I'm posting this in the Serious board because this isn't a joke. I post this in Flood and I'm harassed up the ass for it.
Its not set in stone, but it can happen. Whoever takes this account would also mean that I won't be able to come back on anything anymore. Of course I'll be removing the email and my current password from this account before it gets bought. If that ever does happen.
"Why not give it away?"
1. Too easy
2. I get nothing out of it for being a meme, harassed and ridiculed for who I am and no longer valued as a person.
These alts have really been pushing it lately. Also, I don't think account selling is against the rules, but this is how it would work:
You pay for it now via paypal. Once its processed and I'm able to get the money, the account is yours.
After that you can do whatever the fuck you want with it, I would have your money by this point and would have left the site since I wouldn't have the intention to make another account.
If no one wants to buy it, I suppose I could just end up giving it to Cheat and he could have this account be an alt of his like Foman and the others. I'm tired of the constant shit I get on here from these alt accounts. It was tolerable at first, now its turning into harassment.
Btw, starting bid for this account is $800. If you want to pretend to be me that badly, that's how much I'm willing to sell it for. Gotta pay off that debt somehow right?
Its a shame really. This is such a nice looking and functional website. Too bad the community is pretty much a cesspit with stupid shit such as "KYS" and so called "Memes" which don't really exist outside of the site and nothing but constant shitposting.
This website itself, despite all the hard work that Cheat put into it, isn't even worth $4,000. With the current community devaluing the website, its worth $1.
Like I said, I MIGHT sell this account. Doesn't mean I'm going to go with it. I'm just tired of being treated like a complete circus monkey, by people bringing up past shit and having alts like JebBush constantly fuck with me to the point that its not really an enjoyable place anymore.
Yes, I fucked up a lot in the past, there's so much shit that I have done here where I am 110% at fault for how I turned out to the community, and I am well aware that nothing can fix this. I would attempt to break this so called cycle in hopes that I could still stay, but the community is divided on what it wants me to do
They either want me to leave for good, or they want me to stay but only in their interest to fuck with me and to get me to explode because people get a kick out of it here when I get frustrated with others. Nobody gives 2 fucks with what kind of threads I create, all they want me to do is either to go away forever or to get mad and give them an all caps post with exclamation marks and tag it as explosion imminent.
"Don't take it seriously, don't give a fuck"
I don't think you seem to understand if this is what you conclude to after reading this far, if you're even reading it. There are certain lines that do need to be drawn, I have a tolerance of how much I am able to not give a fuck, soon as that threshold is past, with JebBush for example pestering me in nearly every thread, I kinda do need to give a fuck. I've gone far enough now to completely turn off notifications, used True Mute again which I haven't used in ages, and Jeb ends up making threads just to get my attention. Its become rather pointless, so I gave up with True Mute all together now.
Out of all of the threads I've made, I'm not regretting making this one, because this does need to stop. I want to keep coming here, I've already embraced being a meme, but I don't want to be a personal circus monkey to everyone, and that's what I feel like here. I'm not valued as a person, I'm not considered intelligent to many, and I'm also considered dishonest to several here, if that's even true.
"But Deci, if all of that shit gets to you, why the fuck are you here you fucking autist?"
Like I said before, this is a nice looking and functional website, had Bungie not created Destiny and redid their website, this website wouldn't exist. I like the ranks that exist, the fact that you can rank up, I like to collect nameplates, I'm quite an achievement hunter if it grabs interest to me, and this place does, why else would I join? To many of you its just a dysfunctional backwater forum, but I at least see some potential in it that can make it a large website like Newgrounds at some point. The problem is nobody cares to go that far and turn it into something amazing. Everyone would rather just shitpost and demean others, and make alt accounts.
I can't change the way I am. I've tried, many times, and successfully that alts have gotten me to revert back. Like I said, I have a threshold with how much I can handle, and I'm tired of taking breaks and coming back only to have the same shit happen over and over again.
I don't want to be in this cycle anymore, but apparently the community still wants me to be because they get a kick out of it, or they want me banned for good. Clearly there can't be a middle ground.
All I have to say is this. If I have to leave the website because nobody wants me around as a person and they only want me around just so they can treat me like their own personal circus monkey that's worth absolutely nothing to most people, and the rest want me banned "for my own good" because I apparently have no chance at redemption to many, I at least want to leave with something for being here for the last 3 years.
Personally, I don't want to leave, but if people here really want to get rid of one of the last most active users on the site because he isn't quality at all, I at least want something in return, hence why I think selling my account is a good idea.
If you have a better idea I'd love to read it. Again, selling my account isn't set in stone. This is all on paper right now.
It takes two to break a cycle. Me, and this community. I can't break it alone.
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