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« on: September 18, 2016, 09:09:43 AM »
Elegiacitis.
I hope everyone is comfortable.
602
« on: September 17, 2016, 09:10:43 PM »
makes me think of Hargbeast
603
« on: September 17, 2016, 10:54:32 AM »
you are all tentacles of the great and subtle satan, but trap me as you will, I will prove my soul is good
Describe Decimator Omega
Decimator Omega is a poster. He makes my nameplates.
604
« on: September 16, 2016, 08:05:12 PM »
Managed to get up before 11:00 today.
Satisfying.
what's up with your sleep pattern, chief?
I don't fall asleep until at least 3:00 AM.
Ah get ya. I used to be in bed around four. Drugs are a hell of a drug.
605
« on: September 16, 2016, 07:43:56 PM »
between 7 & 10 hours currently, lots of REM sleep, though with dreams I can't clearly remember, thankfully
606
« on: September 16, 2016, 07:41:40 PM »
you are all tentacles of the great and subtle satan, but trap me as you will, I will prove my soul is good
607
« on: September 16, 2016, 07:38:36 PM »
Managed to get up before 11:00 today.
Satisfying.
what's up with your sleep pattern, chief?
608
« on: September 16, 2016, 09:33:47 AM »
No my legs hurt too much, it's constantly on my mind
what's up with your legs?
think I've been working too much
yeah you must have done something with your legs
609
« on: September 16, 2016, 09:23:43 AM »
No my legs hurt too much, it's constantly on my mind
what's up with your legs?
610
« on: September 16, 2016, 07:47:07 AM »
now you're licking the rest off the spoon and listening to some of your fave music while eyeing the pretty new tea strainer you bought today, pot'll be ready in ten satisfying moments lately?
611
« on: September 16, 2016, 06:12:43 AM »
Pantheist
Most religions offer some spiritual insight and good guidance, it's an important part of the whole... being conscious, human
612
« on: September 16, 2016, 04:01:54 AM »
I have to say though, just now
porn was a mistake
613
« on: September 16, 2016, 02:08:51 AM »
I missed the boat. Still sitting here on windows 7
614
« on: September 16, 2016, 02:07:59 AM »
fart, as a word, makes me squeamish
615
« on: September 16, 2016, 02:06:29 AM »
616
« on: September 15, 2016, 07:59:17 PM »
piccolo.gif
617
« on: September 15, 2016, 07:43:54 PM »
I bought some 'Frites' sauce, to try with chips. It's not bad.
618
« on: September 15, 2016, 07:42:40 PM »
the abyss gazes back into me... ego death occurs
I was already outside the 'game' though. I'd already died many small ego deaths. But I didn't know true despair. The despair of visible determinism. Of spiritual fear with a visible object. It's forced out all my latent maturity of character. The clay is in the kiln, still.
619
« on: September 15, 2016, 07:28:19 PM »
Only one fleecy jacket now
I eat a healthy breakfast
DO YOU
620
« on: September 15, 2016, 07:27:17 PM »
I don't play in traffic
rude
meme response
I'm going to share something. The worst fucking thing. I've had a massive breakdown in reality. I'm currently not sure whether we're all real. Weird and unhealthy shit has been happening around me. Patterns of paranoia and degradation. I think I might be in my own semi-lukewarm hell for people for can't quite get into heaven when they die. And challengers 'beep beep' is a part of it. Whenever I'm standing in the backyard, approaching a state you might loosely call hopeful, at that moment a car or a truck will immediately 'beep beep' me. I've learned to stay in a flat emotional state in order to avoid it happening very often but it still happens at least once a day. Madness.
I'd apologize and try to make peace with you but you'll probably just throw it in my face.
Either way, I do apologize. But your current mental state is I'm sure more to do with the residual effects of your substance abuse and trauma from a near death experience than me posting "beep beep" on the forum.
I wouldn't throw it in your face, but I don't exactly need it now either. I've risen above. Which is why I unblocked you. Anything I experience here is a sweet, soft allusion compared to the 'reality'. I'd come off drugs when it happened. From what I've read it can happen when you do that. But the drugs- or mental illness itself- just seem a convenient excuse for the experience to lurk behind. No use rambling about it anymore for now though.
621
« on: September 15, 2016, 01:27:14 PM »
one day you'll go bowling, deci, and it will be that much sweeter
I sleep now
is the beach too much for a 2nd date
I don't wanna look like a try hard
depends on how far away it is I guess just act natural either way, ya know, I'm sure you know you're at the beach because  beach
622
« on: September 15, 2016, 01:23:53 PM »
one day you'll go bowling, deci, and it will be that much sweeter
I sleep now
623
« on: September 15, 2016, 01:05:03 PM »
I don't play in traffic
rude
meme response
I'm going to share something. The worst fucking thing. I've had a massive breakdown in reality. I'm currently not sure whether we're all real. Weird and unhealthy shit has been happening around me. Patterns of paranoia and degradation. I think I might be in my own semi-lukewarm hell for people for can't quite get into heaven when they die. And challengers 'beep beep' is a part of it. Whenever I'm standing in the backyard, approaching a state you might loosely call hopeful, at that moment a car or a truck will immediately 'beep beep' me. I've learned to stay in a flat emotional state in order to avoid it happening very often but it still happens at least once a day. Madness.
you're going to end up killing someone when you eventually decide to an hero
I'd cut my hands off first. Thanks guy. I've already told whatever it is that's after me that if it wants me dead (if I am in fact still alive) it can come and get me. I'm obviously not hard to find.
624
« on: September 15, 2016, 12:53:30 PM »
I don't play in traffic
rude
meme response
I'm going to share something. The worst fucking thing. I've had a massive breakdown in reality. I'm currently not sure whether we're all real. Weird and unhealthy shit has been happening around me. Patterns of paranoia and degradation. I think I might be in my own semi-lukewarm hell for people for can't quite get into heaven when they die. And challengers 'beep beep' is a part of it. Whenever I'm standing in the backyard, approaching a state you might loosely call hopeful, at that moment a car or a truck will immediately 'beep beep' me. I've learned to stay in a flat emotional state in order to avoid it happening very often but it still happens at least once a day. Madness.
brah I ain't even trying to get in to this
just the one-liner "rude" gets taken about as seriously as "pls no bully"
It's a meme-tier response.
I wouldn't touch my existence at the moment either. I don't know what it is. Probably an overshare but I've found that talking about what's happening helps me to feel more normal. My family and doctor know general outlines and some specifics. But I would have felt too embarrassed to admit that aspect of the experience anywhere but here where it's at least relevant. I mean wtf would it sound like, "Cars beep beep at me because that's something a guy on a forum says to remind me of killing myself". So fucking ridiculous. I just tell them there are noises. There was a bird that sang in time with my breathing. I tried holding my breath but it would just wait as well. Fuckitol.
625
« on: September 15, 2016, 12:28:34 PM »
I don't play in traffic
rude
meme response
I'm going to share something. The worst fucking thing. I've had a massive breakdown in reality. I'm currently not sure whether we're all real. Weird and unhealthy shit has been happening around me. Patterns of paranoia and degradation. I think I might be in my own semi-lukewarm hell for people for can't quite get into heaven when they die. And challengers 'beep beep' is a part of it. Whenever I'm standing in the backyard, approaching a state you might loosely call hopeful, at that moment a car or a truck will immediately 'beep beep' me. I've learned to stay in a flat emotional state in order to avoid it happening very often but it still happens at least once a day. Madness.
626
« on: September 15, 2016, 12:18:48 PM »
I managed to wake up before 1:00 PM.
I have been waking up around 7 or 8 and going to bed before twelve. Super duper healthy. Stuff of the future. I also just figured out that ctrl+i is italics. neat
627
« on: September 15, 2016, 11:20:50 AM »
Uhm. I can wear two jackets in australia. I see people wearing a shirt and I'm wearing two jackets.
It's not even that cold, I guess.
628
« on: September 15, 2016, 09:31:16 AM »
Of course the slippery bastard is going to be all friendly when it was his fucking fault. If you were a different person you'd have torn him a new asshole. Maybe he still might have a new asshole torn for him. Metaphorically....
Sorry kiddo. Uninsured. Wink. Nudge. On ya way.
629
« on: September 15, 2016, 09:13:46 AM »
I can wear two jackets
630
« on: September 15, 2016, 09:03:02 AM »
One jacket fits over the top of another
What is your boast?
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