BILLION. 27
The Flood / Re: Ask me stuff« on: January 26, 2021, 10:53:18 PM »Also this forum is just one big conglomerate of mental illness.good 'ol fashioned island of misfit toys but what else would you expect from a group of people posting on a traditional style online forum in current year 29
Serious / Re: The 59th Presidential Inauguration« on: January 22, 2021, 12:37:06 AM »I like these new bernie coat memes 30
Serious / Re: Donald Trump impeached (again)« on: January 19, 2021, 01:28:15 PM »I think it's debatable for different reasons. He's got the clown factor going pretty strong though, and he's completely delegitimized the US and destroyed decades of compromises and agreements; though to be fair, global opinion had already been plummeting for a while- but Trump has certainly enshrined the name on the tombstone.Definitely worst president of modern times for sure.Worst of America, probably. Not worst out of all in modern times though |