Okay. So I've been thinking about a lot of shit today and before I get into any more details on all of this I was asking myself why I started posting on reddit about all of this stuff going on with my mom. Like I'd said in my original post, I'd always had fantasies about her but after seeing her profile and pics online, it's like everything surfaced up to the top. All the fantasies. I had never even seen this subreddit but was on r/milf and someone commented on a post that it was bordering on incest and they linked here. This was like 3 days after I saw my mom's pics online and here I am. I think the reason I've been posting all of this is simply for myself. Almost like a journal. I had no idea where this would all go and still don't, even after last night and today, but figured if I could just anonymously get my experience out, it might help me in some way. I didn't really do it to get feedback even though I knew I would and I know I'm not the only dude that's had this fantasy and that me posting about all this is a good read so I get all of that. I wasn't sure how long I'd keep posting or if I would if something big happened but something happened and I'm still here.
So, last night. And today. I went to a party to watch some football last night. Game sucked, we lost. After it was over it was pretty early and people were starting to ramp things up. During the game I'd been pretty much into the scene and the game and not thinking about all that's gone on this past week but when the game was over my mind kept wandering. I hung out for a couple of hours and then me and a bud went to get something to eat. I told him I was gonna take off so I drove him back to the party and then I went home. Not sure what time it was, maybe 10 or 10:30. I came in, turned on the tv and heard my mom walking around upstairs so I just went to the bottom of the stairs and told her I was home. She opened her bedroom door, said hi, heard about the game, sorry etc. She was her usual self, cheerful and kinda doing the "i'm sorry you guys lost honey" thing. So she goes back in her room and I'm watching tv. After maybe 15 minutes I turned it off and I put my headphones on and listen to some music and I'm just on the laptop. So I don't know what time it was but I'm pretty tired so I head upstairs after awhile. I'm coming up the stairs and I know I'm hearing my mom using her vibrator but she obviously heard me so all of a sudden it stops. I go in my room, shut the door and I'm like, fuck! I want this so bad and I know she is horny right fucking now and based on everything, she's probably thinking about ME.
So I wait a few minutes, actually probably like 10 minutes and I open my door really slow. I take my shoes off and walk down the hall and yep, she's going at it. So I'm standing there. I go back to my door, quietly close it and then open it again and do this cough, clearing my throat thing and I hear her turn off the vibrator. I walk over to her room and knock on the door and say "mom can I come in?". She's like, "hang on sweetie, just a sec". I'm like fuck it so I open her door. She's sort of fumbling around but she's in bed, under the covers and reading a People magazine or something. She says I thought you were asleep. I just stand there and I'm fucking shaking. I mean my legs literally feel like they're gonna give out and I said, "Can I watch?" She says, "what"? Not what like what did you say. What like "what do you want to watch". So I said, "can i watch you mom"?
She looks at me for a second and tells me to turn off the light on the ceiling fan. I go over to her nightstand, grab the remote and turn it off so now the only light is her nightstand lamp. So I'm standing there, this literaly all took like 30 seconds. She puts down the mag, she's kinda looking at me and her hands go under the covers, move around and she turns on the vibrator. She has a big chair near her bed so I sit down and she has her eyes closed, her head is turned away from me and she's doing it. My fucking heart is ready to explode and my fucking cock is bigger than it's ever been and throbbing like a motherfucker. I'm just wearing a pair of nike warm ups and a t shirt so the warm ups are super thin and my dick is just bulging up. My mom is kinda moving under the covers, I know she's pretty much grinding and after a minute or so she turns her head towards me and her eyes are like half open and she's looking right at me. I'm rubbing my dick, pretty much unconsiously and all of a sudden she says, "It's okay Todd, let me see". So I lift my ass up, pull down the nike's and sit back down and she is looking at my dick and just goes, "oh god" and she starts cumming. Fuck. I cannot even describe it. Seeing her staring at my dick and hearing her and watching her cum was unreal.
I want to jerk off but I know the minute I do I'm gonna cum and then what? So I'm pretty much holding my cock at the base, just squeezing the fuck out of it so of course my nuts are hanging there and the thing is practically turning purple but at least I'm not gonna cum yet. So she kind of catches her breath and is laying there and we're looking at each other. The vibrator is still going and all of a sudden rolls on her side and she reaches over to her nightstand, opens the drawer and pulls out a dildo. Fuck me I'm like high or in a dream at this point, I mean this was all like something surreal. There is nothing I can put in a reddi post that can even come close to it. I can't even describe it. So she reaches under the covers and the vibrator is still going and I know she's starting to work the dildo in. Her eyes are mostly closed so I get up, I can't take it anymore, and I pull the covers off of her. I'm standing right next to her and the crazy thing is the first thing I noticed is her pussy is shaved smooth. Her body is like a normal 43 year old woman, little bit of a tummy her tits are probably c cup and natural so they're laying flat kinda hanging to the sides. Her areolas are totally wrinkled tight and her nipples are fucking rock hard. She looks at me and moves on the bed so she's laying across it and says,"sit back down honey". I'm like are you kidding? But I sit down and she starts lifting her legs in the air with her knees bent and works the dildo all the way in. So I can't take it and I start fapping but I'm trying to keep it simmering. I'm watching her, she has the vibrator on her clit with one hand and is moving the dildo around inside her but it is fucking buried in there. Her legs are way up, her knees are up on her chest and I'm watching this thinking i'd give anything to stick my finger in her asshole that is right there in front of me.
I swear this whole thing didn't last more than 15 minutes but all of a sudden she looks down at me on the chair and goes, "oh god, i'm cumming". she is totally going off and i'm dripping cum at this point, i mean i cannot last and all of sudden she is literally bucking on the dildo, she pulls it out and is cumming and the second she pulls it out she starts squirting. i mean i've seen it on porn but i couldn't take it, she was just gushing and i'm pounding my cock and start cumming, she barely gets the word out, almost a hoarse whisper and says, "cum for me" and starts fucking herself again and i came so hard i thought i was going to die. I have never shot so much cum so far in my life. So I'm just panting, sitting there and she is still pumping herself and she cums again.
So I'm in a daze and she's laying there for a minute. We're kind of looking at each other and after a while she just gets up and goes into her bathroom. I'm sitting there with cum all over me and then she comes out, in a robe but totally open and she kneels down in front of me with a warm washcloth and wipes all the cum off of me. She gets up goes back into the bathroom, puts the towel in the hamper and comes out and at this point my head has cleared up a little and I'm thinking what the fuck do i say now??? I mean did this really actually happen? After all this? Now what? So I'm figuring I'll go back to my room I mean I was pretty confused. She walks over to me, her robe is open and even after all of that and all the "what now" shit I'm looking at her tits thinking I could get hard again right now if she'd let me fuck her. She stands in front of me holds her hands out and just says, come here and lay down. So we both lay down in bed and she'd just got her hand resting on my chest and it was probably 2 minutes and I fell asleep. I woke up one time during the night thinking I was in my own bed for a second before I realized where I was and then I fell asleep again.
I woke up this morning and my mom was laying there looking at me. Fuck, talk about feeling awkward and like what do I say now so like an idiot I just go, "hi". She smiles and says good morning. I'm just laying there on my back and like every morning, got a raging hard on but like what the fuck now?? She asks me how I slept and I said really good. She says, "sweetie, I've been laying here for over an hour thinking about all of this". "Is it right, is it wrong, is it just an oddity...what?" I go, "i know". So she says, todd, last night was the culmination of something that has been building up for a long time for both of us". So I said, well for me yeah, I know. she says, sweetie, me too. So I'm looking at her and she says, sweetie I've thought about you sexually since the first time I saw you masturbating. do you remember that, when you looked up and didn't know i was there?" So i told her of course. She tells me that she walked by my room, figured what I was doing and deliberately decided to watch. She says, "i was watching you and at first i just froze there but what really made me stop was staring at how big you were". "I've thought about it a lot since then and like I told you the other day, the other time I saw you masturbating I couldn't help but watch". So like an idiot I say something like, "um, okay". So she asks me what I'm thinking. I'm knda fumbling for words and she says, "tell me exactly what you would say on the incest reddit". So I just let it all out, "I'm thinking that last night all I wanted to do was fuck you." "I wanted you to suck my cock and I wanted to feel it in your pussy"
She says, "if this continues, what do you see happening?" "how do you see it moving forward", and I said I didnt' know. She tells me that if it continues, it's not going to be something as a regular occurence. If it happens it just happens. There will be days when one of wants to and the other one doesn't. But when the time comes "and it will" (her exact words) that one or both of us decides they are done, then it is done. She tells me she does not want or expect me to focus solely on HER for sex or a relationship and she doesn't want me to expect her not to have someone besides myself. She pretty much straight out asked me what I would think if she met a guy on the dating site and was physical with him. I told I didn't care.
So we're laying there and she pulls the covers down and starts stroking my cock. She is moaning in like 2 seconds and slides down and starts on my balls. She's sucking them and looking up at me and says, 'do you like this?". I'm like oh yeah and then she moves up and starts working on my shaft. I tell her I'm going to cum so she stops and starts kissing me. We're pretty much going at it with our tongues and she is really starting to groan. I roll her over and grab her by the waist and get her on her hands and knees and she starts arching her back and says, "fuck me". I start pushing into her pussy and we just start going at it. SHe's on all fours and her tits are swinging and i am just hammering her. She says come inside me baby and I cannot fucking hold it and I just cum and she starts grunting and pushing up against me and starts cumming and all of a sudden I feel her squirting on me. We just collapse on the bed and lay there for a while and about a half hour later she gts me hard again and fucks me while she's riding me. I lasted a lot longer and by the time I came she was done.
So at some point we got up and started the "regular" part of the day. Obviously my head was like out of body experience the whole day. She seemed totally her usual self but i'm sure she thought about it as much as I did. She went to a yoga class and I just got home from the gym and she texted that she's having dinner with my aunt so I won't see her until later. I have no idea what will happen tonight.